Though Stevens had announced plans to make an album for each of the 50 U.S. states, beginning the series with the albums 'Michigan' (2003) and 'Illinois' (2005), he has since then somewhat retracted the statement. "Sufjan Stevens is not going to write a record for each of the 50 states after all" was the original text included on the online liner notes for 'Mews Too: An Asthmatic Kitty Compilation' , a disc released on February 7, 2006. This statement was possibly included as a joke, as the text has since been removed and the current liner notes related to Sufjan Stevens reads: "Sufjan Stevens can fold a fitted-sheet (he once worked as a professional folder in a commercial Laundromat)."
Background
Stevens was born in Detroit, Michigan, and grew up in the city of Petoskey in that same state. He attended Hope College on the west coast of Michigan.
The name Sufjan is an Arabic/Persian name that predates Islam and most famously belonged to Abu Sufyan, a figure from early Islamic history. It has been mentioned in the press that the name was given to Stevens by the leader of Subud, a spiritual sect to which his parents belonged when he was born. Stevens has stated that the name is of Armenian origin and means "comes with a sword," and that it is "a charming militaristic Muslim name." In fact the name is not Armenian, and Armenia is a predominantly Christian country.
Sufjan is also the plural form of Sufi in Persian . Sufi is a practitioner of Sufism .This word is frequently used in the old Persian literature ,specially Sufi poetry .
His brother, marathonist Marzuki Stevens, has trained to compete in the 2008 Olympic trials, and has played on two of Sufjan's albums.
A multi-instrumentalist, Stevens plays the banjo, guitar, drums, and several other instruments, often playing all of these on his albums through the use of multi-tracking. While in school, he studied the oboe and English horn, which he also plays on his albums; he is one of the few musicians in popular music to use these instruments.
Career
Sufjan Stevens began his musical career as a member of Marzuki, a folk-rock band from Holland, Michigan. He also played (and continues to play) various instruments for Danielson Famile. While in school at Hope College, Stevens wrote and recorded his debut solo album, A Sun Came, which he released on Asthmatic Kitty Records, a record label he founded with his step-father in 1999. He later moved to New York City, where he was enrolled in a writing program at the New School for Social Research.
While in New York, Stevens composed and recorded the music for his second album, Enjoy Your Rabbit, a song cycle based around the animals of the Chinese Zodiac that ventured into electronica.
Stevens followed this with the first of his 50 states albums, a collection of folk songs and instrumentals inspired by his home state of Michigan. The result, the expansive Michigan, included odes to cities including Detroit and Flint, the Upper Peninsula, and vacation areas such as Tahquamenon Falls. Melded into the scenic descriptions and characters are his own declarations of faith in God, sorrow, love and the regeneration of Michigan.
Following the release of Michigan, Stevens compiled a collection of songs recorded previously into a side project, the Christian folk album Seven Swans, which was released in March 2004.
Next he released the second in the 50 states projects, entitled Come On Feel The Illinoise!. Among the subjects explored on Come On Feel The Illinoise! are the cities of Chicago, Decatur and Jacksonville, the serial killer John Wayne Gacy, the poet Carl Sandburg, and Mississippi Palisades State Park.
He has contributed to the music of Denison Witmer, Soul Junk, Half-handed Cloud, Brother Danielson, Danielson Famile, Serena Maneesh, Castanets, and Liz Janes. He played piano on for fellow Brooklyn musician's The National's album 2007 Boxer. A cover of "She Is" is included on the album Dream Brother, released in the United States on January 31, 2006.
Sufjan contributed a lot to the sound of the 2001 Liz Janes album Done Gone Fire as he engineered, recorded, produced and arranged it as well as playing many addition instruments.
Sufjan recently recorded with Rosie Thomas and Denison Witmer playing banjo and providing vocals. It is unknown how this record will be released. In April 2006, Pitchfork erroneously announced that Stevens and Thomas were having a baby together, but were forced to print a retraction. Witmer and Thomas later admitted it was an April Fools' prank.
The Fifty States Project
Beginning with Michigan, Stevens announced an intent to write an album for each of the 50 U.S. states, although in interviews he wavers between utter sincerity and self-deprecating irony when describing the idea.
Stevens spent the second half of 2004 researching and writing material for the second of these projects, this time focusing his efforts on Illinois. As with Michigan, Stevens used the state of Illinois as a leaping-off point for his more personal explorations of faith, family, love, and location.
The widely acclaimed Illinois was the highest rated album of 2005 on the Metacritic review aggregator site, based on glowing reviews from Pitchfork, The Onion A/V Club, Spin, Billboard, Entertainment Weekly, Rolling Stone, The New York Times, and The Guardian. The 2006 PLUG Independent Music Awards awarded Stevens with the Album Of The Year, Best Album Art/Packaging, and Male Artist Of The Year. Pitchfork Media and Paste Magazine named Come On Feel The Illinoise! as the editors' choice for best album of 2005 and Stevens received the 2005 Pantheon prize, awarded to albums selling 500,000 copies or fewer, for Come On Feel The Illinoise!. In April of 2006, Stevens announced that 21 pieces of music he had culled from the Come On Feel The Illinoise! recording sessions would be incorporated into a new album, called The Avalanche. The album was released on July 11, 2006.
While there were other projects rumored to be released following 2005's Illinois, by 2009 and his live album The BQE, he was seemingly finished with the project, calling it "Such a joke", and accepting that the project was too massive and too cliché to ever reach an end.
Religious themes
Many of Stevens' songs have religious and spiritual allusions, but his album Seven Swans has the most direct religious references. Stevens has expressed that he is Christian, but does not overtly advertise this aspect of himself in his music. Stevens has also stated that he does not try to make music "with a message", or music for the sake of preaching. "I don't think music media is the real forum for theological discussions," says Stevens. "I think I've said things and sung about things that probably weren't appropriate for this kind of forum. And I just feel like it's not my work or my place to be making claims and statements, because I often think it's misunderstood."
The songs 'Abraham', 'Seven Swans', 'To Be Alone With You', 'We Won't Need Legs To Stand' and 'The Transfiguration' directly address Christianity on the album Seven Swans. In 'Abraham', Sufjan recounts the Old Testament story in the Book of Genesis when Abraham, ordered by God as a test of faith, leads his son, Isaac, up a mountain and prepares to kill him, as commanded (but before God sends an angel to intervene). The lyrics of 'The Transfiguration' follow the Biblical accounts of Jesus' Transfiguration in Matthew 17:1-8, Mark 9: 1-8, and Luke 9:28-36.
Michigan and Come On Feel The Illinoise! are packed with Christian references and metaphors. Michigan contains "Sleeping Bear, Sault Saint Marie", which implores "Oh Lamb of God! Tell us Your perfect design and give us the rod" ("Lamb of God" being a Biblical name for Jesus Christ). The song "Oh God, Where Are You Now?" asks God to "hold me now", to "save somehow", searching for God in the midst of personal turmoil. "There's no other man who could save the dead," the song states. The album closer, 'Vito's Ordination Song', was apparently originally written for Sufjan's friend Vito Aiuto, and its lyrics allude directly to Psalm 139 ("I always knew you. In your mother's arms, I have called your name", "I've made a crown for you"). The song speaks of "When the bridegroom comes" - the New Testament speaks of Jesus Christ as being the Bridegroom and the Church His Bride, finally being united together at the End of Time.
Come On Feel The Illinoise! features the song 'Chicago' with its refrain of "You came to take us, to recreate us", and 'Decatur' has the chorus of "It's the great I Am" ("I Am" being the name the Lord reveals Himself by to Moses in Exodus 3:14). "Casimir Pulaski Day" speaks of "All the glory that the Lord has made" in the midst of personal pain and loss. "The Predatory Wasp of the Palisades Is Out To Get Us!" has the lyrics: "Lamb of God, we sound the horn. Hallelujah!" One instrumental passage has the title of "In This Temple as in the Hearts of Man for Whom He Saved the Earth". "The Seer's Tower" speaks of Emanuel, "With His sword, with His robe He comes dividing man from brothers" (an interesting side note is that "Sufjan" actually means "comes with a sword"). Indeed, the vast majority of songs of Come On Feel The Illinoise! contain lyric lines which can be readily identified as having a basis in Stevens' faith in Christ.
Sufjan's second, electronic album, Enjoy Your Rabbit, contains a song cycle based on of the animals of the Chinese Zodiac, culminating with the song "Year of our Lord". Stevens released the original, Christian-themed song "God'll Ne'er Let You Down" on the "To Spirit Back the Mews" compilation on Asthmatic Kitty. The officially unreleased Christmas albums Sufjan Stevens made and then compiled into Songs for Christmas feature suitably Christmas and Christian themed music, both originals and covers of hymns and traditional songs.
Trivia
On Snow Patrol's 2006 album Eyes Open there is a reference to Sufjan and the song "Chicago" in the song "Hands Open" - "Put Sufjan Stevens on and we'll play your favorite song/"Chicago" bursts to life and your sweet smile remembers you."
Sufjan has twice been featured on the FOX television show "The OC". "To Be Alone With You" and "For The Widows In Paradise, For The Fatherless In Ypsilanti" can be heard on episodes 202 and 315, respectively.
Sufjan Stevens' music has appeared twice on the Showtime dark comedy "Weeds". "All The Trees Of The Field Will Clap Their Hands" appears on S1E02 over the end credits, and "Holland" appears near the end of S2E10.
Two of Sufjan's songs appear on the soundtrack to "Little Miss Sunshine": "Chicago" and "No Man's Land"
The song "John Wayne Gacy, Jr." appears on the 3rd season of the tv show "Nip/Tuck".
Several songs can be heard on the movie "Driving Lessons"
You can also hear snippets in between CSI shows on 5US
In the TV show "Austin City Limits", he mentioned that when he was a kid, he and his best friend saw something in the sky which they couldn't figure out. They thought it was a spaceship or UFO first, then an eagle or a dragon. Finally they realized it was a giant wasp. He wrote the song "The Predatory Wasp of the Palisades is Out to Get Us!" about the incident and mentioned that the reason they (the band) all have wings on stage is to overcome his fear of flying things.
The song "Redford (For Yia-Yia & Pappou)" is heard in the 2012 "World of Red Bull" television commercial. he is quoted as saying "selling out never looked so good." and "somebody had to pay for all of that Christmas confetti." referring to his recent Christmas album and supporting tour.
In 2017 Stevens wrote two Original Songs to be featured in the gay drama film “Call me by your Name”, entitled “Mystery of Love” and “Visions of Gideon”. He also made a reworked version of his Song “Futile Devices” which is also featured on the soundtrack.
Website:http://sufjan.com
Carrie & Lowell
Sufjan Stevens Lyrics
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Such a long time ago
Like a dead horse
Meadowlark drive your arrow
Season of hope (after the flood)
Valentine, spurn my sorrow
Head on the floorboards (covered in blood)
Climb on the mattress pad
Twist my arm
Under the pear tree
Shadows and light conspiring
Covered bridge, I scream
Cottage Grove shade invite me
I will bow down (Dido's lament)
Lord of the ancient waters
From the backyard (as far as she went)
Carrie surprised me
Erebus on my back
My lucky charm
Carried by stones
Fairyland all around us
Like a dead horse
Sign of your children's fever
Carrie, come home (Thorazine's friend)
Holding your hands with opal
Like a dead horse (shall we ascend)
Flight of the mayfly
Ephemera on my back
She breaks my arm
In the song "Carrie & Lowell" by Sufjan Stevens, he is reflecting on his relationship with his mother, who passed away in 2012. The song is primarily about the memories he has of his childhood spent with his mother, Carrie, and stepfather, Lowell. The opening lines, "Carrie and Lowell, such a long time ago, like a dead horse, meadowlark, drive your arrow" sets the emotional tone of the song as melancholic and reflective.
Throughout the song, Stevens references specific memories of his time with his mother and stepfather such as "head on the floorboards, covered in blood," alluding to a car accident they had, and "under the pear tree, shadows and light conspiring," referencing a specific spot where they would sit and talk. The line "season of hope (after the flood)" refers to the biblical story of Noah's Ark and the hopefulness of new beginnings. Stevens also uses references such as "Dido's lament" and "Erebus on my back" to allude to ancient Greek mythology, which acts as a metaphor for his own personal feelings of sadness and loss.
Line by Line Meaning
Carrie and Lowell
The song is titled after Sufjan Steven's mother and stepfather's names.
Such a long time ago
The events described in the song happened a long time ago.
Like a dead horse
The repetition of this line signifies the feeling of overwhelmingness and being stuck in the past.
Meadowlark drive your arrow
Meadowlark symbolizes hope and the possibility of moving forward.
Season of hope (after the flood)
Contrasting the feeling of being stuck with the hope for change and renewal, after a difficult time like a flood.
Valentine, spurn my sorrow
Valentine refers to Sufjan's stepfather, and this line potentially indicates how he saw Valentine's impact on his mom.
Head on the floorboards (covered in blood)
Potentially, recalling a traumatic event, represented as a violent and blood-soaked scene.
Drunk as a horsefly
The metaphor means losing control and feeling helpless.
Climb on the mattress pad
The song speaks from the perspective of a child, on a bed, trying to connect with their mother.
Twist my arm
Implies force applied to the child in some way by the mother, either physically or emotionally.
Under the pear tree
This could be a reference to Jesus, as the author is deeply religious.
Shadows and light conspiring
Introducing the clashing dichotomy of the two elements, representing how the memories of his past have both positive and negative elements.
Covered bridge, I scream
Potentially relating to an event in his childhood or within his family, represented metaphorically.
Cottage Grove shade invite me
Returning to an old place where they have a connection with Carrie's life.
I will bow down (Dido's lament)
Referencing an ancient Greek tale, where the singer would rather die than confront the past.
Lord of the ancient waters
Comparing himself to the lord of the ancient (overwhelming) emotions he felt in his past.
From the backyard (as far as she went)
Sufjan is limited in his memories of his mother and his childhood, only being able to recall what happened from his backyard.
Carrie surprised me
Potentially expressing both admiration and sadness due to the unorthodox and loose way of how his mother raised him.
Erebus on my back
Introducing the idea of the underworld and the association with the earth, suggesting an all-encompassing pain or trauma present within the singer.
My lucky charm
In the past, Sufjan believed his mother was his lucky charm.
Carried by stones
Potentially describing the weighty burden that a family can place upon a child.
Fairyland all around us
The depression and instability present in his family life apparent to the young child as a place with no hope or happiness, but all around him.
Sign of your children's fever
Alluding to the way that past traumas can impact future generations.
Carrie, come home (Thorazine's friend)
Thorazine is a sedative and anti-depressant that can be used to treat bipolar disorder, and potentially referencing the archaic ways that they tried to treat his mother's bipolar disorder.
Holding your hands with opal
The opal could reference his mother's religious beliefs or the memories of her hands.
Like a dead horse (shall we ascend)
A repeated phrase that could be symbolizing the two starkly different paths forward: remaining stuck, or trying to move forward.
Flight of the mayfly
Mayflies are known for their short life span, suggesting the fleeting feeling of joy and innocence in childhood.
Ephemera on my back
Referencing the theme of the transitory nature of existence, and how the past is a weight on his life.
She breaks my arm
Implies a powerful impact, the deep-rooted and lasting pain of memories from the past.
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Written by: Sufjan Stevens
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@gabrielledennis549
00:00 Death With Dignity
04:00 Should Have Known Better
09:07 All of Me Wants All Of You
12:52 Drawn to the Blood
16:10 Eugene
18:42 Fourth of July
23:23 The Only Thing
28:07 Carrie & Lowell
31:22 John My Beloved
36:30 No Shade in the Shadow of the Cross
39:11 Blue Bucket of Gold
43:57 Album credits
@Truthmoses
Just left my mother's bedside and am meeting with hospice in the morning, hoping to ease her passing. Nothing unusual or unexpected about a 92 yr old passing, but up until 8 days ago, she was sharp as a tack, full of life and vigor. She had been blessed with good health most of her life, but in this last yr she developed some heart problems, but had overcome each setback. I had expected that again with a recent flair-up, but alas, it was not meant to be.
She raised 4 children, and gave us absolutely every thing she had. And though she loved each of us equally, she also loved us each differently, with a love tailored for the unique needs, blessings, and sorrows each one of us carried. She taught me how to crawl, walk, then run as a baby. And when i stumbled again as a 35 yr old man, she talk me how to crawl, walk, and run again. I am 58 and solid on the ground, thanks to her.
Funny story-In June, I took her to a dr visit. Leaving her house, like always, I gave her a big hug. The next morning, I felt a tickle in my throat, and got tested for Covid, which was positive. My first thought was that big hug I stole from her 24 hrs earlier probably was going to kill her. Her only comment when I called about getting her tested was "if i didnt get it from you then, then I doubt i will get it from you later, so keep coming by." She tested negative, but did tell me I needed to wash my hands more.
So it's down to this-I've always had an uneasy alliance with grief, and quite frankly, I'm unfamiliar with it. But those waves are crashing now, and seem to be pouring out from the core of my bones. But stronger than the grief is an overwhelming sense of gratitude i feel for having had her so deep into my life.
It is a grief that only a poet can articulate. God bless you Mr Stevens. I heard this song a few yrs back and knew it would be my map thru grief when that day comes. It is here.
I do not ask for, nor deserve- any pity. I simply pray that her agitation ends and that she be given a peaceful passage. I thank the Lord above for her. When I came into the world that cold day in February of 1963, I know he gave me the best one he had available that day.
@index0066
1- death with dignity
Spirit of my silence I can hear you, but I'm afraid to be near you
And I don't know where to begin
And I don't know where to begin
Somewhere in the desert there's a forest, and an acre before us
But I don't know where to begin
But I don't know where to begin
Again I lost my strength completely, oh be near me tired old mare
With the wind in your hair
Amethyst and flowers on the table, is it real or a fable?
Well I suppose a friend is a friend
And we all know how this will end
Chimney swift that finds me be my keeper, silhouette of the cedar
What is that song you sing for the dead
What is that song you sing for the dead
I see the signal searchlight strike me, in the window of my room
Well I got nothing to prove
Well I got nothing to prove
I forgive you mother I can hear you, and I long to be near you
But every road leads to an end
Yes every road leads to an end
Your apparition passes through me, in the willows and five red hens
You'll never see us again
You'll never see us again
The rest is down
Have a nice day💜
@index0066
2- should have known better
I should have known better
To see what I could see
My black shroud
Holding down my feelings
A pillar for my enemies
I should have wrote a letter
And grieve what I happen to grieve
My black shroud
I never trust my feelings
I waited for the remedy
When I was three, three maybe four
She left us at that video store
Oh, be my rest, be my fantasy
Oh, be my rest, be my fantasy
I'm light as a feather
I'm bright as the Oregon breeze
My black shroud
Frightened by my feelings
I only want to be a relief
No, I'm not a go-getter
The demon had a spell on me
My black shroud
Captain of my feelings
The only thing I want to believe
When I was three, and free to explore
I saw her face on the back of the door
Oh, be my rest, be my fantasy
Oh, be my rest, be my fantasy
@index0066
4- drawn to the blood
I'm drawn to the blood
The flight of a one-winged dove
How? How did this happen?
How? How did this happen?
The strength of his arm
My lover caught me off guard
How? Head of a rabbit
How? Head of a rabbit
For my prayer has always been love
What did I do to deserve this?
With blood on my sleeve
Delilah, avenge my grief
How? God of Elijah
How? God of Elijah
As fire to the sun
Tell me what I have done
How? Heart of a dragon
How? Heart of a dragon
For my prayer has always been love
What did I do to deserve this now?
How did this happen?
@index0066
5- eugene
Light struck from the lemon tree
What if I'd never seen
Hysterical light from Eugene?
Lemon yogurt
Remember I pulled at your shirt
I dropped the ashtray on the floor
I just wanted to be near you
Emerald Park, wonders never cease
The man who taught me to swim
He couldn't quite say my first name
Like a father, he led Community water upon my head
And he called me "Subaru"
And now I want to be near you
Since I was old enough to speak
I've said it with alarm
Some part of me was lost in your sleeve
Where you hid your cigarettes
No, I'll never forget
I just want to be near you
Still I pray to what I cannot see
In the sprinkler, I mark the evidence
Known from the start
From the bed near your death
And all the machines that made a mess
Far away the falcon flew
Now I want to be near you
What's left is only bittersweet
For the rest of my life
Admitting the best is behind me
Now I'm drunk and afraid
Wishing the world would go away
What's the point of singing songs
If they'll never even hear you?
@index0066
6- fourth of july
The evil it spread like a fever ahead
It was night when you died, my firefly
What could I have said to raise you from the dead?
Oh could I be the sky on the Fourth of July?
Well you do enough talk
My little hawk, why do you cry?
Tell me what did you learn from the Tillamook burn?
Or the Fourth of July?
We're all gonna die
Sitting at the bed with the halo at your head
Was it all a disguise, like Junior High
Where everything was fiction, future, and prediction
Now, where am I?
My fading supply
Did you get enough love, my little dove
Why do you cry?
And I'm sorry I left, but it was for the best
Though it never felt right
My little Versailles
The hospital asked should the body be cast
Before I say goodbye, my star in the sky
Such a funny thought to wrap you up in cloth
Do you find it all right, my dragonfly?
Shall we look at the moon, my little loon
Why do you cry?
Make the most of your life, while it is rife
While it is light
Well you do enough talk
My little hawk, why do you cry?
Tell me what did you learn from the Tillamook burn?
Or the Fourth of July?
We're all gonna die
We're all gonna die
We're all gonna die
We're all gonna die
We're all gonna die
We're all gonna die
We're all gonna die
We're all gonna die
@index0066
7- the only thing
The only thing that keeps me from driving this car
Half-light, jack knife into the canyon at night
Signs and wonders, Perseus aligned with the skull
Slain Medusa, Pegasus alight from us all
Do I care if I survive this, bury the dead where they're found
In a veil of great surprises I wonder did you love me at all?
The only thing that keeps me from cutting my arm
Cross hatch, warm bath, Holiday Inn after dark
Signs and wonders, water stain writing the wall
Daniel's message, blood of the moon on us all
Do I care if I despise this, nothing else matters, I know
In a veil of great disguises, how do I live with your ghost?
Should I tear my eyes out now?
Everything I see returns to you somehow
Should I tear my heart out now?
Everything I feel returns to you somehow
I want to save you from your sorrow
The only reason why I continue at all
Faith in reason, I wasted my life playing dumb
Signs and wonders, sea lion caves in the dark
Blind faith, God's grace, nothing else left to impart
Do I care if I survive this, bury the dead where they're found
In a veil of great surprises, hold to my head till I drown
Should I tear my eyes out now, before I see too much?
Should I tear my arms out now, I wanna feel your touch
Should I tear my eyes out now?
Everything I see returns to you somehow
Should I tear my heart out now?
Everything I feel returns to you somehow
@hiphyro
This album is very good at emotionally destroying me. It’s only 7 years old but it’s extremely nostalgic for me; I’m young enough that whenever I heard it it was always in the back of my parents’ car, and when I found this album again here on YouTube I skipped through it as I realized I knew every single song on it. It made me quiet then and it still does. Thank you for this. I don’t think I’d be the person I am today without it.
“So, can we be friends, sweetly, before the mystery ends?
I love you more than the world can contain in its lonely and ramshackle head.
There’s only a shadow of me in the matter of speaking
I’m dead.”
@teddi5039
Sufjan is like the first sip of water after a sandstorm.
@joatanpereira4272
His voice is like a warm hug
@sarahcover3116
Its like a empty old house who have a lot of memories in it
@carmen2667
Like feet dancing through grass wet with dew
@kazzz2765
It's a feeling of pure childlike wonder. No better way can i describe it
@aradhyanegi4897
It's like the feeling when you are dancing slowly in the shower and you see the water droplets refracting little rainbows 😭
@siluetadevapor
I don't know how Sufjan just stands in front of people and sings this songs without falling apart
@pantalaemon
i'm guessing he sings it in front of people and in a way that keeps him from falling apart
@hoagielamp6543
I don't know how y'all can consider this so emotional. The Antlers, Pat The Bunny, AJJ and Paul Baribeau are way more emotional in subject matter and vocalization.
@insidevoices6003
@Hoagie Lamp dude I love AJJ but you have to admit a lot of their songs have a layer of separation that's just inherent to the folk punk genre. When Sean talks about his abuse there's a degree of dramatisation, you can tell he's coping with it. This album is so raw, Sufjan is just pouring his heart out. AJJ can be emotional but it never really got me in the same emotional way that this record does.