Too Much
Suicide Machine Lyrics

When the extra weight hits my brain I feel like I'm going insane
When my mind is overloaded with thoughts, it becomes difficult for me to cope with them and I feel like I'm losing my sanity.

That's when the hand of god cuts my cord
At my breaking point, it feels like a divine intervention when I finally lose control and let everything go.

That's when I feel like Jah the Lord
At the moment of total release, I feel a sense of power and control over myself, like I am a deity or god.

My heart is pumping blood into my head
My elevated stress levels cause my heart to pump blood more quickly and intensely, which adds to my feeling of pressure in my head.

And I feel just like a thousand pounds of lead
The pressure in my head and the heaviness of my thoughts weigh down on me, making it feel like I am carrying a heavy weight on my shoulders.

And the right half of my body has gone numb
The physical manifestation of my mental distress can cause me to experience numbness on one side of my body, which is a sign of a panic or anxiety attack.

I think it's too much, a little too much
The overwhelming feeling of emotional and mental pressure has become too much for me to bear, and I don't know how much longer I can take it.

When the monster inside my head is telling me I'm better off dead
Sometimes my negative self-talk and intrusive thoughts are so intense that they convince me that it would be better if I wasn't alive.

That's when my mind's turned upside down
The extreme negativity and mental pressure have caused me to lose a sense of rationality or stability, and my thoughts and emotions are all over the place.

That's when you wish you weren't around
The intensity of my negative thoughts has become unbearable not just for me, but for the people around me as well, who can't help but feel helpless and frustrated.

My head is telling me that it's not right
My rational mind knows that the negative thoughts and feelings I am experiencing are not conducive to good mental health or overall wellness.

Your face is such an unfamiliar sight
During moments of extreme stress and anxiety, my perception of reality can be distorted and even the faces of people I know well can seem unfamiliar or strange.

And when I'm flying high as a fucking kite
Sometimes, to escape the overwhelming emotions and thoughts, I turn to drugs or other substances to numb myself, but it only exacerbates the problem in the long run.

Take another drag to kill the pain of your meaningless existence in this godforsaken place
Even when I do resort to drugs or other forms of self-medication, it ultimately only serves to remind me of the reality of my own existence and the futility of it all.

where everyone's a sellout but they're also a fucking burnout, they thought it would be the best way to enhance your state of mind
The people around me who also turn to drugs or other forms of self-medication are not necessarily doing so because they believe it will help them cope better, but rather because they feel like they have no other options and are burned out by reality.

See, I went home and I turned on the t.v. 'cause I had the time
Sometimes, to try and escape the stresses and pressures of everyday life, I turn to TV or other forms of media to try and distract myself.

I look at all this bullshit, all this muggin' and crime
However, even the escapism offered by media is not immune to the harsh and violent realities of the world, and it can be overwhelming to see all the negativity and chaos.

War, death, disease, famine what's it all worth!
At times, the constant barrage of depressing news and images can make me question the value or point of existence altogether.

I started to lose it by the time I started losin' my mind
The pressure, negativity, and chaos of the world can be unbearable, and sometimes it feels like my mental and emotional state is just barely holding on by a thread.

So I got to the Jah, and I got to the J.
In an effort to cope with the intense stress and pain of existence, sometimes I turn to drugs or other forms of self-medication for temporary relief.

I get to the spliff, and I got in his way
While drugs may provide temporary relief from the hardships of life, they are ultimately a hindrance to true wellness and self-improvement.

The same frame of mind!
However, even as I struggle with my own mental health and addiction, I am reminded that there are countless others who are also struggling and that I am not alone in this.

Pick it up
This phrase serves as a reminder to not give up, to keep fighting, to keep trying to improve despite the immense challenges and obstacles that life can throw our way.

I think it's too much, a little too much
At the end of the day, the song comes back to its central theme: the overwhelming emotional and mental pressure that some people experience in life can be too much for them to handle.

I think it's too much for me!
The song ends on a somber note, with the realization that for some people, the weight of the world is simply too much to bear.