With the release of the seminal Telemetry of a Fallen Angel (existing in a few incarnations prior to Dancing Ferret Discs' version in 1997), The Crüxshadows enjoyed their first defining moment courtesy of the infinitely catchy dance floor anthem "Marilyn My Bitterness." With additional strong releases including The Mystery of the Whisper (1999), Until the Voices Fade (1999) and Paradox Addendum (2000) backed by lengthy tours, The Crüxshadows were able to build a legion of diversified fans consisting of everything from jarheads to gamers to anime & role playing enthusiasts.
While the lineup has indeed changed over the years, one constant has remained the same; Rogue, the vocalist, leader and mastermind of The Crüxshadows has directed his troupe towards an unconventional and lofty goal. "I want to change the world with music, I want people to find hope within themselves. I want them to know that anything is possible if you believe and follow through. I think that music has the power to inspire and move people to do amazing things" he muses. He is not alone in his belief. Their fans seem to believe it too. The bands motto "live love be believe" is everywhere, and many of their supporters will tell you that the lyrics have changed their lives in some way. This isn't exactly typical for a band most often identified as gothic or dark-wave. The Crüxshadows are not concerned. "Goth isn't about being a stereotype" the front-man complains, "its about being who you want to be... about not running from yourself or your emotions." The charismatic singer/songwriter/producer understands an audience and tends to deliver his dramatic croon right in their laps. Nothing they do is exactly new, but how they do it is completely unique. The lyrics are deep and meaningful, the stage show is dynamic and entertaining, and the music is hooky and inspired by pop. But pop it is not. It is a hybrid music that exists in a place just left of everyday, and just right of never-ever.
The band has maintained a surprising consistency despite the personnel turnovers that have plagued it in recent years. Jessica Lackey, a singer/dancer who married Rogue in 2007, and keyboardist Jen Jawidzik, who was once Rogue and Jessica's roommate, have stuck with it for the better part of the last decade. "When we have to find someone new, I feel like sometimes they don't understand all the hard work that was necessary for us to get to that point" Jessica states flatly, "It is not difficult to under-appreciate everything the band has accomplished, so people move on because they have not invested the same energy into the project." While the shows and the music continues to get better, that magically 'permanent' combination of personalities has continued to elude them. The band has had a difficult time keeping guitar players and dancers in particular, but has seen turnover in almost every position. These days Crüxshadows has Rogue backed by a mostly female band of new wave latex clad gypsies, and boasts an original mix of violins, dancers, guitars, and electronics. Tight and well-practiced, the seven performers interact on stage with clockwork like precision. The audience is captivated. Some of them scream. Some of them sing along. A few others stare at the stage dumbfounded.
Although The Crüxshadows maintain a strong fan base in their native United States, their most perceptible success seems to be focused in Europe. It is not uncommon for the band to share stages with the likes of Ladytron, Prodigy, The Cure, or even Bjork. The 2002 Tears EP topped the Deutsche Alternative Charts for months, a practice that has continued with all subsequent releases soaring to the DAC's Top 10. "I don't think we're actually more popular there (In Europe)" says Rogue, "It just seems like there is more access to our fans. What we do has more acceptance by the powers that be. In America it feels like all of our victories are covered up or are unacknowledged by the media." 2002 also saw the release of their fifth full-length album Wishfire; a fan favorite that featured the Euro hit "Tears" and a number of other dark dance mainstays. Similarly the follow-up album Ethernaut (released in 2003) brought the band what has become one of its most notable tracks, the European club anthem entitled "Winterborn (This Sacrifice)."
Remixes and special versions of songs have kept there fans satiated when no new traditional album lay on the horizon. In 2004 Fortress In Flames was released featuring a cover by the popular American artist Chad Michael Ward. There The Crüxshadows' material was remixed by peers like the Dutch legends Clan of Xymox and German industrial giants In Strict Confidence. Each year has seen some new disc from the band, and they come in a variety of formats. The year 2005 witnessed the release of their first DVD Shadowbox. The DVD is highlighted by a 2004 performance before a rabid crowd of 15,000 at the Wave-Gotik-Treffen in Leipzig Germany, where the ‘call and response' raw energy the band delves out is served right back by an adoring audience.
In 2006 the band would seem to breakaway from their underground moniker. The addictive single "Sophia" impressively debuted on the Billboard Hot Dance Singles Sales Charts in September at position #1, replacing Beyoncé in the top spot while landing #7 on the Hot 100 Singles Sales Chart. "We couldn't believe it, doors began to open. It was as if we couldn't be ignored anymore, after a decade and a half we seemed to be getting some respect. The local news in Florida even put us on the nightly news to get our take on the whole thing", the frontman recalls. The following year was pivotal for The Crüxshadows; in May the band successfully toured China performing at the Midi Open-Air Festival in Beijing, in the presence of many thousands of new fans. Later that year the band released the highly anticipated Dreamcypher album that contained yet another Billboard #1 Dance Single with the song "Birthday." This time the band climbed into the #2 spot on the Hot 100 Singles Sales Chart. With Dreamcypher, The Crüxshadows melded their fondness for 1980s Synth Pop/New Romantic sounds with modern Euro dance nuances into perfection. Dreamcypher joins the aforementioned shimmering "Sophia" and "Birthday" with the guitar fronted "Defender" and the majestic sounding "Eye of the Storm." The infectious disc would become The Crüxshadows' best selling album to date both in the United States and abroad.
The following year witnessed another single marching up the Billboard charts. "Immortal" continued the bands musical string of hits, despite the loss of violinist Rachel McDonnell. David Wood and JoHanna Moresco stepped in as an electric violining duo who not only safe-guarded the signature instrument of the band, but expanded it by way of rich layering and counterpoint melodies impossible in previous years. 2008 also saw the band's label Dancing Ferret Discs, withdraw from actively releasing new material. This left the band to deal with a large number of new and unforeseen issues, and delayed their plans to release a new full length album.
While The Crüxshadows spent most of 2009 touring in Europe, the band still managed to release yet another successful Billboard charting single in America. "Quicksilver" debuted just in time for their annual appearance at Atlanta's famed Dragon*Con Convention before an impressive capacity crowd of several thousand of their most loyal fans. "I think the new single, and really the most recent releases in general, are our most polished and well written work" says Rogue, "but there are still those in the scene, and in the business in general, that just think the whole thing is just dumb luck." The single was the first release from Wishfire Records, a new label founded by the band, and eventually reached #1 on The Billboard Hot Dance Singles Sales Charts and #2 on The Billboard Hot 100 Singles Sales Charts. Seemingly too pop for many critics and too underground for the industry, the band has apparently found the perfect balance for the people who matter the most to them; their fans.
The Crüxshadows have played by their own rules, and who is to say in a world of declining sales and illegal internet downloads that they haven't gotten the balance right. Time will tell. For now, The Crüxshadows continue to defy as well as define the odds, and their dark yet positive machine continues to roll.
I Shot Tomorrow
The Crüxshadows Lyrics
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Usually I get real pissed off and wonder if anyone's really listening to me...
Bring em back on the dead feathers
We once left for the falling birds
Bring them back all of the others
Someone fed them some holy words
I stand rigid and stony
Tight out spell me the money
That leaves out of your lies
Someone took a gun
Now I shot tomorrow
Someone took a fall
I think I killed tomorrow
Someone took a gun
Now I shot tomorrow
Someone took a fall
I think I killed tomorrow
Throw them back on the dead corpses
We once held close in our arms
Throw them back, back where they started
We danced naked for the stars
I stand rigid and stony
And the hand that holds the sky
Right out spare me some money
That leaves out of these lies
Someone took a gun
Now I shot tomorrow
Someone took a fall
I think I killed tomorrow
Someone took a gun
Now I shot tomorrow
Someone took a fall
I think I killed tomorrow
The Crüxshadows's song I Shot Tomorrow is a powerful, lyrical representation of the pain, suffering and despair that can result from the loss of hope for a brighter future. The lyrics call for a return to a time when people cared for each other, but now the world has turned deaf, blind and mute to the pleas for change. The lines, "Bring em back on the dead feathers, We once left for the falling birds, Bring them back all of the others, Someone fed them some holy words" describe a time when there was hope for a better tomorrow. However, that hope has been shattered and people are left alone to face their own struggles.
The singer in the song seems to be stuck in a state of anger and despair. They stand "rigid and stony" at the hand that holds the sky, indicating that they feel helpless in their fight for a better future. They request to be spared some money that is leaving out of lies. This indicates a frustration with the greed and corruption that has made it difficult for people to achieve their dreams. The chorus repeats the words, "Someone took a gun, Now I shot tomorrow, Someone took a fall, I think I killed tomorrow." The lyrics suggest that the singer has given up on the hope of a better tomorrow, and has resorted to violence as a means of expressing their pain and anger about the inability of the world to change.
Line by Line Meaning
Bring em back on the dead feathers
Retrieve those who have been forgotten, neglected, or dismissed
We once left for the falling birds
Those same people were once supported, but were abandoned when they fell
Bring them back all of the others
Everyone deserves to be brought back, not just a select few
Someone fed them some holy words
Someone manipulated their beliefs and emotions with false promises of salvation or worthiness
I stand rigid and stony
I am firm and unwavering in my stance and resistance
At the hand that holds the sky
At those who hold power and control over society and the future
Tight out spell me the money
Reveal the truth about the financial motivations behind certain actions or decisions
That leaves out of your lies
That is not a part of the deception and manipulation being used
Throw them back on the dead corpses
Abandon those who have already been deemed dead or unimportant
We once held close in our arms
Those same people were once loved or valued, but were discarded in the end
Throw them back, back where they started
Return them to their previous state of despair or hopelessness
We danced naked for the stars
We once lived freely and passionately, uninhibited by societal norms or expectations
Someone took a gun, Now I shot tomorrow
Someone made a destructive or deadly decision that has negative consequences for the future
Someone took a fall, I think I killed tomorrow
Someone has been harmed or made to suffer as a result of someone else's actions, and the singer feels responsible
Contributed by Aaron W. Suggest a correction in the comments below.