Redemption
Sullivan Jazmine Lyrics

I met him at the state store he was trying to holla
I encountered him at the liquor store, he was attempting to flirt with me.

I ain't care he was old enough to be my father
I didn't care that he was old enough to be my dad.

I knew his wife I went to school with his daughter
I was familiar with his wife and knew his daughter from school.

He was the boss that I knew went harder
He was the superior I knew who worked harder.

Gave me my first taste but I had to take it farther
He introduced me to alcohol but I had to take it further.

I mean I had to go harder
I mean I had to drink more excessively.

I started calling up his crib just to hit him
I began calling his home number just to talk to him.

And I ain't even care I ask his wife if she was with him
And I didn't even care when I asked his wife if he was with her.

Came home late and he got into a fight,
He came home late and he got into an argument.

And he called me that night
And he called me that night.

He said he never want to see me on the block
He said he never wants to see me in his neighborhood.

I said I don't need you but I need that rock
I said I don't need him, but I need the drugs he provides.

I couldn't take it so I had to go see him
I couldn't handle it, so I had to meet with him.

Stole my mama car and drove around all evening
I took my mom's car and drove around all night.

And when I found him I thought that he would lace me
And when I found him, I thought he would poison me with drugs.

I ain't got no money but you know I'll let you taste me
I don't have any money, but I'll provide sexual favors for drugs.

He pulled his gun out and told me I was stupid
He took out his gun and called me foolish.

I started crying prayed to God he wouldn't do it
I began to cry and prayed to God that he wouldn't shoot me.

Oh please, Lord I plead, just save me (if you're really there)
Oh please, Lord, I beg of you to save me (if you exist).

Here's a sinner's prayer
Here's a prayer from a sinful person.

This is my redemption song
This is my song of seeking redemption.

I met this chick in Philly who said she like to sing
I met this girl in Philadelphia who said she enjoys singing.

I ain't mean it but I said that it was good she had a dream
I didn't mean it, but I said she had a nice dream.

My daddy used to beat my mama
My dad used to physically abuse my mother.

Saw it everyday
I witnessed it every day.

So when I got wit' her, I did the same thang
So when I got with her, I did the same thing to her.

He always used to say you gotta keep a bitch tamed
He always used to say you have to control your woman.

So I never let her sing
So, I never let her sing.

And every chance I got I told her if she ever left me
And every opportunity I got, I told her if she ever left me.

I'd kill her that's is how I made her respect me
I threatened to kill her, and that was how I gained her respect.

Forget me, never, made her believe it don't get no better
She couldn't forget me. I made her believe that things wouldn't get any better than me.

She said she don't care but she can't stay here
She said she doesn't care, but she can't remain here.

The last time I hit her she went into the kitchen
The last time I hit her, she went into the kitchen.

I ain't pay her no mind or even know that she was missing
I didn't pay attention or even realize that she was gone.

She came out bleeding with her eyes all blacked
She emerged with blood and bruises all over her eyes.

I looked and saw she had something behind her back
I looked and noticed she had an object in her hand behind her back.

She pulled the gun out and told me I was stupid
She took out the gun and called me stupid.

Dropped to my knees and prayed to God she wouldn't do it
I fell to my knees and prayed to God she wouldn't shoot me.

I really need to know if you are there
I really want to know if you exist.

If you could just, just heal a sinner's prayer
If you could just, heal a prayer from a sinner.

You could remake me
You could rebuild me.

Oh just save me
Oh please save me.

I promise if you get me through this I'll change
I promise if you help me get through this, I'll become a different person.

I need to be set free
I need to be liberated from my current situation.

Forgive me Father, I know I've done wrong but I have nowhere else to turn
Forgive me, Father. I know I have made a mistake, but I have nowhere else to go.

So hear me
So, please listen to me.