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The Counterparts Lyrics

Back-pedaling into the black
Retreating into the darkness of my mind

But I can still make out the figures
But I can still vividly see the problems that will be harmful to me

That will threaten my well-being
That have the potential to harm me

The wind will rise and fall
The unpredictable events will come and go

But never sway from side to side
But one thing is certain, it won't leave me alone

Progression halted
My progress has come to a stop

Encapsulating the fluid weave of death
Trapped in an inescapable pattern of failure and defeat

Like a garden that contains all of its arrested offspring
Like a garden frozen in time, unable to grow or change

We're afraid to force our legs to break free from the earth
We are too scared to make the necessary changes to move forward

And take the first step towards our insecurity
And face our uncertain future and our own vulnerability

Sleep away your selfishness
Distract yourself from your own problems by ignoring them

Slip into collapse
Deliberately give up and let yourself fall apart

A still-like state of disregard
A state of complete apathy and indifference

From which you can't fall back
From which it is hard to recover or escape

You never fully moved me
Your actions never deeply affected me

I've been embedded in the dust
I am stuck in a hopeless and miserable situation

And my mind has been ravaged by war
My thoughts have been consumed by mental struggles and conflicts

Pray for farewell as if I was yours to lose
Say goodbye to me as though we were once close friends

I would love to love you, if you were someone else
I would be able to love you if your personality or situation were different

So forgive me for being unresponsive
Please understand that I am emotionally unavailable

I'm sure it's hard to train your ears to hear me crying out for help
It's difficult for you to understand my plea for assistance

With my lips sewn shut by the stitches of my own indecision
Unable to vocalize my thoughts and emotions due to my own uncertainty and doubt

So I'll speak in whispers to permit my throat relief
I will speak softly to give my throat a rest

I bite my tongue
I hold back my true feelings

Fill my mouth with blood
Cause myself harm and swallow my pain

And swallow enough to kill me
Consume enough of my own suffering that it could lead to my own death

Before I'm forced to lose more sleep
Before I'm driven to the point of severe exhaustion and stress

I would love to love you
I would love to have loving feelings for you

If you were someone else
If you were not who you are now

Am I fit to walk alone again
Can I navigate life on my own without falling apart?

Or will you save me from myself?
Or do I need to rely on someone else to help me through my struggles?

Breathe life into me
Revive my spirit and give me hope

Be all that I can see
Be the only thing that matters

Or carry on without me
Or just keep living and moving forward without me

And just know I wished you well
And please understand that I hope for the best for you, even if I'm not there to see it