The song follows "Mike", presumably a teenage Mike Muir, through a series of social conflicts with friends and, more significantly, parents. The lyrics in the verses are not sung, but spoken in a run-on sentence style. The lyrics are complemented by the lead guitar, which is subdued at the start of the verses, but becomes more frantic and powerful with the protagonist's confrontations and emotional outbursts, mainly based on a heavy, funk-influenced riff that increases in speed several sections before each chorus. This is one of the few examples of funk influence in the band's music before the entrance of bassist Robert Trujillo, the member who introduced the genre to the band with the recording of Lights...Camera...Revolution!.
Although "Institutionalized" was never a hit in the charts, it was the first hardcore punk and thrash metal song to receive significant airplay on MTV and is considered to be one of the songs that defines both genres. Tom Araya of the band Slayer appears in the video, along with actors Jack Nance and Mary Woronov.
Institutionalized
Suicidal Tendencies Lyrics
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And I get real frustrated, and its like
And I try hard to do it and take my time
And it just doesn't work out the way I want it too
It's like I concentrate on it real hard but it just doesn't work out
And everything I do and everything I try, it never turns out
It's like I need time to figure these things out
But there's always someone there going
Hey Mike: You know we've been noticing you've been having a lot of problems lately
You know, maybe you get away, and like maybe you should talk about it,
You'll feel a lot better
And I go: No it's okay, you know I'll figure it out
Just leave me alone I'll figure it out
You know I'll just work it on myself,
And they go: Well you know if you want to talk about it I'll be here, you know
And you'll probably feel a lot better if you talk about it, so want don't you talk about it
And I go: No I don't want to, I'm okay, I'll figure it out myself
And they just keep bugging me and they just keep bugging me
And it builds up inside
So you're gonna be institutionalized
You'll come out brainwashed with bloodshot eyes
You won't have any say
They'll brainwash you until you see their way
I'm not crazy - institution
You're the one who's crazy - institution
You're driving me crazy - institution
They stuck me in an institution
Said it was the only solution
To give me the needed professional help
To protect me from the enemy - myself
I was in my room and I was just like staring at the wall thinking about everything
But then again I was thinking about nothing
And then my mom came in and I didn't even know she was there she called my name
And I didn't even hear it, and then she started screaming: MIKE! MIKE!
And I go: What, what's the matter?
And she goes: What's the matter with you?
I go: There's nothing wrong mom
And she goes: Don't tell me that, you're on drugs!
And I go: No mom I'm not on drugs I'm okay, I was just thinking you know,
Why don't you get me a Pepsi
And she goes: No you're on drugs!
I go: Mom I'm okay, I'm just thinking
She goes: No you're not thinking, you're on drugs! Normal people don't act that way!
I go: Mom just give me a Pepsi, please
All I want is a Pepsi, and she wouldn't give it to me
All I wanted was a Pepsi, just one Pepsi, and she wouldn't give it to me
Just a Pepsi
They give you a white shirt with long sleeves
Tied around you're back, you're treated like thieves
Drug you up because they're lazy
It's too much work to help a crazy
I'm not crazy - institution
You're the one who's crazy - institution
You're driving me crazy - institution
They stuck me in an institution
Said it was the only solution
To give me the needed professional help
To protect me from the enemy - myself
I was sitting in my room and my mom and my dad came in
And they pulled up a chair and they sat down, they go:
Mike, we need to talk to you
And I go: Okay what's the matter
They go:
Me and your mom have been noticing lately that you've been having a lot of problems,
You've been going off for no reason and we're afraid you're gonna hurt somebody,
We're afraid you're gonna hurt yourself
So we decided that it would be in your interest if we put you somewhere
Where you could get the help that you need
And I go: Wait, what are you talking about, we decided!?
My best interest?! How do you know what's my best interest is?
How can you say what my best interest is? What are you trying to say, I'm crazy?
When I went to your schools, I went to your churches,
I went to your institutional learning facilities?! So how can you say I'm crazy?
They say they're gonna fix my brain
Alleviate my suffering and my pain
But by the time they fix my head
Mentally I'll be dead
I'm not crazy - institution
You're the one who's crazy - institution
You're driving me crazy - institution
They stuck me in an institution
Said it was the only solution
To give me the needed professional help
To protect me from the enemy - myself
It doesn't matter, I'll probably get hit by a car anyway
The song "Institutionalized" by Suicidal Tendencies is a commentary on mental health institutions and the way they treat patients who may not need to be there. The song follows a character, named Mike, who is frustrated with his life and the way everything he tries to do ends up going wrong. His friends and family notice that he's been struggling and encourage him to talk to someone about his feelings. However, Mike is resistant to the idea, insisting that he can handle it on his own. The pressure builds up, and eventually, he's put into a mental institution where he's given medication and treatment that he doesn't need.
The lyrics showcase Mike's frustration with the people around him who can't seem to understand what he's going through. He wants to be left alone to figure things out on his own, but people keep interfering, and it only makes him feel worse. The repetition of the line "I'm not crazy - institution, you're the one who's crazy" highlights the way that mental institutions can make people feel like they're the problem, even when they're not.
Overall, "Institutionalized" is a powerful commentary on the way society deals with mental health issues. It highlights the importance of understanding and listening to people who are struggling, rather than assuming that they need to be locked up and medicated.
Line by Line Meaning
Sometimes I try to do things and it just doesn't work out the way I wanted too
I attempt to complete tasks but they do not go according to my plans
And I get real frustrated, and its like
This makes me extremely annoyed and agitated
And I try hard to do it and take my time
I put in effort and give the task my full attention
And it just doesn't work out the way I want it too
Despite this, my efforts are still unsuccessful
It's like I concentrate on it real hard but it just doesn't work out
Though I focus on it intently, the task remains incomplete
And everything I do and everything I try, it never turns out
All of my attempts seem to fail, leaving me feeling discouraged
It's like I need time to figure these things out
I require additional time to contemplate and understand the situation
But there's always someone there going
However, there is always someone who interrupts me
Hey Mike: You know we've been noticing you've been having a lot of problems lately
People have been observing that I have been experiencing difficulties as of late
You know, maybe you get away, and like maybe you should talk about it,
Perhaps you should take a break and seek counsel to discuss your problems
You'll feel a lot better
Doing so could alleviate the burden on your mind
And I go: No it's okay, you know I'll figure it out
I refuse their advice and assure them that I am capable of handling it myself
Just leave me alone I'll figure it out
I ask to be left alone to solve the problem by myself
You know I'll just work it on myself,
I am confident in my own ability to solve the issue independently
And they go: Well you know if you want to talk about it I'll be here, you know
The people continue to offer their assistance and support
And you'll probably feel a lot better if you talk about it, so want don't you talk about it
They urge me to discuss my problems, as it may help alleviate my distress
And I go: No I don't want to, I'm okay, I'll figure it out myself
I reject their offer to talk, insisting that I am fine and capable of resolving the issue
And they just keep bugging me and they just keep bugging me
They persistently continue to pester me despite my resistance
And it builds up inside
This pressure and scrutiny leads to frustration and tension
So you're gonna be institutionalized
This problematic behavior will result in being institutionalized
You'll come out brainwashed with bloodshot eyes
As a result, you will emerge from this system manipulated and distressed
You won't have any say
You will lack any control over the situation and your own life
They'll brainwash you until you see their way
They will condition you until you adopt their views and perspectives
I'm not crazy - institution
I am not insane, despite being institutionalized
You're the one who's crazy - institution
It is those who are enforcing this system who are irrational and unreasonable
You're driving me crazy - institution
Their actions are causing me to feel mentally unstable and distressed
They stuck me in an institution
They forcefully committed me to a mental institution
Said it was the only solution
They claimed this was the only viable option for me
To give me the needed professional help
The intention was to provide me with required medical assistance and support
To protect me from the enemy - myself
They view me as a danger to myself and seek to protect me from my own behavior
I was in my room and I was just like staring at the wall thinking about everything
I was sitting alone in my room, contemplating my thoughts and life in general
But then again I was thinking about nothing
At times, deep thought would transform into empty-mindedness
And then my mom came in and I didn't even know she was there she called my name
My mother entered my room without me realizing as I was lost in thought
And I didn't even hear it, and then she started screaming: MIKE! MIKE!
I was so far deep in my thoughts that I did not even hear her call my name
And I go: What, what's the matter?
I finally responded, asking what was wrong
And she goes: What's the matter with you?
My mother inquired about my mental state
I go: There's nothing wrong mom
I assured her that I was perfectly fine and had no issues
And she goes: Don't tell me that, you're on drugs!
She did not believe me, and thought I was under the influence of drugs
And I go: No mom I'm not on drugs I'm okay, I was just thinking you know,
I deny her accusations and shared that my quiet behavior was due to deep thought
Why don't you get me a Pepsi
I attempted to divert the conversation by asking for a drink
And she goes: No you're on drugs!
She remained unconvinced and believed I was lying about my state
I go: Mom I'm okay, I'm just thinking
I tried to reiterate that I was just lost in thought
She goes: No you're not thinking, you're on drugs! Normal people don't act that way!
She insists that my behavior is abnormal and drug-induced
I go: Mom just give me a Pepsi, please
I continued to plead for a drink and to be left in peace
All I want is a Pepsi, and she wouldn't give it to me
Despite my requests, she refused to give me a drink
All I wanted was a Pepsi, just one Pepsi, and she wouldn't give it to me
I was fixated on simply receiving a drink, but my mother did not comply
Just a Pepsi
All I desired was one soft drink
They give you a white shirt with long sleeves
In a mental institution, patients are given a specific outfit to wear
Tied around you're back, you're treated like thieves
These clothes are restrained behind their back as a precaution against violent outbursts
Drug you up because they're lazy
Medical professionals may prescribe sedatives for their own convenience, rather than as necessary treatment for the patient
It's too much work to help a crazy
Mental illness patients may require a great deal of attention and assistance, which some medical professionals may not be willing to provide
I was sitting in my room and my mom and my dad came in
Once again, my parents barged into my room unannounced
And they pulled up a chair and they sat down, they go:
They then sat down and proceeded to have a talk with me
Mike, we need to talk to you
They begin by addressing me directly
Me and your mom have been noticing lately that you've been having a lot of problems,
They then go on to tell me their concerns about my problematic behavior
You've been going off for no reason and we're afraid you're gonna hurt somebody,
They fear that my behavior may lead to harm towards myself or others
We're afraid you're gonna hurt yourself
Specifically, they are concerned about the potential danger I am posing towards myself
So we decided that it would be in your interest if we put you somewhere
As a result of these concerns, they decided it necessary to take action
Where you could get the help that you need
They wanted me to receive aid for my struggles
And I go: Wait, what are you talking about, we decided!?
I am taken aback by their sudden decision
My best interest?! How do you know what's my best interest is?
I question their ability to know what is best for me
How can you say what my best interest is? What are you trying to say, I'm crazy?
I feel as though they are insulting my mental health and making assumptions
When I went to your schools, I went to your churches,
I list examples of mainstream institutions that I previously attended
I went to your institutional learning facilities?! So how can you say I'm crazy?
I point out the irony of them questioning my sanity, given my involvement in institutionalized education
They say they're gonna fix my brain
The medical team assures me that they can 'fix' my mental health
Alleviate my suffering and my pain
Their aim is to reduce and eliminate my symptoms of mental illness
But by the time they fix my head
However, the process of changing my mindset will take some time
Mentally I'll be dead
While they may be successful in treating my illness, it could mean losing my sense of self or individuality
It doesn't matter, I'll probably get hit by a car anyway
Regardless of the treatment I receive, I may still ultimately come to harm or injury
Lyrics © BMG Rights Management, Universal Music Publishing Group
Written by: Louis Mayorga, Mike Muir
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