Killing Time
The Carbonfools Lyrics

I thought I would be able
I believed I had the strength and ability

Just to stand up on the table
To take a bold action and make a statement

And I
But I

Shout it out so loud that I’m so strong and I’m so tough
To assert my strength and toughness to overcome difficulties

To fight down all this madness
To combat the chaos and confusion around me

And throw away my sadness
To overcome and forget my own sadness

And I thought I was the one
I believed I could handle situations on my own

I thought I’m smart enough
I believed I had enough intelligence to solve any problem

But when my things fell into trouble
However, when my situation became difficult

And I felt like ash and rubble
And I felt broken and defeated

And I realized that nothing works so easy as I thought
I was met with the realization that things are not as simple as they seem

And here’s a man just praying even all the gods betraying
Meanwhile, there are those who still have faith despite being let down by everything

I wish I could just move away from the sadness that you cause
I long to escape the pain and suffering caused by someone or something

But
However

If I put you down
If I distance myself from my troubles

The pain returns
The pain will inevitably return

If I pick you up
If I confront my problems

You just make it worse
The situation only becomes more challenging

If I rule your world
If I prioritize someone else's needs over my own

I’d forget mine
I would neglect my own needs

And I don’t want to live just killing time
And I refuse to simply exist without purpose or fulfillment

How it got started I don’t remember
I cannot recall how it all began

Felt really bad on that rainy December
I felt particularly miserable on one rainy December day

I’m missing my sun
I am missing something or someone that brings light into my life

My sorrow just began
My sadness has only just started

I couldn’t help it
I could not control my emotions

I was looking for someone
I was searching for someone to fill the void in my life

I want to live not just rollin’ around
I desire to have a meaningful and purposeful life

Just hold my hand let’s get lost and never found
Let's embark on an adventure together and forget our troubles

I laugh hard work hard on my sorrow
I deal with my sadness by finding joy in hard work

I know it’s no today it’s always tomorrow
I realize that my problems will never go away, and will likely continue into the future