This song was confirmed on Taylor’s social media accounts on July 23, 2020.
tHIS iS mE TRyiNg
Taylor Swift Lyrics
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I had the shiniest wheels, now they're rusting
I didn't know if you'd care if I came back
I have a lot of regrets about that
Pulled the car off the road to the lookout
Could've followed my fears all the way down
And maybe I don't quite know what to say
But I'm here in your doorway
I just wanted you to know
That this is me trying
I just wanted you to know
That this is me trying
They told me all of my cages were mental
So I got wasted like all my potential
And my words shoot to kill when I'm mad
I have a lot of regrets about that
I was so ahead of the curve, the curve became a sphere
Fell behind all my classmates and I ended up here
Pourin' out my heart to a stranger
But I didn't pour the whiskey
I just wanted you to know
That this is me trying
I just wanted you to know
That this is me trying
At least I'm trying
And it's hard to be at a party
When I feel like an open wound
It's hard to be anywhere these days
When all I want is you
You're a flashback in a film reel
On the one screen in my town
And I just wanted you to know
That this is me trying (maybe I don't quite know what to say)
I just wanted you to know
That this is me trying
At least I'm trying
The lyrics of "This Is Me Trying" are a testament to Taylor Swift's vulnerability and honesty in her music. The song talks about the difficulties of trying to reconnect with someone after making mistakes and being away for a long time. The first verse sets the stage for the rest of the song with Swift admitting that she had been living in her own world and not paying attention to her relationships. She had everything that she thought she wanted, but then things began to fall apart, and her self-doubt and insecurity became more prominent.
The second verse details Swift's struggle to come to terms with her mental cage and how it led her to drink and lash out. Despite her mistakes, she is trying to make things right by pouring her heart out and being completely honest, even if it means revealing things that are difficult to talk about. The chorus is a simple but meaningful message: "This Is Me Trying." It's an open acknowledgment that things might not be perfect, but she's doing her best.
The bridge of the song offers a poignant reflection on Swift's current state of being: she's struggling to move forward and be happy without the person she's singing to. She feels exposed and vulnerable at social gatherings and longs for the person she has lost. Despite all of this, there's a sense of optimism in the song. It's hard to admit your shortcomings, but even when things get tough, trying is always worth it.
Line by Line Meaning
I've been having a hard time adjusting
I'm struggling to cope with changes and new circumstances
I had the shiniest wheels, now they're rusting
I used to have everything going for me, but now everything has gone downhill
I didn't know if you'd care if I came back
I wasn't sure if you would still want me in your life
I have a lot of regrets about that
I feel remorseful and wish I had acted differently in the past
Pulled the car off the road to the lookout
I stopped to reflect on my situation and think things through
Could've followed my fears all the way down
I could have let my anxieties control me completely
And maybe I don't quite know what to say
I'm struggling to express my thoughts and feelings
But I'm here in your doorway
I've come to be with you and face my fears
They told me all of my cages were mental
I was told that my limitations were all in my head
So I got wasted like all my potential
I threw away my potential and numbed my pain with alcohol
And my words shoot to kill when I'm mad
I tend to lash out and say hurtful things when I'm angry
I have a lot of regrets about that
I deeply regret the hurtful things I've done and said
I was so ahead of the curve, the curve became a sphere
I was ahead of the game, but my success eventually led to my downfall
Fell behind all my classmates and I ended up here
I lost my way and ended up in a place I never thought I would be in
Pourin' out my heart to a stranger
I'm opening up to someone I don't know very well
But I didn't pour the whiskey
I turned to someone for emotional support, rather than relying on alcohol
At least I'm trying
I may not be succeeding, but I'm making an effort to better myself and grow
And it's hard to be at a party
It's difficult to be around others when I feel emotionally vulnerable
When I feel like an open wound
I feel raw and exposed, as if I'm still healing from past wounds
It's hard to be anywhere these days
I'm struggling to find my place in the world
When all I want is you
I'm consumed by thoughts of you and the relationship we used to have
You're a flashback in a film reel
You're a memory that replays over and over in my mind
(maybe I don't quite know what to say)
I'm still struggling to express myself clearly
But I'm here in your doorway
I'm showing up and making an effort to fix things between us
At least I'm trying
I may not have all the answers, but I'm trying my best to make things right
Lyrics © Universal Music Publishing Group, Sony/ATV Music Publishing LLC
Written by: Jack Michael Antonoff, Taylor A. Swift
Lyrics Licensed & Provided by LyricFind
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