I'm Not Getting Excited
The Beths Lyrics

I'm not getting excited
I am intentionally not letting myself get excited about something.

'Cause the thrill isn't mine to invite in
The excitement is not something I can control, it's not mine to make happen.

Just the chill when I learn
I am only feeling somewhat anxious when I hear news about this thing.

That's it's finally my turn
I've been waiting for my chance for a long time, and now it's here.

I've finally earned my place in the urn
I've worked hard to get this opportunity and I deserve it.

And I take a fall
Even if I fail or things don't go as planned, I am prepared for it.

But I keep my hands soft
I am staying relaxed and open-minded through this experience.

I keep my body limp
I am staying loose and flexible in my approach.

And I move with the wind
I am adapting to the situation, going with the flow.

I'll go where it bends
I will follow the path that is presented to me.

And lick all of the expectations
I am rejecting any preconceived notions about how this experience will turn out.

'Cause the light on the fire's got me hiding
The intensity of the situation is making me feel a bit scared and wanting to avoid it.

When it flashes at night
This feeling comes to me most prominently when I am trying to sleep.

It's the bringer of signs
This emotion is a signal to me that something important is coming up.

I can see it through my eyelids
It is so intense that I can sense it even when my eyes are closed.

I know that it's time
This is a sign that I am ready for something, even if it makes me feel uneasy.

And I hold it all
I am keeping this emotion inside and not letting it show.

All the answer and asking
I feel like I have both the solution and the problem all in my head.

My thoughts are erecting
My mind is creating scenarios and outcomes based on this feeling.

There's no point untangling
It's not worth trying to figure out everything that is going on.

The thought from the action
It's hard to separate my feeling from how I might actually react.

I'm awake
I am alert and aware of what is happening, even if it makes me anxious.

What is it like, the other side?
I am curious about what happens after we're gone, or after something big happens.

Where all my vitals signs have faded away
When we die, all of our physical signs indicating life are gone.

Bionic dreams keep me awake
My mind is caught up in visions or fantasies that are keeping me from sleeping.

I wear the same face to the morning
I am putting on a brave or happy face even though I'm feeling nervous.

Warning
This is a sign that something important or difficult might be coming up.

Not getting excited
I am still intentionally not allowing myself to feel fully excited, even though there are positive things happening.

'Cause my fight and my flight are divided
I am experiencing conflicting feelings about whether to face a situation head-on or to run away from it.

And so I don't enthuse
I am not showing overt enthusiasm because I am still unsure how to proceed.

Keep my grip on joy loose
If things do work out, I am not holding onto happiness too tightly because I am still cautious.

And I wait for the news
I am still waiting for more information or clarification about the situation.

With my feet in my shoes
I am ready to move quickly if I need to, even if I still feel unsure about the situation.

And I lose it all
Even if I thought I had everything under control, it could still all fall apart.

With one foot out the door
I am still ready to leave or escape if things don't go as planned.

When I smile, I lie
I might seem happy or content, but inside I am still unsure or being cautious.

With my eye to the side
I am always keeping an eye out for any signs that I might need to react quickly.

So I greet with goodbye
I am not making long commitments or engaging too deeply because I am still unsure what will happen.

Yeah goodbye
I may be saying goodbye now but I may still return later if everything seems safe.

Where all my vitals signs have faded away
This line repeats from earlier, emphasizing the concern about what happens after we die or after something big happens.

Bionic dreams keep me awake
This line also repeats, showing how this feeling has taken hold of the artist's mind and is preventing them from sleeping.

I wear the same face to the morning
This line also repeats, emphasizing the idea of putting on a brave or happy face even when there are underlying fears or concerns.

Warning
This line also repeats, acting as another signal that something big or important is coming up.