SUICIDE
T Pain Lyrics
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And I know that's hard to believe
And now I'm in a box with nothin' around me
'Cause I found a girl that'll get on her knees (at ease)
And all the while I'm knowin' that my homies will clown me
'Cause I fucked her and didn't have a rubber on me
It seems I had to find out the hard way
That the girl that I found in the ground - she had HIV
Lalala lala la lalala (suicide)
Lalala lala la lalala (suicide)
Lalala lala la lalala (suicide)
One, two, three, four, five, six million ways to leave this whole wide world so cold
Stuck on my ass, I been drinkin' for days
And I got the nerve to put that Bonneville on the road
Oh, got that thang on me and a couple kilos
A bag of ecstasy and a pound of that Dro', whoa
But I guess I had to find out the hard way
'Cause I done came to the end of the road
And now I'm in the mirror like
Lalala lala la lalala (suicide)
Lalala lala la lalala (suicide)
Lalala lala la lalala (suicide)
Lalala lala la lalala
Lalala lala la lalala
Lalala lala la lalala
In T-Pain's song "Suicide," the lyrics convey a feeling of hopelessness and regret. The opening lines suggest that the world is spinning regardless of the singer's presence, which strengthens the feeling of insignificance. The verse continues with the singer realizing he is in a box, isolated and trapped after contracting HIV from a sexual encounter without a condom. He acknowledges that his friends will mock him for his recklessness. The chorus repeats the word "suicide" three times, which underscores the despair and the feeling that the singer has lost all hope.
The second verse reveals that the singer is in a state of drunkenness at the end of his rope. He has drugs and weapons on him and is driving a car aimlessly. He acknowledges that he has arrived at the end of the road and is contemplating suicide. The song ends with the repetition of the chorus, leaving the listener with the impression that the singer may follow through with his thoughts.
In summary, the lyrics of "Suicide" tell the story of a sad and regretful individual who has lost hope and is contemplating suicide as a result of his poor life choices.
Line by Line Meaning
The world keeps spinnin' with or without me
The world will still continue to rotate even if I am not there.
And I know that's hard to believe
I understand that it may be hard to believe, but it's the truth.
And now I'm in a box with nothin' around me
I feel trapped and alone with nothing to comfort me.
'Cause I found a girl that'll get on her knees (at ease)
I am with a girl who is willing to perform sexual acts for me.
And all the while I'm knowin' that my homies will clown me
I am aware that my friends will make fun of me.
'Cause I fucked her and didn't have a rubber on me
I had sex with her without protection, and it was a mistake.
It seems I had to find out the hard way
Unfortunately, I had to learn this lesson through painful experience.
That the girl that I found in the ground - she had HIV
The girl I slept with had HIV, and now I have contracted the virus as well.
Now she next to me like...
Now I am in close proximity to someone who has the virus, and it's a difficult situation.
Lalala lala la lalala (suicide)
Life seems unbearable at this point, and I am contemplating suicide.
One, two, three, four, five, six million ways to leave this whole wide world so cold
There are so many ways to end my life, but all of them will leave this world bitterly cold.
Stuck on my ass, I been drinkin' for days
I am stuck, unable to move, and have been drinking excessively for days in an attempt to cope.
And I got the nerve to put that Bonneville on the road
I have the audacity to drive my car recklessly despite my suicidal thoughts.
Oh, got that thang on me and a couple kilos
I have a weapon with me and a significant amount of drugs.
A bag of ecstasy and a pound of that Dro', whoa
I am in possession of a large amount of ecstasy and marijuana.
But I guess I had to find out the hard way
Unfortunately, I had to learn this lesson through painful experience once again.
'Cause I done came to the end of the road
I have reached the end of my rope and feel like I have nothing left to live for.
And now I'm in the mirror like
I am looking at myself in the mirror, contemplating my life and my choices.
Lalala lala la lalala (suicide)
My thoughts are once again turning to suicide, and I feel helpless.
Lalala lala la lalala (suicide)
I am caught in a vicious cycle of despair and self-destruction, with suicidal ideation as my only escape.
Lalala lala la lalala (suicide)
The repetition of this phrase emphasizes the unrelenting nature of my suffering and feelings of hopelessness.
Lyrics © Universal Music Publishing Group
Written by: FAHEEM RASHEED NAJM
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