Violence
T.R.A.U.M.A. Lyrics


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I've never told anyone and I'm terrified
But if I don't do this right I might die
Hope you die alone I don't wanna see you in my life anymore
Please tell me i really hate you now you're just trying to
Ruin my life, ruin my life, ruin my life, ruin my life
I've just spent the next few days manifesting
My brain keeps telling me nothing is everything i dont wanna die
I'll die in 4 years i dont wanna die
Nothings fucking real but i keep doing it anyway
Don't make me fucking hate you more than i do already
Love is violence i'll always hate you like this
Love is silent, that's why they call it blindness
I live in silence, this all just for violence
Violence, violence, in violence, violence, violence, in violence
Love is violence i'll always hate you like this
Love is silent, that's why they call it blindness
I live in silence, this all just for violence




In silence, in blindness, in violence, in silence
For violence

Overall Meaning

The lyrics of T.R.A.U.M.A.'s song "Violence" express intense feelings of hatred and fear towards someone else. The singer is struggling with emotions that they have never expressed to anyone before, and they are afraid that if they don't do it now, they might die. They wish that person to die alone because they never want to see them again in their life. The singer then pleads with the other person to stop ruining their life, repeating the phrase "ruin my life" several times to emphasize the extent of the damage that has been done.


The lyrics reveal the singer's struggle with their own emotions and mental health. They are trying to stay alive while their mind keeps telling them that "nothing is everything" and that they don't want to die. They feel trapped in a cycle of violence and hate, and they can't seem to escape it. They also express the idea that love is violence, and that their hatred towards this person is a manifestation of that violence. They feel stuck in silence and blindness, unable to escape the cycle of violence that they find themselves in.


Overall, the lyrics of "Violence" express the intense emotions and struggles of the singer, revealing their innermost thoughts and feelings. The song is a reflection of the dark side of human emotions and mental health, and it invites the listener to be aware of these struggles and to reach out and help those who may be going through something similar.


Line by Line Meaning

I've never told anyone and I'm terrified
I have a deep fear of revealing what's inside of me and what might happen if I do.


But if I don't do this right I might die
I feel like I'm at the end of my rope and if I don't reveal what's inside of me properly, it will be the end of me.


Hope you die alone I don't wanna see you in my life anymore
I desperately want to cut you out of my life because you're causing me pain and suffering.


Please tell me i really hate you now you're just trying to
I'm begging you to give me a reason to hate you because I need to justify the intense emotions I'm feeling.


Ruin my life, ruin my life, ruin my life, ruin my life
I feel like you're destroying everything I care about and leaving me with nothing but pain and despair.


I've just spent the next few days manifesting
I've been trying to bring to the surface and express everything that's been bottled up inside of me.


My brain keeps telling me nothing is everything i dont wanna die
I'm struggling with feelings of hopelessness and the fear of what might happen if I don't find a way to cope.


I'll die in 4 years i dont wanna die
I'm consumed by the thought of my own mortality and I'm afraid that my time is running out.


Nothings fucking real but i keep doing it anyway
I'm questioning the meaning and purpose of everything, but I'm still going through the motions because it's all I know how to do.


Don't make me fucking hate you more than i do already
I'm at the end of my rope with you and I'm afraid that any more pain or hurt from you will push me over the edge.


Love is violence i'll always hate you like this
I've been hurt so much by love that it feels like violence, and I know that I will always carry this hatred inside of me.


Love is silent, that's why they call it blindness
Love can be deafeningly quiet and it's easy to be blinded by it, making us ignore warning signs and hurtful behavior.


I live in silence, this all just for violence
I'm struggling with intense emotions and feelings, but I'm keeping them bottled up inside because they feel like weapons.


Violence, violence, in violence, violence, violence, in violence
I'm constantly surrounded and consumed by this feeling of violence and I can't escape it.


In silence, in blindness, in violence, in silence
I'm trapped in a cycle of silence, blindness, and violence that I don't know how to break.


For violence
All of this pain and suffering is leading to a sense of violence that's taking over my mind and body.




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Written by: Alex Vazquez, Dominic Moore

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Most interesting comment from YouTube:

Real Talk

I am submerged under an ocean of grief.
No air; I cannot, do not: breathe.

I want to die.
I can't bear the pain.


Terror and horror live inside me.
No safe space.
I am raped.

He left me.
And all I see is him and her together;
all over social media.

He raped me.
He raped my soul.

HOW THE FUCK COULD HE DO THIS TO ME? HOW?

HOW DOES HE NOT MISS ME?

HOW COULD HE JUST THROW AWAY OUR CONECCTION?

HOW HOW HOW HOW HOW???

the waves of grief come crushing me. CONSUMING ME!!
leaving me unable to breathe.
drowning in darkness.
one moment I'm okay.
the next I'm in panicked despair.

how could my best friend do this to me?
abandon and betray me, and discard me like garbage?
how? how could he so easily replace me with another?

my heart is shattered; my soul is raped.
rage and grief: torment and torture me, leaving me breathless...

I desperately want to escape
the pain that I'm in:
debilitating paralyzing
all-consuming hyperventilating panic and grief...

His name is Bryan and he raped my soul.
Viciously maliciously brutally violently.
I thought he was my best friend.
He betrayed and abandoned me
and left me alone to die.
Replaced me.
Discarded me.

So...

Now...

I must:

Release all chords, hooks, ties, and attachments
to him specifically, and also generally:
to any person, place, or thing,
on any time continuum,
that is no longer for my highest and best good, and healing...

I release all of these things now, and forevermore,
and I watch them dissolve into the nothingness, from which they came...
Thank you, thank you, thank you
— IT IS DONE! 🙏

And here are 14 gentle and urgent reminders I must always remember:

1. You're ALWAYS exactly where you are supposed to be
2. Self-esteem is measured by you (nobody else gets to decide your worth)
3. Get rid of fear: FOREVER
4. When things are tough, change the way you see things
5. Don't dwell on/in the past (come back to this present moment)
6. It's only temporary (all of it!)
7. You have what it takes
8. You don't need to change
9. Release your need for control
10. Accept. Allow. Breathe. Deep.
11. Remember where you came from
12. Remember that you are not alone (not ever!)
13. Remember who you are
14. What they did/do to you has nothing to do with you

Now I am taking my power back.
Stepping out of the prison.
By remembering:

I am the manifestation of Divine Life.
I call upon my truest highest self
to step forth to (re)claim my power:
as a beautiful manifestation of God!
I affirm peace and comfort and joy and magic and bliss.

AFFIRMATIVE PRAYER:

I am one with the Divine.
I experience, peace, BLISS, love, and joy:
CONSTANTLY AND CONSISTENTLY.
I experience everything as grace AND AS LOVE.
I am at peace. I honor the Divine within me.



All comments from YouTube:

walt porter

I grew up in a domestic violence home and I still feel the effects of it from 51 yrs ago. Horrible memories

Monique Connor

I didn’t know this was something other women go through..the triggers, the trauma..the guilt..the depression..thank you for the advice and video

Linda Anderson

Mine was the biggest case in my state, and although I left this man at the first signs of physical violence, it ramped up in a huge way- too much for here, but the system failed my daughter and myself over and over and over. I became disabled from an attack, and the courts made him a victim- my daughter was also hurt badly. He had a history of severe violence that was suppressed again and again- hurt another daughter in a previous marriage that I knew nothing about, as his family kept it silent. The police screwed up, he walked on a technicality- the local sheriffs went to high school with him. The list goes on. And my daughter and I have never had peace, no matter where we went.

Light9

I'm so sorry you two were failed so badly. I was too. It is soul destroying. I lost a baby and have no children, now 50. I have broken spine. The system is so broken but sharing your story made me feel less alone and that is priceless for me. Healing blessings to you both. 💞

Linda Anderson

@Light9 I am so sorry to hear what happened to you. There is a small comfort in knowing that you are not the only one- that you are not some "freak"- that people, such as us, who are good and decent, and who just want to live a decent life, are so hurt by evil, corruption and incompetence.
My daughters ended up being kidnapped in all of this. I have one back. There really is no justice.

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Wood Dweller

Growing up in a home with DV being normalized and then growing up and becoming the victim of DV with two different abusers ... This is a cycle. I am hoping that so many people are able to get out of this situation. It's hurtful and does so much damage.

Susan Needham

So true .its as thou they know we're good loving people. Empaths. Darkness always look for the light to dim it .God light will never you just believe in him and he will guide you.

Meah Dahlgren

Wooddweller❤❤

Stovie Wan Kenobi

Our mother was a horrible abuser. She was able to get away with absolute evil due to the lack of accountability society holds women to. It’s truly terrible.

Denise K

My family doesn’t understand why I stayed with my abusive husband, until I left a year-ago. Abusers “brainwash” their partners. Slowly, you begin to believe the abuse is normal. It doesn’t matter how many friends and family members try convincing you otherwise, a precipice has to occur before the abusee leaves. It took me almost eleven years. What was my precipice? Sadly, watching my puppy being abused by him. Thankfully, we’re both out of the “relationship.”

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