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The Cruxshadous Lyrics

Reaching out in deadened night,
In the darkness, I feel lost and alone, and I am searching for a way out.

emptiness by candlelight,
Even with light, I still feel empty and alone.

Memory a haunted sea,
My past feels like a stormy and haunting ocean, full of painful memories.

souring in sudden rage,
My emotions are turning bitter and angry, and I don't know how to deal with them.

The Damage plagued upon my love,
My love has been hurt and damaged.

driven by this selfish urge,
I am acting out of selfishness and not considering the feelings of the person I love.

to separate yourself from me,
I am trying to separate myself from the person I love, even though it hurts them.

But not the way you planned,
Things are not going as planned, and everything is falling apart.

The gambit flow of shifting thought,
My thoughts and emotions are constantly changing and shifting, making it hard to know what to do.

shall ride a kiss upon my cross,
Despite the pain and struggles, I will keep going and fighting for my love.

and with each moment of despair,
In every moment of sadness and hopelessness, I will try to find a way forward.

lay to heart a lovely tear.
In spite of everything, I will hold on to hope and love.

Within each bulb the salty sea,
Even within the smallest things, there is still pain and sadness.

swims an ocean silently,
The pain and sadness are hidden beneath the surface, but always there.

swims the forest of my dreams,
My hopes and dreams are still there, but they are hard to see through the sadness.

swims the essence of my being (...I call me)
Even within my own self, there is pain and sadness, but it is still a part of who I am.

Come ringing back now,
I am remembering things from the past.

(can't explain),
But I can't fully understand or articulate what I am feeling.

The measures swept away in pain,
The good things and measures of my love have been destroyed by the pain and struggles.

hatred will I escape your grasp,
I am trying to escape the hold of the negativity and hatred in my life.

buried feelings let me pass.
I am trying to move past and bury my feelings, but it is hard.

I cannot kill this final flame,
Despite everything, I still have a small flame of hope and love that I can't bring myself to extinguish.

the fire that once consumed my heart,
The love I once felt was all-consuming, but now it is just a small flame.

for hope must have some kind of fuel,
My hope and love need to be fueled by something.

and chance must keep this fire.
I need to take chances and keep my hope and love alive.

[Spoken] reduced to ashes, We run colder on the outside. A Spartan hope that dwindles near the source of this contempt. What has my hopeful certainty for the future returned upon my desperation and difficult memory, besides wasted moments, whose questions are not resolved? Simple things went un-addressed until such time as they could only pass away. Losing you shall (forever mark my breast. Injury knows no justice.)
Despite my hope and love, I am left feeling cold and dead inside due to the struggles and pain in my life. My hope and certainty for the future have been overshadowed by desperation and difficult memories. Despite everything, I still have many unanswered questions and regrets. The simple things I overlooked are now gone forever, and losing you will leave a permanent mark on my heart. There is no justice in the pain and sadness I feel.

Swimming out with tears in my eyes
I am trying to move forward, even though I am crying and in pain.

looking for the shore,
I am searching for a safe and peaceful place.

I hope that this is the last time...
I hope that this is the last time I have to deal with the pain and sadness.