April
TesseracT Lyrics


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A deep engrained lust for possession
Modern sundowns break me
I like to watch things burn down, soft and gently
I need to watch her abused 'til I'm satisfied
Never...never
See tonight through bloodshot eyes
I'll wait 'til you can see me here
Left so long alone
Undressed tonight, forsaken skin
You mean nothing, nothing
No you mean nothing to me
Won't you feel bad while you're thrashing out?
Makes me feel sick to know she's had enough
Time and time again
You see tonight through bloodshot eyes
You mean nothing, nothing
No you mean nothing at all
I'll never say a word of this I swear, I swear
Never...never
I hope you know




I live tonight through methadone highs
This life is over

Overall Meaning

The lyrics to TesseracT's song April depict the twisted thoughts of a person who is consumed by their lust for possession and their desire to watch someone else suffer. The singer seems to revel in the destruction and abuse they witness, finding satisfaction in the pain of others. They express a sense of loneliness and isolation, feeling forsaken and undressed, as if exposed and vulnerable. The repeated refrain of "you mean nothing to me" emphasizes their dehumanizing attitude towards those around them, treating them as objects to be used for their own pleasure.


The lyrics also touch on themes of addiction and self-destructiveness, with references to methadone highs and the suggestion of ongoing destructive behavior ("Time and time again"). The repeated use of "never" underscores the singer's resolve to maintain their silence about their actions, suggesting a sense of shame or guilt.


Overall, these lyrics paint a haunting and unsettling picture of a person consumed by their darkest desires and unable to connect with others in a meaningful way.


Line by Line Meaning

A deep engrained lust for possession
I have an intense desire to possess things that I am intrigued with.


Modern sundowns break me
The modern world's sunsets make me feel sorrowful and distraught.


I like to watch things burn down, soft and gently
I derive pleasure from seeing things slowly and gently destruct.


I need to watch her abused 'til I'm satisfied
I have a need to see her suffer until I have satisfied myself, and it gives me a sense of pleasure.


Never...never
I will never do or say what I have described above.


See tonight through bloodshot eyes
I am seeing everything through tired eyes that lack sleep and/or are intoxicated.


I'll wait 'til you can see me here
I'll wait until you notice me here, and then I'll act.


Left so long alone
I have been neglected and forsaken for a long time.


Undressed tonight, forsaken skin
I am naked tonight, abandoned by the person who once loved me, and now I am just an empty shell.


You mean nothing, nothing
You are nothing to me, and you have no worth or importance in my life.


No you mean nothing to me
I am emphasizing that you hold no value to me and never will.


Won't you feel bad while you're thrashing out?
Do you not feel remorse for the wrongs you have done, while you are in the act of self-improvement?


Makes me feel sick to know she's had enough
I feel nauseous when I realize that she has had enough of me and wants to leave.


Time and time again
I've made these same mistakes repeatedly, and I haven't learned anything.


You see tonight through bloodshot eyes
You are likely perceiving everything through the lens of a drunk or someone lacking sleep.


You mean nothing, nothing
You are not important and hold no value in my life.


No you mean nothing at all
I want to emphasize that you hold no value to me, not even a little bit.


I'll never say a word of this I swear, I swear
I will never admit to or speak of the terrible things I have done.


I hope you know
I expect you to understand what I am implying without me having to say it.


I live tonight through methadone highs
I am living tonight through the euphoria that methadone provides me, in order to escape my troubles.


This life is over
I feel like my life has lost purpose or direction and that it may be ending soon.




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@XtremeKillah101

oh cool tesseract did a cover of kmacs song

@Vall619

Tbh i prefer the original

@VioletAOP416

Yeah I mean kmac did a nice version but it’s not one of those times where you can act like he did better than the original. Dan’s just got the perfect interpretation of this song, especially with the grit he adds to his voice in the latter half.

@Vall619

@@VioletAOP416 yeah, you're right. But if it wasn't for his cover, i wouldn't know TesseracT, so i am happy he did it

@Lunablueeyes

Kmac brought me here

@aaroneye6591

Kmac4ever

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@GreatEddieThe

Thanks Kmac for teaching us this beautiful song!

@kunalpai7118

Kmac brought me here

@lenincucas9204

can I be proud and disappointed at the same time?

@morreamanha

@@kunalpai7118 he brought me here too :)

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