I Wonder
The C.I.T.Y. Lyrics

Sometimes I look in the mirror
At times, I reflect upon myself

And imagine I've come so far
And visualize myself having made tremendous progress

Sometimes I like to pretend
Occasionally, I prefer to feign as if

I’m everything they are
I possess all of their qualities

Because it hurts so bad to feel so Small
As it causes excruciating pain to feel insignificant

I always seem to want to be every Single thing I’m not
I continually desire to possess every quality I don't have

But how could anyone care
However, why would anyone be concerned

About someone the world forgot
About someone the world has abandoned

Doesn’t matter what I do
No matter what I do

There’s always someone who does It better
There's always someone who performs it with greater proficiency

Doesn’t matter how I feel
No matter how I feel

There’s always someone who treats Them better
There's always someone who treats them with greater empathy

I wonder if I’ll ever get know what It's like above the clouds
I contemplate whether I'll ever experience the sensation of being above the clouds

I wonder if I’ll ever see all the things I’ve done and feel proud
I'm curious about whether or not I'll feel proud about everything I've accomplished

I wonder if I’ll ever get to where These angels are
I ponder if I'll ever arrive at the spot where these angels reside

I wonder if I could ever be just as perfect as they are
I question if I could ever be as flawless as them

How does it feel to be flawless
What does it feel like to have no imperfections

How does it feel to be loved
What does it feel like to receive unconditional love

How does it feel to belong
What does it feel like to fit in

To a world full of endless love
To a world that has an unending supply of love

Because I’ve never felt that way
As I've never experienced those emotions

Not even close
Not even remotely

I’m so far
I'm very distant

So far from loving myself
Very far from being fond of who I am

And believing in who I am
And having faith in who I am

One day I’ll look in the mirror
Someday, I'll glance at myself in the mirror

And I won’t have to pretend
And won't have to act as if anymore

But until that day comes
However, until that day arrives

I’ll just wonder
I'll simply ponder