Death's Hand
The Amity Affliction Lyrics


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I held death's head this evening
Can't keep my heart from beating
Can't keep my throat from screaming
There has to be another way for me to keep on living

I held death's head this evening
Closed mind and still I'm breathing
Promise I won't leave here
Don't let me die I'm fucking screaming

'Cause I've got more life left to live (Got some promises to keep)
To all the hearts that carried me (Up from the ocean deep)
I've had to do some searching to understand our reasons
For every selfish feeling (I held death's hand this evening)

Now my looks are failing
And my heart is fading
My life is taking me
So far away I'm dreaming
For every selfish reason
I've got the part of training
I poured my heart out
Just so you'll believe me

I held death's head this evening
Closed mind and still I'm breathing
Promise I won't leave here
Don't let me die I'm fucking screaming

'Cause I've got more life left to live (Got some promises to keep)
To all the hearts that carry me (Up from the ocean deep)
I've had to do some searching to understand our reasons
For every selfish feeling (I held death's hand this evening)

You're the ones that kept me going
I owe you this much
You gave me the strength to say
Hey Death, get fucked!

You're the ones that kept me going
I owe you this much
You gave me the strength to say
Hey Death, get fucked!

Now my looks are failing
And my heart is fading
My life is taking me
So far away I'm dreaming
Now my looks are failing




And my heart is fading
My life is taking me

Overall Meaning

The Amity Affliction's song Death's Hand is a deeply personal and emotional reflection on the fear of death and the desire to keep living. The lyrics are raw and powerful, expressing the struggle to hold onto life despite the overwhelming presence of death. The opening lines, "I held death's head this evening, can't keep my heart from beating, can't keep my throat from screaming" capture the intensity and terror of being close to death. The singer is desperate to find a way to keep living, to hold on to the promise of life and the people who have supported him through his struggles.


Throughout the song, the singer acknowledges his own selfishness and the ways in which he has failed to fully appreciate the people in his life who have helped him. He recognizes that he has "had to do some searching to understand our reasons for every selfish feeling," and that he has taken his life and the support of others for granted. The song is ultimately a tribute to the people who have kept the singer going, who have given him strength and hope when all seemed lost. The final lines, "You're the ones that kept me going, I owe you this much, you gave me the strength to say, Hey Death, get fucked!" are a powerful testament to the resilience and courage of the human spirit.


Line by Line Meaning

I held death's head this evening
I had a brush with death tonight


Can't keep my heart from beating
I'm still alive, my heart won't stop


Can't keep my throat from screaming
I'm at the end of my rope and need help


There has to be another way for me to keep on living
I need help finding a path to stay alive


Closed mind and still I'm breathing
I'm mentally closed off, but physically alive


Promise I won't leave here
I won't take my own life


Don't let me die I'm fucking screaming
I'm begging for help to stay alive


'Cause I've got more life left to live (Got some promises to keep)
I have things I still want to do and people to take care of


To all the hearts that carried me (Up from the ocean deep)
Thank you to all who have helped me in my darkest times


I've had to do some searching to understand our reasons
I needed to figure out why I want to live, and what I'm living for


For every selfish feeling (I held death's hand this evening)
I've struggled with selfish thoughts about taking my own life


My life is taking me so far away I'm dreaming
I feel like I'm drifting away from life, and it feels like a dream


For every selfish reason / I've got the part of training / I poured my heart out / Just so you'll believe me
I've been struggling with my own selfish desires, but I'm trying to improve and be honest with myself and others


You're the ones that kept me going / I owe you this much / You gave me the strength to say / Hey Death, get fucked!
I'm grateful to those who have helped me stay alive and have the courage to face death




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@zedward

"Hey death, GET FUCKED!"
Chills every time

@yunghopeless4017

+Zoe Bob да

@tjwalton7652

+Zoe Bob same bro

@Night-rage

+Zoe Bob Really ? It mostly makes me cringe

@riverkingWR5

+Michel van der Molen I'm with you.

@Night-rage

***** Can't blame ya

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@thequasi3276

My old roommate never liked heavier music until I started inching it into his life song by song. Over the years I could see his depression grab more of his soul day by day and I realized music was his output. When I discovered this band and specifically this song and blared it through our speakers he immediately took hold to the words and it became his all time favorite. Another year or so went by and I had to move away for work. Without that positive influence I guess the depression took hold again and he ended up committing suicide a month after I left. He wrote me the night before he took his life and thanked me for showing him Amity Affliction and how they helped him through the hardest of times. I want to thank you for bringing a smile to my friends soul while he was with us and I know everytime I listen to this song a small piece of him is still with me jamming out in the room and smiling because life is just that much more bearable at the moment. Thank you

@mrcherryz2586

Fuuuuuuuck!!!!

@JoseGutierrez-ws2yt

I lost my best friend to suicide too man I feel you, and yeah amity is just awesome keep fighting man

@xmaryxhavokx

Tyler Breihan bittersweet... I lost my BFF too.. it hurts but the music we both loved makes me happy and cry at times.. sorry for your loss.

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