In some ways, it’s the same sort of theme that's been on Ray's mind since he first launched the ever-evolving project—which began with a series of no-fi punk songs recorded at home with friends. The world doesn’t matter, life is inherently painful, but you always find a way forward amidst the bleakness. For his part, at 31, he finally feels grown-up, and a little more self-assured—his new songs offer less of the desperate emotional thrashing of his youth.
benzo
Teen Suicide Lyrics
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when i was young i never had any fun
The opening lyrics of Teen Suicide's song "benzo" establishes the dreamlike, surreal atmosphere of the tune right out of the gate. The first line speaks to the way in which our subconscious is often difficult to recall or make sense of, particularly in the modern age where so many of us are overworked and underslept. This concept is linked to the second line of the song, where the singer reflects on their youth and how it was devoid of excitement or joy. This lack of stimulus in their younger years may be why they can't remember their dreams now: without anything particularly engaging or magical happening to them during the day, their mind has little to pull from when it's time to dream at night.
Overall, "benzo" seems to be about feeling detached from reality and searching for something to make life feel worthwhile. The chorus of the song doubles down on this feeling of being unmoored, with lines like "i need to find something to believe in" and "sometimes i feel like i'm asleep and i'm never gonna wake up." The drug reference in the title (a shortened form of benzodiazepine, a type of prescription sedative) speaks to the kind of numbed-out state the singer is describing. They're looking for a way to feel something, anything, whether that's through a chemical substance or some other means."
Line by Line Meaning
i can’t remember my dreams
My mental state has deteriorated to the extent that I can no longer recall my dreams.
when i was young i never had any fun
In my childhood days, I was devoid of happiness and pleasure.
Contributed by Michael D. Suggest a correction in the comments below.
@runforcovertube
American Pleasure Club’s (formerly known as Teen Suicide) new album ‘A Whole Fucking Lifetime of This’ is out 2/16, listen to “this is heaven & id die for it” right here: https://youtu.be/MtHifoG2kgM
@evatron5000
all the songs on this album make me so emotional bc they remind me of when i was depressed for like a straight year and listened to them on repeat
@lunavioletsky
theliteraldevil same lmfaoo I wanna cry
@justinvaldez8410
Still depressed 💀
@angelinas8084
I just came back, this is the second song after idk how long, ig i forgot about this for a while
@oceanlawnlove8109
yeah i was literally the same i just put it on repeat and was too depressed to get up from midnight to like 9am with no sleep
that was 2016 i was fourteen
@XxheymoonxX
big mood
@astrofky7152
Why is this song so good when it only has two lines of lyrics
@leedergs
Because it's teen suicide
@sapien82
its magic that's why