Flagpole Sitta
The Composure Lyrics

I had visions
I experienced vivid and unusual thoughts or hallucinations.

I was in them
These strange visions consumed my thoughts and imagination.

I was looking into the mirror
I was inspecting myself, perhaps searching for flaws or answers.

To see a little bit clearer
I was trying to gain a better understanding of myself or the world around me.

The rotteness and evil in me
I was forced to confront my own dark and malicious characteristics.

Fingertips have memories
I remember the physical sensation of touching someone, even after they're gone.

Mine can't forget the curves of your body
These specific memories are etched into my mind permanently, never to be forgotten.

And when i feel a bit naughty
When I'm feeling impulsive or mischievous.

I run it up the flagpole to see
I test my own limits and boundaries by pushing boundaries and expectations of others.

Who salutes
To see who will support me, who will accept me for who I am.

(But no one ever does)
Despite my efforts to find acceptance, I'm always ultimately rejected or ignored by others.

I'm not sick but I'm not well
I don't have an easily diagnosable medical condition, but I don't feel good mentally or emotionally.

And it's so hot
My current state is uncomfortable or intolerable, like being in a hot and humid environment.

'Cause i'm in hell
I feel like I'm trapped in a personal hell, experiencing torment or anguish.

Been around the world and found that
I've traveled extensively and made observations about the world and people in it.

Only stupid people are breeding
I believe that people who are considered unintelligent or ignorant are the ones who are having the most children and perpetuating their 'stupidity.'

The cretins cloning and feeding
These unintelligent people are not only reproducing, but also promoting their own ideas and values to the next generation.

And I don't even own a TV
Despite living in a society where TV is a common form of entertainment, I choose not to own one or participate in that culture.

Put me in the hospital for nerves
I was hospitalized for anxiety or stress-related issues.

And then they had to commit me
I was deemed mentally unwell and was held against my will.

You told them all I was crazy
Someone close to me spread rumors about my mental health, leading others to believe I was unstable.

They cut off my legs
As a form of punishment or treatment, my legs were amputated.

Now i'm an amputee
I am now disabled and have lost a part of my physical self in addition to my mental and emotional strains.

(God damn you!)
I am angry and frustrated at the person(s) who caused my current suffering.

I wanna publish zines
I have a desire to create and distribute self-published magazines or other unconventional forms of media.

And rage against machines
I am vocal in my opposition to technology or societal norms that I find oppressive or harmful.

I wanna pierce my tounge
I am interested in body modification and experimentation, and I want to get a tongue piercing.

It doesnt hurt it feels fine
Some people might see this as painful or strange, but I enjoy it and don't find it uncomfortable.

The trivial sublime
I am attracted to things in life that may seem unimportant or small, but that hold a deeper meaning or significance for me.

I'd like to turn off time
I wish I could freeze time or escape the pressures of reality and the chaos of the modern world.

And kill my mind
I wish I could stop thinking or worrying, even if it meant ending my own consciousness altogether.

You kill my mind, mind
There are people or situations that are causing me stress or anxiety and preventing me from feeling at peace or happy.

Paranoia, Paranoia
I am constantly worried and afraid of others harming me or conspiring against me.

Everybody's coming to get me
I feel like everyone is out to get me or is talking about me behind my back.

Just say you never met me
I would rather hide or deny my true identity or experiences, in fear of being targeted or judged.

I'm running underground with the moles
I feel unsafe or unwelcome in mainstream society, so I prefer to hide or seek refuge elsewhere, like underground.

(Digging holes)
I am trying to create my own path, even if it means taking a more difficult or unconventional route.

Hear the voices in my head
I am plagued by my own internal worries, doubts, and negative self-talk.

I swear to god it sounds like they're snoring
Sometimes, when I hear these voices, they sound like they are sleeping.

But if you're bored then you're boring
I feel like the people around me who are content with average, non-controversial lives are unsatisfying and uninteresting.

The agony and the irony
The pain and suffering that I experience only adds to the irony of life and the struggle to find true meaning and happiness.

They're killing me
These feelings of depression and anxiety are becoming unbearable and taking a toll on my well-being.

And it's a sin to live this well
Despite my suffering, I am still able to live comfortably and I feel guilty about it.

I'm not sick but I'm not well
I am not physically ill, but my mental and emotional state is lacking and in a state of unrest.

And I'm so hot 'cause I'm in Hell
I am still uncomfortable and in a state of suffering, both physically and emotionally.