Turnpike Ghost
Tegan and Sara Lyrics


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I want to live like I did back then
With the stars in my eyes
And the blood from the heart of a pen
With my hood pulled up
In the light of the night
I was smoke in the bed
Like a ghost white light
On the turnpike

You didn't lift my world off me
But you said to let it go
So I did, now I see
That my friends are gonna leave me
If they don't believe that they can save me

You don't have to live like that
You don't have to live like that

Like a bolt of lightning
Your stoplight moves on
And you wake up crying
What's going on
What's going on

I'm waking up tired
No god has appeared
I never ever really
Felt real faith in your fear

You don't have to live like that
You don't have to live like that

I'm so sorry for the things I said
For the light of me died
When a part of her did

Like a dream, it's a fear
And it won't carry out
I'm living easy
Nightmare plant a seed
In the garden of doubt

You didn't lift my world off me
But you said to let it go
So I did, now I see
That my friends are gonna leave me
If they don't believe that they can save me

You don't have to live like that
You don't have to live like that

Like a bolt of lightning
Your stoplight moves on
And you wake up crying
What's going on
What's going on

I'm waking up tired
No god has appeared
And I never ever really
Felt real faith in your fear

Let me wash it away
Let me wash it away
You never ever really
Felt real faith in your fear

You don't have to live like that
You don't have to live like that




You don't have to live like that
You don't have to live like that

Overall Meaning

In Tegan and Sara's song Turnpike Ghost, the singer longs to go back to a time when they were more carefree and creative. They describe this time as having "stars in [their] eyes," and being filled with inspiration that flowed from "the heart of a pen." The singer recalls being "smoke in the bed" and "ghost white light on the turnpike," which suggests a feeling of freedom and recklessness.


The tone of the song shifts in the chorus, as the singer reflects on a relationship that has ended. The other person did not fix all their problems, but they did encourage the singer to let go of some things that were holding them back. However, there is still a sense of loss as the singer fears that they will be abandoned by their friends if they cannot be saved.


The song ends with a plea to let go of fear and doubt, and to live life more fully. The repetition of the line "you don't have to live like that" reinforces this message.


Overall, the song seems to be about grappling with the disappointment and confusion that can accompany major life changes like the end of a relationship or the loss of a sense of purpose. There is a longing to reconnect with the energy of the past, but also a recognition that change is inevitable and that it is important to let go of self-destructive patterns and beliefs.


Line by Line Meaning

I want to live like I did back then With the stars in my eyes And the blood from the heart of a pen With my hood pulled up In the light of the night I was smoke in the bed Like a ghost white light On the turnpike
The singer longs to live as they did in the past, with wide-eyed wonder and creative inspiration, wrapped in a sense of anonymity and mystery. It was a time of possibility and freedom.


You didn't lift my world off me But you said to let it go So I did, now I see That my friends are gonna leave me If they don't believe that they can save me
Someone gave the singer advice that helped them let go of something burdensome, but the singer is realizing that their friends will only support them if they feel like they can help solve the problem.


You don't have to live like that You don't have to live like that
A plea to someone to stop living in a dysfunctional or unhappy way, repeated for emphasis.


Like a bolt of lightning Your stoplight moves on And you wake up crying What's going on What's going on
Something has shaken the artist deeply, causing panic and disorientation. They are left wondering what it was all about.


I'm waking up tired No god has appeared I never ever really Felt real faith in your fear
Despite some expectation or hope, there has been no miraculous intervention or divine sign to help the artist. They have never truly believed in the fearful thing that someone else does.


I'm so sorry for the things I said For the light of me died When a part of her did Like a dream, it's a fear And it won't carry out I'm living easy Nightmare plant a seed In the garden of doubt
The singer expresses regret for hurting someone else with their words. They describe a situation where fear has become an obstacle to success, but they refuse to let it control them. The fear remains, however, and threatens to grow and overcome them.


Let me wash it away Let me wash it away You never ever really Felt real faith in your fear
The singer wants to be rid of their fear and doubts, and asks for help doing so. They repeat the plea for emphasis. They know that someone else's fear is not based in true faith, but rather holds them back from living fully.


You don't have to live like that You don't have to live like that You don't have to live like that You don't have to live like that
The final repetition of the earlier plea is a reminder that someone can choose to live however they wish, with no obligation to continue a harmful or limiting pattern.




Writer(s): Jack Antonoff

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averynonym

God, Tegan's voice cracks make this so wonderful <3

Delta1978Theta

Wish they would release an album on all the covers they did.

Jenni

I love Tegan's voice here. It so deep and rough

I V A N

sin lugar a dudas Tegan y Sara son geniales!!!!!!!!!!!!

pkan4eva

Tegan sounds great here! Steel Train is a band to watch for.

I J

My thanks to Steel Train for the AMAZING lyrics and to Tegan and Sara for their FANTASTIC interpretation. This is the song of my life. And thanks to Ted. :) <3

kemplerbrave

I love it. I always love T&S's harmonies. :)

Olivia Bedell

i love how there are ZERO dislikes! I love tegan and sara<3

anthony chucheong

"Whats going on, whats going on!" love tegans voice on that line.

ciara dell

I wish they'd go back to this style, so brilliant<3

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