The band released Awaken through Peaceville Records in 1996. Allender left during the recording of the band's follow up album, Mystica, released in 1997, again through Peaceville Records. Benjamin Ryan quit the band some time in April 1998, and by May, the rest of the unit folded shop and the band fell to ashes.
In 2002, Peaceville released The Blood Divine compilation album Rise Pantheon Dreams. The tracklist included songs from both Awaken and Mystica, as well as two previously-unreleased tracks ("Revolt" and "Forever Belongs"), a live version of "Aureole", and a live cover of The Osmonds' "Crazy Horses".
Allender later rejoined Cradle of Filth. Sarginson briefly joined Cradle of Filth before the band settled in with Swedish drummer Adrian Erlandsson.
Fear of a Lonely World
The Blood Divine Lyrics
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of disturbing dreams
Starlit happiness remaining dormant
Whilst I'm turning my thoughts to the crying...
Innocence is dying
I'm free from the heavy burden
Losing clarity of consciousness
Whilst I'm turning my thoughts to the crying...
My guiding inner conscience transcends
External reality trends
The whispering voice of reason screams
Over lonely dreams
Now you're dead...
Did you never think how it would be?
Or did you only ever think of your own pain?
Selfishly...
You never thought of anyone else's feelings
Only your own
Sealed in your lonely world
The Fear...
Fear of a lonely world
Fear of a lonely world
In your own lonely world
...in sleep
The opening lines of The Blood Divine's "Fear of a Lonely World" describe a feeling of being trapped in a seemingly endless cycle of troubling dreams, while any potential for happiness remains out of reach. The singer is tormented by the idea that innocence is dying, perhaps referring to a loss of naivety and childlike wonder. Yet, they express some relief in being free from the weight of guilt and regaining some clarity of thought, though this doesn't prevent them from still dwelling on the "crying."
The song takes a turn when the singer addresses someone who has passed away, questioning whether they ever considered the effect their death would have on others or if they only thought of their own pain. There's a sense of bitterness towards this person who acted selfishly and didn't take anyone else's feelings into account. The song ends with a repetition of the phrase "fear of a lonely world," suggesting that this fear is what drives people to act in ways that harm themselves and others. The final line, "in sleep," adds a haunting quality to the lyrics, as if the singer is saying that even in death, this person is unable to escape their own fears and loneliness.
Line by Line Meaning
Confined to this infinite haze
Feeling trapped in an endless cycle of confusion and uncertainty
of disturbing dreams
Experiencing unsettling and troubling images in dreams
Starlit happiness remaining dormant
Feeling as though joy and contentment are out of reach and unattainable
Whilst I'm turning my thoughts to the crying...
While focusing on sorrow and despair
Innocence is dying
Losing a sense of purity, naivety, and hopefulness
I'm free from the heavy burden
Relieved from a heavy weight of responsibility or guilt
Of destroying guilt
Being weighed down by feeling responsible for causing harm or damage
Losing clarity of consciousness
Experiencing confusion and difficulty with clear thinking
Whilst I'm turning my thoughts to the crying...
Focusing on sadness and sorrow
My guiding inner conscience transcends
Having a moral compass that surpasses typical societal values
External reality trends
The state of society and the world outside one's mind
The whispering voice of reason screams
A clear and sensible perspective that cuts through chaos and confusion
Over lonely dreams
In the midst of experiencing very personal fears and anxieties
Now you're dead...
Acknowledging the reality of someone's death
Did you never think how it would be?
Wondering if the person considered the consequences of their actions leading up to their death
Or did you only ever think of your own pain?
Questioning if the person was only focused on their own suffering and not the impact it would have on others
Selfishly...
Putting one's own desires and needs above others'
You never thought of anyone else's feelings
Ignoring or disregarding how one's actions or words affect others
Only your own
Prioritizing solely one's own emotions and welfare
Sealed in your lonely world
Trapped and isolated in a place of intense despair or depression
The Fear...
The overwhelming feeling of anxiety or dread
Fear of a lonely world
Being profoundly afraid of living in an isolated or loveless environment
Fear of a lonely world
Being profoundly afraid of living in an isolated or loveless environment
In your own lonely world
Living with a sense of utter loneliness and isolation
...in sleep
Tangled up in dreams and fears even when asleep
Contributed by Eva T. Suggest a correction in the comments below.