I Wonder
Susan Justice Lyrics

I was off by a nose, off by a hair
I almost had it, but not quite

All the things you said didn't get me anywhere
Your words weren't helpful or inspiring

All I had was cake when you wanted bread
I gave you something, but it wasn't what you wanted or needed

Such simple taste, it's off with my head again
You're not impressed by me and maybe never will be

Maybe I can't be all the things you need
I'm starting to doubt myself and my ability to satisfy you

If you can sit in the dirt for just a little while
Try to be patient and wait for me

You'll find the things I hid and buried over time
I have things to offer that you haven't seen yet

I made a slip and impasse
I messed up and hit a roadblock

Oh me, oh my, pardon my mistakes again
I'm sorry for messing up again

'Cause maybe I can't be everything
Maybe I can't live up to your expectations

I wonder if I never complain
Maybe I should have just kept quiet

And promise you that someday I will change
I'll try to be better for you

If I do everything you say, will you love me more?
I want you to love me and I'll do anything to make that happen

I give up my dreams to make you feel stronger
I'm sacrificing my own ambitions for your sake

Never doubting you and never wonder
I trust you completely and never question your motives

If a good girl should wonder at all
Is it okay for me to have doubts and questions?

The hedges were tall over my head
I felt trapped and lost in the maze of our relationship

Running through this maze, the devil hasn't got me yet
I'm trying to fight my way out and not let things get the best of me

Shrubs in the garden hiding little bugs
There are little problems beneath the surface that need attention

Standing in the courtyard, won't you please show yourself?
I need to see the real you and not the facade you're putting up

'Cause maybe you can't be anything
Maybe you're struggling too and can't be what I need

This grey wall of clay is slowly washing away
The obstacles between us are starting to fade

I look up and down while spinning around and around
I'm searching for answers and feeling dizzy from the uncertainty

These crumbling stones won't hold me back no more
I'm ready to break free from the past and move forward

I wonder why I never complained
I should have spoken up sooner

Why it took so long for me to escape
It was hard to let go and leave you behind

I gave my soul to you
I loved you with all my heart

Just so you could love me more
Hoping you would reciprocate my love

I'm still alive and your getting older
I'm moving on and growing, while you're standing still

Maybe one day you'll wake up and wonder
Maybe one day you'll see what you're missing and regret losing me

If it's so wrong to wonder at all
Is it a bad thing to question and doubt?

What's behind those doors
What secrets are you hiding from me?