Carrie & Lowell
Sufjan Stevens Lyrics


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Carrie and Lowell
Such a long time ago
Like a dead horse
Meadowlark drive your arrow

Season of hope (after the flood)
Valentine, spurn my sorrow
Head on the floorboards (covered in blood)
Drunk as a horsefly
Climb on the mattress pad
Twist my arm

Under the pear tree
Shadows and light conspiring
Covered bridge, I scream
Cottage Grove shade invite me

I will bow down (Dido's lament)
Lord of the ancient waters
From the backyard (as far as she went)
Carrie surprised me
Erebus on my back
My lucky charm

Carried by stones
Fairyland all around us
Like a dead horse
Sign of your children's fever

Carrie, come home (Thorazine's friend)
Holding your hands with opal
Like a dead horse (shall we ascend)
Flight of the mayfly




Ephemera on my back
She breaks my arm

Overall Meaning

In the song "Carrie & Lowell" by Sufjan Stevens, he is reflecting on his relationship with his mother, who passed away in 2012. The song is primarily about the memories he has of his childhood spent with his mother, Carrie, and stepfather, Lowell. The opening lines, "Carrie and Lowell, such a long time ago, like a dead horse, meadowlark, drive your arrow" sets the emotional tone of the song as melancholic and reflective.


Throughout the song, Stevens references specific memories of his time with his mother and stepfather such as "head on the floorboards, covered in blood," alluding to a car accident they had, and "under the pear tree, shadows and light conspiring," referencing a specific spot where they would sit and talk. The line "season of hope (after the flood)" refers to the biblical story of Noah's Ark and the hopefulness of new beginnings. Stevens also uses references such as "Dido's lament" and "Erebus on my back" to allude to ancient Greek mythology, which acts as a metaphor for his own personal feelings of sadness and loss.


Line by Line Meaning

Carrie and Lowell
The song is titled after Sufjan Steven's mother and stepfather's names.


Such a long time ago
The events described in the song happened a long time ago.


Like a dead horse
The repetition of this line signifies the feeling of overwhelmingness and being stuck in the past.


Meadowlark drive your arrow
Meadowlark symbolizes hope and the possibility of moving forward.


Season of hope (after the flood)
Contrasting the feeling of being stuck with the hope for change and renewal, after a difficult time like a flood.


Valentine, spurn my sorrow
Valentine refers to Sufjan's stepfather, and this line potentially indicates how he saw Valentine's impact on his mom.


Head on the floorboards (covered in blood)
Potentially, recalling a traumatic event, represented as a violent and blood-soaked scene.


Drunk as a horsefly
The metaphor means losing control and feeling helpless.


Climb on the mattress pad
The song speaks from the perspective of a child, on a bed, trying to connect with their mother.


Twist my arm
Implies force applied to the child in some way by the mother, either physically or emotionally.


Under the pear tree
This could be a reference to Jesus, as the author is deeply religious.


Shadows and light conspiring
Introducing the clashing dichotomy of the two elements, representing how the memories of his past have both positive and negative elements.


Covered bridge, I scream
Potentially relating to an event in his childhood or within his family, represented metaphorically.


Cottage Grove shade invite me
Returning to an old place where they have a connection with Carrie's life.


I will bow down (Dido's lament)
Referencing an ancient Greek tale, where the singer would rather die than confront the past.


Lord of the ancient waters
Comparing himself to the lord of the ancient (overwhelming) emotions he felt in his past.


From the backyard (as far as she went)
Sufjan is limited in his memories of his mother and his childhood, only being able to recall what happened from his backyard.


Carrie surprised me
Potentially expressing both admiration and sadness due to the unorthodox and loose way of how his mother raised him.


Erebus on my back
Introducing the idea of the underworld and the association with the earth, suggesting an all-encompassing pain or trauma present within the singer.


My lucky charm
In the past, Sufjan believed his mother was his lucky charm.


Carried by stones
Potentially describing the weighty burden that a family can place upon a child.


Fairyland all around us
The depression and instability present in his family life apparent to the young child as a place with no hope or happiness, but all around him.


Sign of your children's fever
Alluding to the way that past traumas can impact future generations.


Carrie, come home (Thorazine's friend)
Thorazine is a sedative and anti-depressant that can be used to treat bipolar disorder, and potentially referencing the archaic ways that they tried to treat his mother's bipolar disorder.


Holding your hands with opal
The opal could reference his mother's religious beliefs or the memories of her hands.


Like a dead horse (shall we ascend)
A repeated phrase that could be symbolizing the two starkly different paths forward: remaining stuck, or trying to move forward.


Flight of the mayfly
Mayflies are known for their short life span, suggesting the fleeting feeling of joy and innocence in childhood.


Ephemera on my back
Referencing the theme of the transitory nature of existence, and how the past is a weight on his life.


She breaks my arm
Implies a powerful impact, the deep-rooted and lasting pain of memories from the past.




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Written by: Sufjan Stevens

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Comments from YouTube:

william clift

dear asthmatic kitty,

are all of sufjan's iphone demos this divine? I would pay you lots of money for an album full of them

I remain,
me

Katie Nanami Kosharek

god i would give anything to listen to all his iphone demos

themilkeyedmender

his voice absolutely crushes me on this one

themilkeyedmender

we're all gonna die

Scarlett1897

This is the man i'd like to have as a father, as a brother, as a friend, as a lover.
He's everything

Amy Li

I will never stop crying over the angel that is Sufjan

Vengesta C.

I love the emotion in his voice, really a beautiful and tragic song

Taresh Vohra

Suberu Sedans at it again.

Evelina Morgan

This angelic creature OMG 😍

Arqueete

So I guess lowercase letters don't exist in Sufjan's typeface?

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