TRAFFIC
T. E. MIDNIGHT Lyrics
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When I'm off the pills
But I don't seem to wanna feel
Until I get my fill
Residue on my lap
From the blunt but still
Mary Jane ain't enough
To get my demons killed
I don't know what's real
Eat the pain up every day
Like a three course meal
Quit fighting with my momma
Cause I know life will
Sort itself out
When my dreams fulfilled
At least that's how
I hope it is for real
I got too many issues
In my mind to deal
With problems not
Concerning my feels
But lately it's not like
Like I could really feel
I'm way too numb to feel myself
So how the hell you feel me
I'm poor in affection
That's a love poverty
Fell victim to crimes
That's four years I ain't see
Rest in Peace to George Floyd
It's always fuck the police
Walls suffocating me
I can't really breathe
Got a pretty girl
Scraping up her knees
Yeah she love how I move
But she don't love me
Popped two pills
Now I'm off that leash
She know I'm a dog
I deserve my treats
Got her dripping wet
Like some freshly squeezed
Gonna let her ride me
Like a damn jetski
They was thinking I ain't real
Up until they seen
I was never the one
To forget my team
Even when like half of them
Forgot about me
Don't wanna go
To the penitentiary
But I'd rather go there
Then get R.I.P'd
Tearing down this wall
Inside me piece by piece
But it get built back
When I'm in my dreams
Cause the demons all attacking
When they see me sleep
When it comes to bottom lines
I ain't never known peace
Life be feeling all fine
Until I wake up to pee
Only thing we got in common
Is the way we bleed
And the difference is
You don't know pain like me
You said my love a drug
And it's like codeine
I'm glad you got sober
Cause it fueled my dreams
Used to be full of love
Until she took it from me
In and out of institutions
Since fifteen
That's a lot of time
Thinking bout the grand scheme
Uppin heavy metal
Like I'm in kill switch
And I'm on a new level
You ain't know exist
Just tryna get settled
But the scales they tip
Throw me off balance
In the dirt on my dick
Everyone been hating me
It feel like I'm Chris
But the difference is I swear
I don't even give a shit
Bitches be selling some dreams
But they never get rich
I won't buy into it
Yeah I stay out the mix
Yeah I did her dirty
And to that I'll admit
Drugs got me up and away
No spaceship
Chancing my life with these scripts
Gotta take risks
Doing the most with this music
Gotta make hits
I been on the road in my mind
Gotta take trips
Can't be like X and caught in traffic
In T. E. MIDNIGHT's song "Traffic," the artist portrays the struggles of addiction and mental illness. The lyrics describe how he feels numb and disconnected from himself and others. He admits that he takes pills and other drugs to avoid feeling but acknowledges that it only makes it worse. He tries to cope with his pain by eating it up like a three-course meal every day. He also talks about his issues with his mother and how he hopes that life will sort itself out once his dreams are fulfilled.
The artist mentions the recent tragic event of George Floyd's passing and his disdain for police brutality. He compares the suffocation from police brutality to the walls suffocating him, which lead to feelings of being unable to breathe. He acknowledges his poor behavior in relationships and admits his mistakes. The song also highlights the artist's determination to overcome his personal demons and continue his music career, even if it means taking risks.
Line by Line Meaning
I don't know how to act
When I'm off the pills
Without drugs, I don't know how to behave normally
But I don't seem to wanna feel
Until I get my fill
I only want to feel emotions when I take drugs
Residue on my lap
From the blunt but still
There are remnants of a drug on my lap from smoking
Mary Jane ain't enough
To get my demons killed
Smoking weed doesn't suppress my inner demons
Did so much psychedelics
I don't know what's real
Taking too many psychedelic drugs has made me unsure of reality
Eat the pain up every day
Like a three course meal
I use drugs to cope with my pain every single day
Quit fighting with my momma
Cause I know life will
I stopped arguing with my mom because I believe my dreams will come true and make everything better
Sort itself out
When my dreams fulfilled
I think my problems will resolve themselves when my dreams come true
At least that's how
I hope it is for real
I'm not sure if my hopes will become reality
I got too many issues
In my mind to deal
My mind is consumed by too many problems to solve
With problems not
Concerning my feels
I have other issues besides my personal emotions
But lately it's not like
Like I could really feel
Recently, I have trouble feeling emotions like I used to
I'm way too numb to feel myself
So how the hell you feel me
I am emotionally numb, so how can you empathize with me?
I'm poor in affection
That's a love poverty
I lack love and affection from others
Fell victim to crimes
That's four years I ain't see
I was a victim of a crime and didn't see those years
Rest in Peace to George Floyd
It's always fuck the police
I am angry at police brutality and honor the memory of George Floyd
Walls suffocating me
I can't really breathe
I feel trapped and suffocated by my circumstances
Got a pretty girl
Scraping up her knees
I have a beautiful girl willing to do anything for me, even if it hurts her
Yeah she love how I move
But she don't love me
My girl likes what I do, but doesn't actually love me
Popped two pills
Now I'm off that leash
After taking two pills, I feel free to act however I want
She know I'm a dog
I deserve my treats
My girl knows I'm not faithful, but I still deserve to be rewarded
Got her dripping wet
Like some freshly squeezed
I got my girl excited and aroused for sexual activity
Gonna let her ride me
Like a damn jetski
I am going to let my girl have sex with me
They was thinking I ain't real
Up until they seen
People doubted that I was genuine until they saw me in person
I was never the one
To forget my team
I never abandoned my friends even when they forgot about me
Even when like half of them
Forgot about me
Many of my friends didn't stay loyal to me
Don't wanna go
To the penitentiary
I don't want to go to jail
But I'd rather go there
Then get R.I.P'd
I'd rather go to jail than die
Tearing down this wall
Inside me piece by piece
I am trying to break down my emotional barriers one by one
But it get built back
When I'm in my dreams
My emotional walls are reinforced when I go to sleep and dream
Cause the demons all attacking
When they see me sleep
My inner demons attack me when I'm asleep
When it comes to bottom lines
I ain't never known peace
I have never experienced true inner peace
Life be feeling all fine
Until I wake up to pee
Life seems okay until I am reminded of my physical needs
Only thing we got in common
Is the way we bleed
The only thing we have in common is our mortality
And the difference is
You don't know pain like me
You don't understand the pain that I go through
You said my love a drug
And it's like codeine
You compared my love to a drug, specifically codeine
I'm glad you got sober
Cause it fueled my dreams
I'm glad my partner stopped doing drugs because it helps me pursue my dreams
Used to be full of love
Until she took it from me
I used to be full of love until my ex-girlfriend hurt me
In and out of institutions
Since fifteen
I have been in and out of institutions since I was fifteen years old
That's a lot of time
Thinking bout the grand scheme
Spending so much time in institutions has given me time to think about the big picture
Uppin heavy metal
Like I'm in kill switch
I am increasing my intensity like the band Killswitch Engage
And I'm on a new level
You ain't know exist
I have reached a new level of success that you couldn't imagine
Just tryna get settled
But the scales they tip
I am trying to find stability but things keep getting out of balance
Throw me off balance
In the dirt on my dick
Things keep knocking me off balance, leaving me struggling
Everyone been hating me
It feel like I'm Chris
Everyone hates me and it's overwhelming, like Chris Brown's situation
But the difference is I swear
I don't even give a shit
I don't care what people think of me, that's the difference between me and Chris Brown
Bitches be selling some dreams
But they never get rich
Women promise a lot but never follow through on their potential
I won't buy into it
Yeah I stay out the mix
I won't believe those promises, and I stay out of trouble
Yeah I did her dirty
And to that I'll admit
I cheated on my girl and I am ashamed of myself
Drugs got me up and away
No spaceship
Drugs have me high, but without the use of a spaceship
Chancing my life with these scripts
Gotta take risks
I am taking risks with the music I make, betting on its success
Doing the most with this music
Gotta make hits
I'm putting a lot of effort into my music, hoping it will be successful
I been on the road in my mind
Gotta take trips
I have been thinking deeply and going on mental journeys to find inspiration for my music
Can't be like X and caught in traffic
I don't want to end up like XXXTentacion, dying in a senseless act of violence
Lyrics © DistroKid
Written by: Benjaman Urback
Lyrics Licensed & Provided by LyricFind
Liiewa
Dude you're awesome, this song been at heart for over a decade now.🔥🔥🔥
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"5th of C is G so the 5th of me is C" Im studying as a music major so a rapper using the circle of 5th reference is fuckin wicked
Ryan Simmons
Kaj Kadence is a treasure.
AB Shootin on PS5
This joint super cold everytime i hear it
M'ster Lewis
Dope BRO ! .. I hear you ! ..
Kaylan Hernandez
Started out with nothing, and I got most of it left!
A A
THis is sickkkk
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Barz anyone?