Lost Again
Suicidal T Lyrics


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Lost it! I'm caught in a rage
Like an animal locked in a cage
Now I look into the barrel of a gauge-boom!
Made me into the fool
Experimented on me like an animal
Turned me into a common criminal-criminal!
I lost it, but I gotta get with it
Mutherfucker, now you're gonna get it
I ain't one that'll sit and forget it

I got into a war I can never win
Where the nightmare never ever ends
And I don't know what I'm saying
Got into a war with reality
That motherfucker it was waiting for me
And I lost again!
I lost again!

Took my dreams, ya left them there shattered
Took my hopes, ya dug them and they splattered
Took my mind like it didn't even matter
Entered a world that I didn't belong
Thought I could take it but I stayed too long
Thought I could handle it,
boy was I wrong!

Fighting a war I can never win
Where the nightmare never ever ends
And I'm not into playing
Got into a war with reality
That motherfucker it was waiting for me
And I lost it again!

Lost it! Lost again
Lost it! Lost again
Lost it! Lost again
I Lost it!

I went to war with reality
That motherfucker he was waiting for me
I never thought this could happen to me-damn!
Down so low but I can't be no higher
When I was burning up you put wood in the fire
You ain't nothing but a goddamn liar-liar!
Took all my strength now I tremble and drop
You got to be down to go over the top
Oh, God can't you make this laughter stop?

Died in a war I could never win
Where the nightmare never ever ends
And I lost it again
Got into a war with reality
That motherfucker it was waiting for me
And I lost again!

Liar, killer! Lost again!
I lost!
Murder, Killer! Hell I lost again!
No! No!
Cleanse me from your evil
You broke your promises!
What did I do to deserve this?
No one to save me from it!
Oh, Lord please have mercy
And now I've come to see it
Something's gone wrong with me
I guess I got lost in reality




Hell I lost again!
Sure ain't easy, hell I lost again!

Overall Meaning

Suicidal Tendencies's song "Lost Again" tells the story of a person who has lost it and is caught in a rage like an animal locked in a cage. The lyrics describe being experimented on like an animal, turning the person into a common criminal. They are fighting a war that they can never win, where the nightmare never ends. They have lost their dreams, hopes, and mind. They have gone to war with reality, and reality was waiting for them. The song ends with the realization that something has gone wrong with the person, and they are lost in reality.


The song is an autobiographical account of the band's lead singer, Mike Muir's experiences with the mental health system. He felt that he was being experimented on like an animal and that the system was turning him into a criminal. The song is a testament to the frustration he felt with the system.


Line by Line Meaning

Lost it! I'm caught in a rage
I am overwhelmed with anger, unable to control it.


Like an animal locked in a cage
I feel trapped and helpless like a caged animal.


Now I look into the barrel of a gauge-boom!
I am faced with the possibility of taking my own life with a gun.


Made me into the fool
I have been made to look foolish by someone else.


Experimented on me like an animal
Someone has treated me like a subject to be experimented on, without any regard for my well-being.


Turned me into a common criminal-criminal!
I have been driven to behave in ways that are criminal, making me feel like I no longer have control over my own actions.


I lost it, but I gotta get with it
I have lost control of my situation, but I need to regain it.


Mutherfucker, now you're gonna get it
Whoever is responsible for my situation will face consequences for their actions.


I ain't one that'll sit and forget it
I will not let this go and will take action to address it.


Took my dreams, ya left them there shattered
Someone has destroyed my dreams and left them in ruins.


Took my hopes, ya dug them and they splattered
My hope has been dashed and destroyed.


Took my mind like it didn't even matter
My sense of self and sanity have been taken away from me as if they were meaningless.


Entered a world that I didn't belong
I have been thrust into a situation that doesn't fit me or my life experience.


Thought I could take it but I stayed too long
I underestimated the difficulty of the situation and stayed longer than I should have, making things worse.


Thought I could handle it, boy was I wrong!
I believed I could handle the situation, but I was mistaken.


Liar, killer! Lost again!
Whoever is responsible for my situation is a liar and a killer and I have lost again as a result.


Cleanse me from your evil
I want to be rid of the harm and darkness inflicted upon me by another.


You broke your promises!
Someone has betrayed my trust and broken promises made to me.


What did I do to deserve this?
I am questioning why I have been subjected to such suffering and pain.


No one to save me from it!
No one is coming to rescue me from this situation.


Oh, Lord please have mercy
I am asking for mercy and help from a higher power.


And now I've come to see it
I have realized the full extent of my situation and the harm it has caused me.


Something's gone wrong with me
I feel that something inside me has changed as a result of what I have experienced.


I guess I got lost in reality
My sense of reality has been shattered and I no longer feel sure of what is real or true.


Sure ain't easy, hell I lost again!
This situation is incredibly difficult and once again, I have lost.


Got into a war with reality
I am fighting against my perception of reality, which is causing me harm.


That motherfucker it was waiting for me
The challenges and difficulties I am facing were always there, waiting for me to encounter them.


And I lost again!
Sadly, I have lost the fight against my reality once again.


Died in a war I could never win
My situation has led me to feel defeated and as if I have lost everything.


Where the nightmare never ever ends
My situation is a living nightmare from which I cannot escape.


And I lost it again
Once again, I have failed to overcome my situation.


Lost it! Lost again
I am overwhelmed and defeated once again.


I Lost it!
I am unable to cope or manage the situation any longer.


Murder, Killer! Hell I lost again!
The pain and anguish I feel is akin to being a victim of murder or violence, and I have lost the fight once again.




Lyrics © O/B/O DistroKid
Written by: GEORGE, MUIR

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Comments from YouTube:

@JohnSmith-rk6jy

This is Awesome man. Well done. Killer Edit. Made the song even more Betterer than it already was/is.

@eyeonyouproductions9745

Thanks for that. It means a lot to us. Probably going to do another suicidal real soon.

@JohnSmith-rk6jy

@@eyeonyouproductions9745 Awesomeness. Do anything from the first 3 albums and demo Broseph!

@chrispikolycky7633

Even in 2023 this song is f'n strong👊

@Salty4Reel

One of my all time favorites. ST keep on rocking , you guys were a huge musical inspiration and kicked some serious ass

@mr198221

Haven't heard this in a minute. Great album, great song.

@lepenon_com

been listening to this song, and globally to the full album, over and over for more than 15 years.
Watched this clip again recently and I realized that this song would probably not only relate to skating. That's crazy how the lyrics depict harassment so well. The words are exactly those of a nightmare situation like those you can get at school, university or work when you come from different social backgrounds, and someone or a group of a$$h*les start developing full scale harassment frenzy right at you. You end up loosing your mind from the continuous and growing feelings of rage. Some people get suicide, or get to the extremes like hardcore skating or whatever, but in any way it ends up progressively destroying your life, exactly as the lyrics tell.

@jerry42023

It also relates to the plandemic

@GoldenGateNum9

How Disposable Heroes would've sounded if Dave Mustaine was still in Metallica.. i've always been obsessed with triplet picking, & this amazing song gets me every time, ST 4eva ❤

@jimmychevelle8260

It reminds me of a Megadeth riff too. Me and my other friends grew up on this and we all play guitar really good and said that riff is thrash all the way. RJ was so underrated he had sick solos and riffs and tone lead tone. I went to Germany for a year in the 9th grade as a exchange student and suicidal is or was huge there.

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