The band released Awaken through Peaceville Records in 1996. Allender left during the recording of the band's follow up album, Mystica, released in 1997, again through Peaceville Records. Benjamin Ryan quit the band some time in April 1998, and by May, the rest of the unit folded shop and the band fell to ashes.
In 2002, Peaceville released The Blood Divine compilation album Rise Pantheon Dreams. The tracklist included songs from both Awaken and Mystica, as well as two previously-unreleased tracks ("Revolt" and "Forever Belongs"), a live version of "Aureole", and a live cover of The Osmonds' "Crazy Horses".
Allender later rejoined Cradle of Filth. Sarginson briefly joined Cradle of Filth before the band settled in with Swedish drummer Adrian Erlandsson.
These Deepest Feelings
The Blood Divine Lyrics
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As we stood and felt warmth from the burning embers
Those lips that sent into me the joy of a long walk
Through the cold forest in Winter's favourite days
...And those nights, those legendary nights.
I have always been willing to bleed for you.
Every night that we shared those deepest feelings,
Here again I feel that my painful thoughts are wandering
Into starlit, dream-like visions.
I can recall the pain of deep thought
Pondering life and destiny
Sometimes obsessed with the death of close friends.
(In Winter's favourite days)
Cherished and loved,
Still remembered
Are the ashes of smouldering embers.
My soul, my heart, my eyes are ablaze
In Winter's favourite days.
The Blood Divine's song These Deepest Feelings portrays a story of an intense love that was shared between two people. The lyrics paint a vivid image of a cold winter's night where the two lovers stand together, warmed by the embers of a fire as they share a kiss. The singer reminisces about happier times when they would take long walks in the winter forest and how those moments would fill them with joy. The lyrics then take a darker turn as they suggest that the singer was always willing to sacrifice and bleed for their lover. The lyrics suggest that their relationship was intense and involved sharing secrets with each other.
The second half of the lyrics becomes much heavier as the singer confesses how their mind often wanders towards painful thoughts of death and destiny. Again, the lyrics suggest that the singer may have lost close friends which has left a deep mark on their psyche. The final lines of the song suggest that the singer's soul, heart, and eyes are ablaze in Winter's favourite days. These words could be interpreted to either mean that the singer is rejuvenated by the winter season or that the cold darkness of winter reminds them of the melancholic moments of their life.
Line by Line Meaning
Her cold lips pressed against mine
We kissed and exchanged warmth while standing near the burning embers.
As we stood and felt warmth from the burning embers
We shared the heat and enjoyed each other's company while standing close to the fire.
Those lips that sent into me the joy of a long walk
Her kisses reminded me of the happiness I feel when walking through the forest during Winter's favorite days.
Through the cold forest in Winter's favourite days
We would take long walks in the Winter forest when the days were at their best.
...And those nights, those legendary nights.
We also have incredible memories of the nights we spent together.
I have always been willing to bleed for you.
I am willing to sacrifice anything for our relationship, even if it hurts me.
Every night that we shared those deepest feelings,
Whenever we opened up to each other and shared our darkest secrets,
Shared dark secrets... I always have.
I always revealed my own secrets, and I listened to hers as well.
Here again I feel that my painful thoughts are wandering
My mind is drifting towards painful memories once more.
Into starlit, dream-like visions.
I am imagining these painful moments as if they were a beautiful dream.
I can recall the pain of deep thought
I remember feeling intense pain while reflecting on my life and destiny.
Pondering life and destiny
I often thought about the greater meaning of my existence and the path I was meant to take.
Sometimes obsessed with the death of close friends.
I even found myself overly preoccupied with thoughts of death and the loss of loved ones.
(In Winter's favourite days)
This is all happening during the best days of the Winter season.
Cherished and loved,
I held onto these memories and adored them.
Still remembered
Even though time has passed, I can still recall these memories vividly.
Are the ashes of smouldering embers.
The remains of the once-burning embers serve as a reminder of the warmth we shared.
My soul, my heart, my eyes are ablaze
I feel an intense passion burning within my soul, heart, and eyes.
In Winter's favourite days.
All of this is happening during the best days of Winter.
Contributed by Camilla C. Suggest a correction in the comments below.