Teicher was born in Buenos Aires, Argentina to Colombian parents. After spending her childhood in Bogotá, her family later moved to Vancouver, British Columbia, Canada. She attended Berklee College of Music in Boston, Massachusetts, and afterwards moved to New York City.
Disappear
Tei Shi Lyrics
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Wish someone appreciated my bad behavior
Circle I was running was a downward spiral
Made it to the bottom now I'm getting higher
Wish there was a pill that could
Make me feel nothing
I don't wanna be here, I don't wanna feel nothing
Wish that I could disappear
Usually I wouldn't try to numb the pain
But I don't think that I can take another day
And if I took all of my wasted tears
I'd have an ocean I could drown my fears in
Wish there was a pill that could
Make me feel nothing
I don't wanna be here, I don't wanna feel nothing
Wish that I could disappear
Wish that I could disappear
If you wanna disappear
Maybe we can disappear
If you wanna disappear
We can disappear
Into whatever, another dimension
Where you still show up and give me affection
I fucking desperately need your attention
Is it still cute how I'm always complaining?
Disappear
Maybe we can disappear
If you wanna disappear
We can disappear
If you wanna disappear
Maybe we can disappear
If you wanna disappear
We can disappear
Lately I got my mind set on failure
Wish someone appreciated my bad behavior
Circle I was running was a downward spiral
Made it to the bottom now I'm getting higher
In "Disappear" by Tei Shi, the artist laments about her negative thoughts and perceptions of herself, expressing a desire to escape and disappear. She feels like she's trapped in a downward spiral that she can't escape from and wishes that there was a pill to take to make her feel nothing. She reveals the depth of her pain and isolation, saying that she wouldn't usually try to numb the pain but doesn't think she can endure another day if she doesn't.
As the song progresses, Tei Shi continually asks if the person listening would like to disappear with her, singing "If you wanna disappear, maybe we can disappear." She acknowledges that disappearing is not a viable solution but is still stuck in her emotional turmoil. Tei Shi craves attention and affection, even as she acknowledges that her behavior is bad, and expresses hope that things will improve and that she can rise above her current situation.
The longing and despair in "Disappear" reflect a universal feeling of wanting to escape from one's problems and seek comfort elsewhere. However, the second half of the song shows that the artist knows that escape isn't the answer, and she ultimately hopes for a brighter future where she can grow and feel better about herself.
Line by Line Meaning
Lately I got my mind set on failure
I've been losing motivation to succeed and have been consumed by thoughts of not being good enough.
Wish someone appreciated my bad behavior
I wish someone would understand me and accept me for who I am, even with all my flaws.
Circle I was running was a downward spiral
I've been stuck in a cycle of negative thoughts and self-destructive behavior that leads to even more negative thoughts and behavior.
Made it to the bottom now I'm getting higher
I've hit rock bottom but somehow I feel like I'm starting to rise and climb out of it.
Wish there was a pill that could Make me feel nothing
I wish I had a way to escape all the pain and negative emotions I'm feeling and just be numb.
I don't wanna be here, I don't wanna feel nothing
I don't want to exist in this world or feel anything anymore.
Wish that I could disappear Wish that I could disappear
I strongly desire to vanish completely and escape my problems and emotions.
Usually I wouldn't try to numb the pain
Normally, I try to face my struggles and work through them without resorting to numbing the pain with substances or other methods.
But I don't think that I can take another day
The pain and struggles have become too overwhelming for me to handle on my own.
And if I took all of my wasted tears
If I could gather up all the times I've cried in vain, it would amount to a huge quantity.
I'd have an ocean I could drown my fears in
The amount of tears I've shed could fill an entire ocean and I wish I could use it to escape and forget my fears.
If you wanna disappear Maybe we can disappear
If you also desire to escape and disappear, maybe we can do it together.
Into whatever, another dimension
We could vanish into an alternate world or reality where things might be better or different.
Where you still show up and give me affection
In this alternate reality, you would still be there for me and show me love and affection.
I fucking desperately need your attention
I crave your attention and validation because I feel so lost and alone.
Is it still cute how I'm always complaining?
I worry that my constant complaints and negative attitude are unattractive and driving people away.
Lyrics © Sony/ATV Music Publishing LLC, MILO PUBLISHING INC
Written by: Daniel Ledinsky, Felipe Castaneda, Valerie Teicher
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Richard Rodríguez
Lately I got my mind set on failure
Wish someone appreciated my bad behavior
The circle I was running was a downward spiral
Made it to the bottom now I’m getting higher
I wish there was a pill that could make me feel nothing
I don’t wanna be here, I don’t wanna feel nothing
Wish that I could disappear
Wish that I could disappear
Usually I wouldn’t try to numb the pain
But I don’t think that I can take another day
And if I took all of my wasted tears
I’d have an ocean I could drown my fears in
I wish there was a pill that could make me feel nothing
I don’t wanna be here, I don’t wanna feel nothing
Wish that I could disappear
Wish that I could disappear
If you wanna disappear
Maybe we can disappear
If you wanna disappear
We can disappear
Into whatever, another dimension
Where you still show up and give me affection
I fucking desperately need your attention
Is it still cute how I’m always complaining?
Disappear
Maybe we can disappear
If you wanna disappear
We can disappear
If you wanna disappear
Maybe we can disappear
If you wanna disappear
We can disappear
Lately I got my mind set on failure
Wish someone appreciated my bad behavior
The circle I was running was a downward spiral
Made it to the bottom now I’m getting higher
mermistaaa 666
I love this song im surprised this doesnt have more views
and S7
Happens with all the brilliant stuff. Hate to be that person but indie music really gives 1000% almost all the time
Veryyy Immaculate
RIGHTT😭
Richard Rodríguez
Lately I got my mind set on failure
Wish someone appreciated my bad behavior
The circle I was running was a downward spiral
Made it to the bottom now I’m getting higher
I wish there was a pill that could make me feel nothing
I don’t wanna be here, I don’t wanna feel nothing
Wish that I could disappear
Wish that I could disappear
Usually I wouldn’t try to numb the pain
But I don’t think that I can take another day
And if I took all of my wasted tears
I’d have an ocean I could drown my fears in
I wish there was a pill that could make me feel nothing
I don’t wanna be here, I don’t wanna feel nothing
Wish that I could disappear
Wish that I could disappear
If you wanna disappear
Maybe we can disappear
If you wanna disappear
We can disappear
Into whatever, another dimension
Where you still show up and give me affection
I fucking desperately need your attention
Is it still cute how I’m always complaining?
Disappear
Maybe we can disappear
If you wanna disappear
We can disappear
If you wanna disappear
Maybe we can disappear
If you wanna disappear
We can disappear
Lately I got my mind set on failure
Wish someone appreciated my bad behavior
The circle I was running was a downward spiral
Made it to the bottom now I’m getting higher
Tanya Estrada
SERIOUSLY FANGIRLING OVER YOUR MUSIC! LOVE LOVE LOVE!!! I play you on repeat on Spotify but just came to youtube to see if you had a music video for this song. I hope one will be released one day! xoxo
gerb0t
We stand a queen with actually relatable lyrics UwU
Astrid Carmona
I'm so glad that spotify show me her😻
Long Nguyen
Yay!!! Queen’s coming back with some new music!!!!!! XDDD
aereos
esta canción me relaja mucho cuando me siento vacío, gracias tei shi te quiero <3
Astronyan
This song is just spectacular, so relaxing and I'm forever grateful for having found it - thank you Tei Shi!