Juraj Grezdo joins the band after splitting up with Nailed Nazarene. The name Bastard is changed to Fatal Infection and by the end of 1994 the demo Behind the Doors of Sorrow is recorded.
The old name doesn't fit the new material, so it's changed into Thalarion meaning the ancient city of mad poets and flying demons (see Lovecraft's story A White Ship). In March 1996 the first album Towards the Obscure Slumberland is released through Hallelujjah Prod..
The MCD Dominium Unfold (1996) for the US label Wild Rags Records has never been released.
Nevertheless in December 1998 the second album is released through Mighty Music. The Tales Of The Woods... Thus Was Written album is well received by the world metal scene.
Their third album Four Elements Mysterium is marked with 1998 Nela Horvathova's vocals. Nela has also done backing vocals on Tales Of The Woods... Thus was Written.
In November 2002 Mighty Music releases the fourth Thalarion album Tunes of Despondency. After the more gothic Four Elements Mysterium the band changes to a faster and more agressive music going closer to their debut album Towards the Obscure Slumberland.
In 2004 the fifth album Hellium is released. Now there are no keyboards or female vocals (Nela Horvathova is now in Disanchely). The new member Michal (guitar) joins the band and takes a great part in writing material.
Current band members
Juraj Grezdo - vocals, keyboards and Slovak flute
Juraj Schlosser - guitar
Michal Zaќko - guitar
Peter Bartakoviи - bass
Jozef Lukac - drums
My Weakness
Thalarion Lyrics
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Still beside deep inside
I'm too weak to survive
And so faint to feel
Do you know how I feel?
The heat inside, exploding silence
Who will give me more power
More pleasure for my soul?
Is that fear or anger within me
To blow me up and disappear?
Why do I feel so cheated?
Not knowing where my guilt dwells
Why everything you trust
Must hurt you and then turn to dust?
Expected relapses
Overstrain all my mind
I'm too slack to fight
And much rare for sacrifice
Do you know how I feel?
The heat inside, exploding silence
I feel I'm gonna smash or cry
The lyrics to Thalarion's song "My Weakness" describe the internal struggles of someone with destructive tendencies. Even though they are aware of the harm they are causing themselves, they feel too weak to overcome them. They are constantly fighting against feelings of anger and fear, and the tension inside is so unbearable that they feel like they are about to explode. They long for something to give them more power and pleasure in their life, but they are unsure if it's fear or anger driving them. They feel cheated and guilt-ridden, and they cannot seem to trust anyone or anything without being hurt in the end. Despite their expectations of recovery, they find themselves continually struggling, feeling both mentally and physically worn out.
In summary, the lyrics are a depiction of someone who is fighting an internal battle against their own self-destructive tendencies. They are seeking ways to find pleasure and power in their life, but the fear and anger inside them continue to hold them back. They feel cheated and guilty, and the constant struggle is tearing them apart.
Line by Line Meaning
Destructive tendencies
I have a natural inclination towards things that are destructive.
Still beside deep inside
Even though I try to hide it, this urge is still a part of me and cannot be easily removed.
I'm too weak to survive
I do not feel strong enough to overcome these tendencies or to protect myself from their consequences.
And so faint to feel
I am unable to fully experience my emotions, making it difficult for me to understand and deal with them.
Do you know how I feel?
I am asking if anyone else can relate to my struggles or has experienced something similar.
The heat inside, exploding silence
The tension within me is building up to a breaking point, despite the external appearance of calmness.
I feel I'm gonna smash or cry
I am at the brink of an emotional outburst and do not know in which direction it will manifest.
Who will give me more power
I am looking for external solutions to my internal problem, believing that I need more strength from elsewhere to overcome my tendencies.
More pleasure for my soul?
I am seeking pleasure to fill the void within me, hoping that by satisfying my desires, I will be able to overcome my destructive tendencies.
Is that fear or anger within me
I am unsure of the true source of my feelings, whether they stem from fear or anger or a combination of the two.
To blow me up and disappear?
I fear that my destructive tendencies will eventually consume me and cause me to lose myself completely.
Why do I feel so cheated?
I am questioning why life seems to continually disappoint me, leaving me in a constant state of dissatisfaction and pain.
Not knowing where my guilt dwells
I am struggling to understand the root of my problems, unsure of where to find the source of my guilt.
Why everything you trust
I am questioning why the things and people that I put my faith in always seem to let me down.
Must hurt you and then turn to dust?
I am expressing my frustration at the cycle of disappointment and destruction that seems to be never-ending.
Expected relapses
I am anticipating that I will inevitably fall back into my destructive tendencies, despite my efforts to overcome them.
Overstrain all my mind
The mental struggle of trying to resist my tendencies is overwhelming and exhausting me.
I'm too slack to fight
I feel powerless and unable to put up a fight against my urges.
And much rare for sacrifice
I am unwilling to make the necessary sacrifices to overcome my tendencies, either because I am too weak or too attached to my desires.
Contributed by Alex P. Suggest a correction in the comments below.