Two
The Antlers Lyrics

In the middle of the night I was sleeping sitting up
I woke up in the middle of the night, sitting up due to the situation that I'm in.

When a doctor came to tell me, 'Enough is enough'
A doctor came to me and told me that enough has been done, and it's time to face the reality.

He brought me out into the hall (I could have sworn it was haunted)
He took me out of the room, but the place seemed eerie and spooky.

And told me something that I didn't know that I wanted to hear
He told me something that, on the one hand, I didn't want to hear, but on the other hand, I didn't know I needed to hear.

That there was nothing that I could do to save you
He told me that nothing I could have done to save the person I care about.

The choir's going to sing, and this thing is going to kill you
The choir is going to sing like they usually do, but the illness that the person has will eventually take their life.

Something in my throat made my next words shake
I couldn't believe what I was hearing, and it made me nervous to respond.

And something in the wires made the lightbulbs break
The tension of the situation has caused the bulbs to burst.

There was glass inside my feet and raining down from the ceiling
There was debris and glass scattered throughout the room falling from above.

It opened up the scars that had just finished healing
The situation brought back memories of the past and reopened wounds that had only recently been healed.

It tore apart the canyon running down your femur
The illness is causing damage to the person's body, and it's like the wound is a deep canyon in their leg.

(I thought that it was beautiful, it made me a believer)
Despite the tragic situation, I couldn't help but see the beauty of it and now believe in its power.

And as it opened I could hear you howling from your room
The pain was so unbearable that the person was screaming from their room.

But I hid out in the hall until the hurricane blew
I couldn't handle the situation and had to leave the room until it calmed down.

When I reappeared and tried to give you something for the pain
After some time, I tried to come back to help manage the pain.

You came to hating me again and just sang your refrain
But instead of accepting the help, the person began to hate me and sing a familiar tune of theirs.

You had a new dream, it was more like a nightmare
The person was having a dream that felt more like a nightmare.

You were just a little kid, and they cut your hair
The dream involved a traumatic event from their childhood, where they lost their hair.

Then they stuck you in machines, you came so close to dying
Following the hair-cutting incident, the person was put in machines and was very close to dying.

They should have listened, they thought that you were lying
The people around didn't believe the person's cries for help and thought they were lying.

Daddy was an asshole, he fucked you up
The person's father was abusive and hurt them emotionally.

Built the gears in your head, now he greases them up
He instilled negative thoughts in their mind, and now they are constantly tormented by them.

And no one paid attention when you just stopped eating
People around did not care when the person stopped eating and took it lightly.

"Eighty-seven pounds!" and this all bears repeating
The person's weight had dropped drastically to 87 pounds, and this fact needs to be emphasized.

Tell me when you think that we became so unhappy
When do you think we stopped being happy with each other?

Wearing silver rings with nobody clapping
We wear silver rings to symbolize our commitment, but no one is there to support and celebrate it.

When we moved here together we were so disappointed
When we moved here, we had high hopes, but we were let down.

Sleeping out of tune with our dreams disjointed
We no longer share the same dreams and cannot sleep in sync due to different paths.

It killed me to see you getting always rejected
I felt defeated watching you getting constantly turned down.

But I didn't mind the things you threw, the phones I deflected
Even though you would throw things and be angry, I would try to calm you down and take the hit.

I didn't mind you blaming me for your mistakes
You would often blame me for things that happened, but I didn't mind taking the blame.

I just held you in the door-frame through all of the earthquakes
Through all the ups and downs, I would hold you in the doorframe, and we would face everything together.

But you packed up your clothes in that bag every night
However, you still kept packing your bags every night.

And I would try to grab your ankles (what a pitiful sight)
I would try to make you stay by holding onto your ankles, but it was a sad sight.

But after over a year, I stopped trying to stop you
I eventually gave up on stopping you after more than a year.

From stomping out that door, coming back like you always do
You would leave through that door, but you'd always come back eventually.

Well no one's going to fix it for us, no one can
No one will solve our problems for us, it must come from us.

You say that, "No one's going to listen, and no one understands"
You think no one will listen or understand what we're going through.

So there's no open doors, and there's no way to get through
We've closed all the doors and don't know how to move forward.

There's no other witnesses, just us two
No one else is here to witness the struggles, it’s just the two of us.

There's two people living in one small room
We are two people living in a small room, sharing everything.

From your two half-families tearing at you
Your two families are constantly causing conflict and arguing with each other.

Two ways to tell the story (no one worries)
There are two sides to every story, but no one seems to care.

Two silver rings on our fingers in a hurry
We have two silver rings, but we put them on in haste without realizing the weight of the commitment we were making.

Two people talking inside your brain
You are constantly debating with yourself, and it feels like two different people inside your head.

Two people believing that I'm the one to blame
Both people inside your head believe that I am responsible for our current struggles.

Two different voices coming out of your mouth
The two different sides of you are coming out through your words.

While I'm too cold to care and too sick to shout
I can't show any emotions as I am emotionally detached and sick.