Bathtub
The Front Bottoms Lyrics


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I am washing my hair with soap
I am sitting down in the shower
It is this dirty type of clean
That keeps me trapped in here for hours

Still I scrub and scrub until my body bleeds
Convince myself I am coming clean
Forget and ignore who I used to be
That kid is never coming back

Relax my muscles
And all of a sudden I am scared
All of a sudden I can't breathe
All of a sudden I am nothing
In this moment
You are everything

She says can you feel that?
Oh, what a marvelous sensation
She says could you please take me off speaker phone
This is a private conversation

And I am washing my hair with soap
Yes I am washing my hair with soap
Yes I am washing my hair with soap
Yes I am washing my hair with soap, with soap

But there is air inside of my lungs
And it is keeping me afloat
He says his grandpa's in the mafia
He is the nicest guy I know

So I will run and run
Maybe drive my car
Baby, look at me now, I have come so far
And I don't know where my family's from
But I've got this stereotypical temper
I cannot shake

Relax the muscles in my face
And all of a sudden I am scared
All of a sudden I can't breathe
All of a sudden I am nothing
In this moment
You are everything

She says can you feel that?
Oh, what a marvelous sensation
She says could you please take me off speaker phone
This is a private conversation

And I am washing my hair with soap
Yes I am washing my hair with soap




Yes I am washing my hair with soap
Yes I am washing my hair with soap, with soap

Overall Meaning

The song "Bathtub" by The Front Bottoms seems to be about a person who is struggling to come to terms with their past and who they have become. They find solace in washing their hair with soap as it seems to allow them to forget about their problems for a while. However, they also mention that this type of cleanliness is temporary and ultimately not enough to wash away their past. The chorus is a conversation with someone on the phone, interrupting this moment of escape and forcing the person to confront the reality they are trying to escape from.


The second verse introduces a new character who is bragging about their grandfather's connection to the mafia. This seems like a moment of absurdity, but may also be a reflection on how people try to create a sense of identity and importance from their family histories. The last chorus seems to be a climax of the song, with the person realizing that they cannot run away from their problems forever and that they need to confront them in order to move on.


Line by Line Meaning

I am washing my hair with soap
I am struggling to come clean both physically and metaphorically


I am sitting down in the shower
I am stuck in a cyclical pattern of self-doubt and self-loathing


It is this dirty type of clean
I may appear presentable, but there are underlying issues beneath the surface


That keeps me trapped in here for hours
I can't seem to break free from my negative patterns of behavior


Still I scrub and scrub until my body bleeds
I relentlessly try to cleanse myself of my faults and past mistakes, even when it harms me


Convince myself I am coming clean
I try to convince myself that I am making progress, even if it's not true


Forget and ignore who I used to be
I try to forget my past and the things that led me to where I am now


That kid is never coming back
I feel like I have lost a part of myself that I can never get back


Relax my muscles
I try to relax and let go of my anxieties, but it only makes them worse


And all of a sudden I am scared
My attempts at relaxation often lead to intense fear and panic


All of a sudden I can't breathe
I feel suffocated by my anxieties and my past


All of a sudden I am nothing
I feel like I am worthless and insignificant


In this moment
Right now, in the midst of all this anxiety and fear


You are everything
You are the one thing that is keeping me grounded and sane


She says can you feel that?
Someone else, possibly a therapist or loved one, is trying to guide me through this moment


Oh, what a marvelous sensation
Despite my fear and anxiety, there is still some beauty and joy to be found


She says could you please take me off speaker phone
Even though I am receiving help, I am hesitant to fully let people in


This is a private conversation
I want to keep some things private, even if it's to my own detriment


But there is air inside of my lungs
Despite everything, I am alive and breathing


And it is keeping me afloat
My ability to keep going is what's keeping me alive


He says his grandpa's in the mafia
Even in the midst of my struggles, there are moments of levity and humor


He is the nicest guy I know
Despite his potentially shady past, this person is still kind and good-hearted


So I will run and run
I may not have all the answers or know where I'm going, but I'll keep moving forward


Maybe drive my car
I'll find ways to escape and distract myself, even if it's just for a little while


Baby, look at me now, I have come so far
Despite my struggles, I have made progress and grown as a person


And I don't know where my family's from
I may not have all the answers about my past and my family history


But I've got this stereotypical temper
I have some traits and tendencies that I can't seem to shake, despite my best efforts


I cannot shake
Even when I try to work on myself and change, some things stay the same


Relax the muscles in my face
I try to let go of my stress and worry in any way I can


And all of a sudden I am scared
Unfortunately, this often only leads to more fear and anxiety


All of a sudden I can't breathe
I feel like my anxiety is suffocating me


All of a sudden I am nothing
Despite my struggles, I feel overwhelmed and insignificant


In this moment
Right now, in the midst of all this anxiety and fear


You are everything
You are the one thing that is keeping me grounded and sane


She says can you feel that?
Someone else, possibly a therapist or loved one, is trying to guide me through this moment


Oh, what a marvelous sensation
Despite my fear and anxiety, there is still some beauty and joy to be found


She says could you please take me off speaker phone
Even though I am receiving help, I am hesitant to fully let people in


This is a private conversation
I want to keep some things private, even if it's to my own detriment


And I am washing my hair with soap
Despite everything, I am still trying to take care of myself physically


Yes I am washing my hair with soap
I may be struggling mentally, but I am still trying to maintain some semblance of normalcy


Yes I am washing my hair with soap
Even when everything else feels out of control, I can still control this small aspect of my life


Yes I am washing my hair with soap, with soap
No matter how many times I repeat this small task, it never feels like enough




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