The project of drummer and singer Nick Rattigan and guitarist Jacob Rubeck, Surf Curse formed in Reno in 2013, issuing their first album, Buds, later that June. An EP, Sad Boys, appeared in October, after which the band relocated to L.A., where they began to establish themselves in the city's vibrant underground scene. By 2017, they'd reemerged as part of the Danger Collective and released their second album, Nothing Yet. An update on the simplistic style of their debut, Surf Curse's sound began to soften somewhat as they explored new tones and slightly more complex song structures. This trend carried over to their third LP, 2019's Heaven Surrounds You, which was inspired by Rattigan and Rubeck's favorite cult movies.
Freaks
Surf Curse Lyrics
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From everyone I need a place to stay
Where I can cover up my face
Don't cry, I am just a freak
I am just a freak
I am just a freak
I am just a freak
My head is filled with parasites
Black holes cover up my eyes
I dream of you almost every night
Hopefully I won't wake up this time
I won't wake up this time
I won't wake up this time
I won't wake up this time
The lyrics to "Freaks" by Surf Curse paint a hauntingly beautiful picture of a person who feels isolated and misunderstood by society. The plea to "Don't kill me just help me run away" shows a sense of desperation for escape, perhaps from the pressures of conformity or the fear of rejection. The line "Where I can cover up my face" suggests a desire for anonymity, a place to hide and be oneself without judgement or scrutiny.
The repetition of "I am just a freak" reinforces the idea of feeling like an outsider, different from the rest of society. The second verse paints a vivid picture of the singer's darkness, with their head filled with parasites and black holes covering their eyes. The line "I dream of you almost every night" suggests a longing for someone who could potentially understand them, while the hope to not wake up adds a sense of fear to that desire.
Overall, the lyrics to "Freaks" explore themes of isolation, fear, and longing for acceptance. They offer a glimpse into the mind of someone who feels like an outsider in a society that values conformity.
Line by Line Meaning
Don't kill me just help me run away
I'm feeling overwhelmed and I need someone to help me escape from this situation that I'm in.
From everyone I need a place to stay
I need to find someplace where I can be alone and process everything that's going on around me.
Where I can cover up my face
I need to hide my true feelings and emotions from everyone else, and I need someplace where I can do that safely.
Don't cry, I am just a freak
I know that I'm different from everyone else, but please don't pity me or feel sorry for me because of it.
My head is filled with parasites
I have so many negative thoughts and emotions constantly swirling around in my head that it feels like I'm being consumed by them.
Black holes cover up my eyes
I feel like my mind is clouded and I can't see things clearly or objectively anymore.
I dream of you almost every night
You are one of the few people in this world who I feel truly understands me and is able to help me feel more at ease.
Hopefully I won't wake up this time
I wish that I could stay in this dream world forever, where everything feels safer and more manageable than it does in reality.
I won't wake up this time
I'm desperate to escape from my current situation, and I'm willing to do anything to make sure that I don't have to face my problems head-on.
Lyrics © O/B/O APRA AMCOS
Written by: Jacob Scott Rubeck, Nicholas Foster Rattigan
Lyrics Licensed & Provided by LyricFind
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Guy under me, that was cringe
envisuo
this is gonna be the song ill play before killing myself
Chiaa
I wish I could go back to being the happy little girl I was now it’s all fucked up. Everyone left me...
Allisson-
it isnt really a place but the person i needed to stay, left {not dead.} She left me, She made me so happy,and she helped me escape from this sick of a life, i miss her
amystery
it has connotations to pewdiepies new video where in which he plays the game...... fnaf
@nothingnewunderthesun4292
My ex-gf introduced herself to me on a public bus, twice starting the convo in two times meeting each other over two months, separate occasions. The second time I asked her out on a date & from then on, we got together very quickly.
One day, maybe around 2 months or a bit less into us being together, she shows me a video on her phone. I see myself sitting in said public bus, being filmed from a seat looking the opposite way but around 4 rows of seats down from my own. The camera followed me a bit outside even and when I walked out of view, not once even looking into its direction, the video stopped.
I obviously was baffled, but importantly, I looked at the date: the video was taken two whole years before she had even talked to me once.
So she admitted by herself to filming me on that day and from then on, having s**ual fantasies about me / us for over two years before finally talking to me. Now it’s about what she did after filming me, for the whole two years she had been „watching“ or „observing“ me ;
she would start writing down when / where I‘d get off / on the bus and sometimes run or wait for an earlier / later bus to see me as often as possible, (which means she‘d sometimes wait for half an hour up to an hour because the bus line only drives this frequent, just to eventually see me), she was able to describe my friends well enough for me to know exactly who she saw me with, she would frequent spots or places in the city more often when / if she saw me there, especially multiple times, like in the library, lastly she would mirror me, if I was waiting for the train on one side of the tracks, she would basically stand face to face to me, vis-a-vis and when I would walk she’d do the same on the opposite side
all of the above for two years from the first day she had seen me on said bus, until talking to me at all
And again that’s just what she admitted by herself. Also she kept admitting to say one detail of the above, then check for my reaction, even being amused at my surprise etc, then reveal something new, so I found out about all details in the period of 1-2 weeks of her telling me bit by bit
She told me she was looking for a serious long-term, loving relationship as well, just as I was, told me she loved me more than anything or anyone every day and that she was sure about wanting the relationship, then broke up with me when her mother passed away, from one day to the other: „Sorry, I just can’t Imagine us spending time together without having s*“ „Idk why but I just lost my feelings for you and even if I knew why and we had a solution for the problem, I would still not want to continue because I just don’t feel like it anymore“ „Most of the relationship was good, at least I’m not afraid of s* anymore“ and lastly „Just look at our relationship as if it was an expired phone contract“
She wanted to spend almost all the time we spent together in private in bed, yk „exercising“ not just chilling, apart from family gatherings, going shopping & eating maybe once (to be fair it was covid time when we started dating but still) before, then going back home and immediately engage in bed sports again. She only wanted to meet me once a week in person, visiting usually from around 2-3 am until 9-10 in the evening, then go home, she never slept in the same bed with me even tho I really wanted to. For the record, I let her decide by our agreement what we did since her mother was in her last states of dying from cancer, so I just wanted to be there for her & I would lie if I said I didn’t enjoy it either but even for me, at that time 21 years old( she was 20 yrs old) and with almost no prior experiences, it was a bit much at times. We would facetime pretty much every evening tho and snap/text a lot during the day and even then, 70% or more of what we texted/ snapped and / or talked about, she would turn s**ual at some point. I mean I had 200+ nu.des of her in less than 3 months of dating & being together.. plus the s**ting plus the FaceTime sessions..
@nothingnewunderthesun4292
@@JustShotsForMeh Thank you for your reply, so first of all, I believe if you truly feel the way you wrote about her, I don’t think you‘d approve of my feelings after the breakup or even now that I still have for her, I often thought about my own mistakes or how I could make it somehow work again.. also I dearly missed her and still often think about her (it was 4 years ago) and even now, that I started at least seeing the whole „stalking“ aspect as a bit unusual, since I compared it to a man doing the same thing to a random woman he saw on some public bus, but I still can’t wrap my head around the entire thing.
I still look for MY mistakes and faults, I still miss her and somehow wish she’d come back to me. Also somehow no matter what people tell me, I just can’t seem to exactly see her behavior as black & white or in your words, as dangerous (?) and concerning / creepy as (most) other ppl I have talked to about this.
So I really do appreciate feedback because somehow, I have never fallen in love like this before or after her ever, I have never felt these kinds of emotions, sensations and feelings I had felt with her & I begin to think I may be obsessed now myself with her (how the turntables) or at least what she let me feel & think, since if you (and others) are right about her (and me dodging a cannonball / bullet), I may have to be more concerned about my own perception and mental state, if I can’t see it the way (most) other ppl do & still can’t help but romanticize it (romanticise?)..
So yea, please help me / critique/critisize(?) me and my view if you may, it hopefully helps;
What makes you think that she is dangerous? Or that I dodged a bullet or cannonball, even to the point of thinking I would have DIED..? If I married her? I really wonder
So could it not be that she just confused love for other feelings like infatuation / lust and maybe obsession? Maybe she did not lie knowingly but confuse her own emotions?
Could it be that she is just really careful before asking people out („vetting them“) even on a first date? Idk maybe I’m trying to excuse too much (hence why I am writing this, I need opinions and discussions to understand this)
@whatsittoyou9944
Lycris:
Dont kill me
Just help me run away
From everyone
I need a place to stay
Where im can cover up my face
Dont cry
I am just a freak
I am just a freak
I am just a freak
I am just a freak
My head is filled with parasites
Black holes cover up my eyes
I dream of you almost every night
Hopefully i wont wake up this time
I wont wake up this time
I wont wake up this time
I wont wake up this time
@dinahmaebaitus7381
Don't kill me just help me run away
From everyone I need a place to stay
Where I can cover up my face
Don't cry, I am just a freak
I am just a freak
I am just a freak
I am just a freak
My head is filled with parasites
Black holes cover up my eyes
I dream of you almost every night
Hopefully I won't wake up this time
I won't wake up this time
I won't wake up this time
I won't wake up this time
@hermiyoussef2164
Don't kill me, just help me run away
From everyone, I need a place to stay
Where I can cover up my face
Don't cry, I am just a freak
[Chorus]
I am just a freak
I am just a freak
I am just a freak
[Verse 2]
My head is filled with parasites
Black holes cover up my eyes
I dream of you almost every night
Hopefully I won't wake up this time
[Refrain]
I won't wake up this time
I won't wake up this time
I won't wake up this time
@christopheroconnor6830
Lyrics:
[Verse 1]
Don't kill me, just help me run away
From everyone, I need a place to stay
Where I can cover up my face
Don't cry
[Chorus]
I am just a freak
I am just a freak
I am just a freak
I am just a freak
[Verse 2]
My head is filled with parasites
Black holes cover up my eyes
I dream of you almost every night
Hopefully
[Outro]
I won't wake up this time
I won't wake up this time
I won't wake up this time
I won't wake up this time
@nothingnewunderthesun4292
My ex-gf introduced herself to me on a public bus, twice starting the convo in two times meeting each other over two months, separate occasions. The second time I asked her out on a date & from then on, we got together very quickly.
One day, maybe around 2 months or a bit less into us being together, she shows me a video on her phone. I see myself sitting in said public bus, being filmed from a seat looking the opposite way but around 4 rows of seats down from my own. The camera followed me a bit outside even and when I walked out of view, not once even looking into its direction, the video stopped.
I obviously was baffled, but importantly, I looked at the date: the video was taken two whole years before she had even talked to me once.
So she admitted by herself to filming me on that day and from then on, having s**ual fantasies about me / us for over two years before finally talking to me. Now it’s about what she did after filming me, for the whole two years she had been „watching“ or „observing“ me ;
she would start writing down when / where I‘d get off / on the bus and sometimes run or wait for an earlier / later bus to see me as often as possible, (which means she‘d sometimes wait for half an hour up to an hour because the bus line only drives this frequent, just to eventually see me), she was able to describe my friends well enough for me to know exactly who she saw me with, she would frequent spots or places in the city more often when / if she saw me there, especially multiple times, like in the library, lastly she would mirror me, if I was waiting for the train on one side of the tracks, she would basically stand face to face to me, vis-a-vis and when I would walk she’d do the same on the opposite side
all of the above for two years from the first day she had seen me on said bus, until talking to me at all
And again that’s just what she admitted by herself. Also she kept admitting to say one detail of the above, then check for my reaction, even being amused at my surprise etc, then reveal something new, so I found out about all details in the period of 1-2 weeks of her telling me bit by bit
She told me she was looking for a serious long-term, loving relationship as well, just as I was, told me she loved me more than anything or anyone every day and that she was sure about wanting the relationship, then broke up with me when her mother passed away, from one day to the other: „Sorry, I just can’t Imagine us spending time together without having s*“ „Idk why but I just lost my feelings for you and even if I knew why and we had a solution for the problem, I would still not want to continue because I just don’t feel like it anymore“ „Most of the relationship was good, at least I’m not afraid of s* anymore“ and lastly „Just look at our relationship as if it was an expired phone contract“
She wanted to spend almost all the time we spent together in private in bed, yk „exercising“ not just chilling, apart from family gatherings, going shopping & eating maybe once (to be fair it was covid time when we started dating but still) before, then going back home and immediately engage in bed sports again. She only wanted to meet me once a week in person, visiting usually from around 2-3 am until 9-10 in the evening, then go home, she never slept in the same bed with me even tho I really wanted to. For the record, I let her decide by our agreement what we did since her mother was in her last states of dying from cancer, so I just wanted to be there for her & I would lie if I said I didn’t enjoy it either but even for me, at that time 21 years old( she was 20 yrs old) and with almost no prior experiences, it was a bit much at times. We would facetime pretty much every evening tho and snap/text a lot during the day and even then, 70% or more of what we texted/ snapped and / or talked about, she would turn s**ual at some point. I mean I had 200+ nu.des of her in less than 3 months of dating & being together.. plus the s**ting plus the FaceTime sessions..
@beaubryant4465
**LYRICS**
[Verse 1]
Don't kill me, just help me run away
From everyone, I need a place to stay
Where I can cover up my face
Don't cry, I am just a freak
[Chorus]
I am just a freak
I am just a freak
I am just a freak
[Verse 2]
My head is filled with parasites
Black holes cover up my eyes
I dream of you almost every night
Hopefully I won't wake up this time
[Refrain]
I won't wake up this time
I won't wake up this time
I won't wake up this time
@Grainory
/ I'm just a fish lyrics /
Don't kill me
Just help me swim away
From everyone, I need a place to stay
Where I, can cover up my face
Don't, cry, I am just a fish
I am just a fish
I am just a fish
I am just a fish
My mouth, is filled with hooks i bite
Black holes, cover up my eyes
I dream, of you almost every night
Hopefully, I'll swim away this time
I'll swim away this time
I'll swim away this time
I'll swim away this time
@cornmars9180
Lyrics:
Don't eat me, just help me grain away
With everyone, I need a place to rain
Where I can cover up my roots
Don't cry I AM JUST A GRAIN
I AM JUST A GRAIN
I AM JUST A GRAIN
I AM JUST A GRAIN
My grain is filled with carbohydrates
Black dirt covers up my roots
I dream of rice almost every night
Hopefully I WON'T ROT UP THIS TIME
I WON'T ROT UP THIS TIME
I WON'T ROT UP THIS TIME
I WON'T ROT UP THIS TIME
@sarahberra80
The lines, “ I dream of you almost every night, hopefully I won’t wake up this time.” Is exactly how I feel about this person I can’t get out of my head.
@octavia3608
Don’t worry dude, we will get through this together, I also can’t get this person out of my head when I dream, even though I broke up with him, he did it to himself. Stay strong 💪
@The_bestxx
@@octavia3608 somos dois mano n consigo tira a pessoa da minha cabeça mais essa música mim da uma energia tão boa,
Obs: voltei estava de luto😟
@octavia3608
@@The_bestxx stay strong brother❤️
@The_bestxx
@@octavia3608 tamu juntos 🤝🇧🇷