Back to December
Taylor Swift⥮ Lyrics

I'm so glad you made time to see me
I am grateful that you took out time from your busy schedule to meet me.

How's life, tell me how's your family?
Please update me about your life and your dear ones.

I haven't seen them in a while
It has been a long time since we have last met.

You've been good, busier than ever
I heard you have been doing well, and your work has been keeping you occupied lately.

We small talk, work and the weather
We engage in casual conversation about our work and the weather to ease into the conversation.

Your guard is up and I know why
I understand why you are being cautious and not completely opening up to me.

Because the last time you saw me
Your memory of me is still fresh from the last time we met.

Is still burned in the back of your mind
The memory of our last encounter is still vividly present in your thoughts.

You gave me roses and I left them there to die
You gave me a heartfelt gift, but I did not value it enough and let it wither away.

So this is me swallowing my pride
I am acknowledging my mistakes and am willing to accept responsibility for them.

Standing in front of you saying I'm sorry for that night
I am apologizing for my actions on the night of our last meeting.

And I go back to December all the time
I find myself reminiscing about the past and analyzing my mistakes frequently.

It turns out freedom ain't nothing but missing you
I thought having the freedom to make my own choices would bring me happiness, but I realize that being apart from you is making me miserable.

Wishing I'd realized what I had when you were mine
I regret not valuing our relationship when we were together and realizing its worth.

I'd go back to December, turn around and make it all right
If I had the chance, I would go back to that time and make things right.

These days I haven't been sleeping
Lately, I have been experiencing sleepless nights.

Staying up playing back myself leaving
I am constantly replaying the image of me leaving you over and over in my head.

When your birthday passed and I didn't call
I missed your birthday, but I did not take any action to reach out to you.

And I think about summer, all the beautiful times
I reminisce about the happy moments we shared during the summer.

I watched you laughing from the passenger side
I remember watching you laugh from the passenger seat of the car.

And realized I'd loved you in the fall
It was during the fall season that I realized that I had fallen in love with you.

And then the cold came, the dark days when fear crept into my mind
When the cold weather arrived, I started feeling anxious and fearful.

You gave me all your love and all I gave you was goodbye
I did not reciprocate your love equally, and all I gave you was a goodbye.

I miss your tan skin, your sweet smile, so good to me, so right
I miss every aspect of you that made me feel happy and loved.

And how you held me in your arms that September night
I vividly remember how you held me close on a September night.

The first time you ever saw me cry
I recall the first time I cried in front of you, and you comforted me.

Maybe this is wishful thinking
I understand that what I am about to say is perhaps unrealistic or unrealistic-hopeful.

Probably mindless dreaming
I understand that my thoughts may be unfounded and unproductive.

But if we loved again, I swear I'd love you right
If we had the chance to rekindle our love, I would treat you with the respect and love you deserve.

I'd go back in time and change it, but I can't
If I had the power, I would go back to the past and correct my mistakes, but sadly that is not possible.

So if the chain is on your door, I understand
I understand that you may not want to have contact with me or welcome me into your life right now.

I go back to December all the time, all the time
I find myself constantly thinking about the past and wishing things could have been different.