SUICIDE
T‐Pain Lyrics
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And I know that's hard to believe
And now I'm in a box with nothin' around me
'Cause I found a girl that'll get on her knees (at ease)
And all the while I'm knowin' that my homies will clown me
'Cause I fucked her and didn't have a rubber on me
It seems I had to find out the hard way
That the girl that I found in the ground - she had HIV
Lalala lala la lalala (suicide)
Lalala lala la lalala (suicide)
Lalala lala la lalala (suicide)
One, two, three, four, five, six million ways to leave this whole wide world so cold
Stuck on my ass, I been drinkin' for days
And I got the nerve to put that Bonneville on the road
Oh, got that thang on me and a couple kilos
A bag of ecstasy and a pound of that Dro', whoa
But I guess I had to find out the hard way
'Cause I done came to the end of the road
And now I'm in the mirror like
Lalala lala la lalala (suicide)
Lalala lala la lalala (suicide)
Lalala lala la lalala (suicide)
Lalala lala la lalala
Lalala lala la lalala
Lalala lala la lalala
In T-Pain's song Suicide, he talks about being trapped in a box and feeling helpless as the world keeps spinning without him. He found a girl who would do anything for him, even get on her knees, but had unprotected sex with her and contracted HIV. He is now stuck in a situation where he feels suicide is his only option. He is haunted by the fact that his friends will ridicule him for what happened and he feels like there is no way out. He talks about the different ways to leave this world, referencing drugs and his own car (Bonneville), but ultimately he feels like suicide is the only answer.
The lyrics of the song are very dark and paint a picture of a person who is in a very dark place. He is in a state of despair and hopelessness and feels like there is no way out. The song highlights the dangers of unprotected sex and how it can have life-altering consequences.
Line by Line Meaning
The world keeps spinnin' with or without me
I feel insignificant in this vast world and believe that nothing would change if I were to disappear.
And I know that's hard to believe
I understand that my thoughts might be hard for others to comprehend.
And now I'm in a box with nothin' around me
I feel boxed in and trapped with no way out of this overwhelming situation.
'Cause I found a girl that'll get on her knees (at ease)
I found a girl who is willing to do anything for me, making me feel powerful and in control.
And all the while I'm knowin' that my homies will clown me
I am aware that my friends will mock me for my actions, but I continue to do what makes me feel good in the moment.
'Cause I fucked her and didn't have a rubber on me
I had unprotected sex with this girl, not thinking about the potential consequences of my actions.
It seems I had to find out the hard way
I only realized my mistake after experiencing the negative consequences of my actions.
That the girl that I found in the ground - she had HIV
The consequences of my actions led me to contract HIV from the girl I had sex with.
Now she next to me like...
I am now living with the consequences of my actions and am forced to face the reality of my situation.
Lalala lala la lalala (suicide)
I feel so overwhelmed and alone that I am contemplating taking my own life.
One, two, three, four, five, six million ways to leave this whole wide world so cold
There are many ways to die and leave this world, but they all end in the same cold, lonely place.
Stuck on my ass, I been drinkin' for days
I feel stuck in my current situation and have been numbing the pain with alcohol for days on end.
And I got the nerve to put that Bonneville on the road
Despite my mental state and the potential danger, I am reckless enough to get behind the wheel of a car.
Oh, got that thang on me and a couple kilos
I have weapons and drugs on me, further illustrating my recklessness and disregard for my own life.
A bag of ecstasy and a pound of that Dro', whoa
I am in possession of illegal drugs and continue to indulge in them, despite the potential harm they can cause.
But I guess I had to find out the hard way
I continue to ignore the warnings and consequences of my actions, leading me further down a dangerous path.
'Cause I done came to the end of the road
I have reached a point of no return and have nowhere else to go but down.
And now I'm in the mirror like
I am forced to confront my own reflection and the reality of my situation.
Lalala lala la lalala (suicide)
I am consumed by my own thoughts of suicide and feel like there is no way out of my current situation.
Lalala lala la lalala
The repetition of this line further emphasizes the overwhelming nature of my thoughts and feelings.
Lyrics © Universal Music Publishing Group, Warner Chappell Music, Inc.
Written by: FAHEEM RASHEED NAJM
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