I sit and watch you reading with your Head low
I observe you with your head hanging down while you read.

I wake and watch you breathing with your Eyes closed
I observe you as you peacefully breathe, with your eyes closed.

I sit and watch you And notice everything you do or don't do
I focus on every action or inaction of yours while I watch you.

You're so much older and wiser and I
You are much more experienced and knowledgeable than I am.

I wait by the door like I'm just a kid
I wait by the door, feeling like a child.

Use my best colors for your portrait
I use my finest colors to paint your portrait.

Lay the table with the fancy shit
I decorate the table with elegant items.

And watch you tolerate it
And notice that you are merely putting up with it.

If it's all in my head tell me now Tell me I've got it wrong somehow
If my assumptions are incorrect, please correct me.

I know my love should be celebrated But you tolerate it
I believe my love for you should be celebrated, but feel you are merely enduring it.

I greet you with a battle hero's welcome
I welcome you with enthusiastic fanfare as if you were a battle hero.

I take your indiscretions all in good fun
I overlook your mistakes and bad choices for the sake of amusement.

I sit and listen I polish plates until they gleam and glisten
I listen to you speak while shining plates to perfection.

While you were out building other worlds, where was I?
While you were pursuing other interests, where was I in your life?

Where's that man who'd throw blankets over my barbed wire?
Where is the man who would protect me from harm and shield me from pain?

I made you my temple, my mural, my sky
I have given you the highest reverence and regard, treating you as my symbol of worship, my masterpiece, and my source of hope.

Now I'm begging for footnotes in the story of your life
Now I am pleading for just a small mention or acknowledgement in your life's narrative.

Drawing hearts in the byline Always taking up too much space or time
I leave small, loving symbols on the edges of your notes, while feeling guilty for always needing too much attention.

You assume I'm fine
You presume that everything is okay with me.

But what would you do if I, I Break free and leave us in ruins
But what would happen if I were to break free from our relationship and leave us both damaged?

Took this dagger in me and removed it Gain the weight of you then lose it
I would endure the pain caused by a toxic relationship before finally gaining control and releasing the weight you have on me.

Believe me, I could do it
Trust me, I am capable of doing this.

If it's all in my head tell me now Tell me I've got it wrong somehow
Please inform me if my perception is mistaken.

I know my love should be celebrated But you tolerate it
I am convinced that my love for you deserves to be recognized, but feel that you are merely enduring it.