The project of drummer and singer Nick Rattigan and guitarist Jacob Rubeck, Surf Curse formed in Reno in 2013, issuing their first album, Buds, later that June. An EP, Sad Boys, appeared in October, after which the band relocated to L.A., where they began to establish themselves in the city's vibrant underground scene. By 2017, they'd reemerged as part of the Danger Collective and released their second album, Nothing Yet. An update on the simplistic style of their debut, Surf Curse's sound began to soften somewhat as they explored new tones and slightly more complex song structures. This trend carried over to their third LP, 2019's Heaven Surrounds You, which was inspired by Rattigan and Rubeck's favorite cult movies.
In My Head Till I'm Dead
Surf Curse Lyrics
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Thinking of you I'd rather die
Your eyes are always in my mind
It keeps me awake every night
Cause you're in my head, in my head
You're In my head, in my head
I've never felt so much pain
When I'm alone I scream your name
My Lolita, I'm not insane
But you're in my head, in my head
You're In my head, in my head
The lyrics of Surf Curse's song "In My Head Till I'm Dead" portray the intense agony of unrequited love. The singer is hopelessly infatuated and haunted by the person to whom they are devoted. The first two lines of the song suggest that the subject of the singer's affection is not reciprocated, and they long for either a relationship or death to escape this unrequited love.
The line "your eyes are always in my mind" cements the idea that the singer sees their object of affection everywhere, and it's driving the singer to madness. The repetition of "in my head" in the chorus furthers this idea of mental turmoil and obsession. It's as if the subject of the singer's love has lodged themselves in the singer's brain and won't let go.
The last verse shows a hint of the singer's desperation, with the line "when I'm alone I scream your name." The singer is obviously struggling to cope and can't escape their love interest even in the solitude of their own mind. The lines "My Lolita, I'm not insane / But you're in my head" evoke the novel Lolita by Vladimir Nabokov, where the singer is similarly consumed by an unrequited love. It's a warning that such obsessions can lead to madness.
Line by Line Meaning
Why do I waste all my time
I am questioning myself why I am spending all my time thinking about you.
Thinking of you I'd rather die
I would rather die than keep thinking of you all the time.
Your eyes are always in my mind
I cannot stop thinking about your eyes, it is always in my mind.
It keeps me awake every night
Your thoughts are keeping me awake every night and I cannot sleep.
Cause you're in my head, in my head
You have completely occupied my thoughts and it is affecting me a lot.
I've never felt so much pain
It hurts me a lot to keep thinking about you all the time.
If I close my eyes I see your face
Even when I close my eyes, all I can think of is your face and nothing else.
When I'm alone I scream your name
When I am alone, I can't handle these thoughts and end up screaming your name.
My Lolita, I'm not insane
I know what I am doing and I am aware of the pain caused by these thoughts, but I cannot help it.
But you're in my head, in my head
You are still constantly in my head despite everything, which is making it extremely difficult for me.
You're In my head, in my head
You have taken over my thoughts and I cannot stop thinking about you.
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Guy under me, that was cringe
envisuo
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this is gonna be the song ill play before killing myself
Chiaa
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I wish I could go back to being the happy little girl I was now it’s all fucked up. Everyone left me...
Allisson-
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it isnt really a place but the person i needed to stay, left {not dead.} She left me, She made me so happy,and she helped me escape from this sick of a life, i miss her
amystery
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it has connotations to pewdiepies new video where in which he plays the game...... fnaf