First Time
The Mark Of Cain Lyrics


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For the first time in my life it seems
Well I've withdrawn from the perfect image
And when I did, when I was done
I didn't even want to know her name

I get it up
I get it down
And I can see
What's right for me

I'm pretty tight, pretty tight
I'm pretty tight, pretty tight
I'm pretty tight alright

Hit it

For the first time
Well for the first time
For the first time

Rumour had it she left me

I wasn't right
I wasn't wrong
Too far from weak
Too far from strong
And she go in when I go out
And I'd go out when she go in
And I can see, and I can see
That I can do without, I can do without
That I can do without

That I can do without
That I can do without
That I can do without
That I can do without

Do without
Do without

I was acting strangely
As I hit the curb
Trying to reach out
Inwardly disturbed
Crazy enough to reach in
Try kill what was inside
Without killing me
Only too late
I realised, I realised
You can kill it

For the first time
Well for the first time
For the first time





First time

Overall Meaning

The Mark Of Cain’s song “First Time” tells a story of someone who has withdrawn from the perfect image they’ve always projected and has experienced some kind of upheaval in their relationship with their partner. The song starts with the singer mentioning that he has withdrawn from the perfect image that he has built for himself and as he has done so, he realizes that he doesn’t even want to know her name. The singer then sings about how he can get himself up and down and that he can see what’s right for him. He’s tight enough not to falter and hits everything right on the right notes.


The second verse talks about the turmoil that he goes through in his relationship. He mentions that there was a rumor that she left him, but he’s not anyone to blame. He wasn't right nor wrong, couldn't have been weaker, couldn't have been stronger. There is also a very interesting back and forth throughout the song as to who goes out and who comes in. The singer ends the verse saying that he can do without her, he can do without whatsoever is making him feel this way.


The chorus serves as a reminder that this is the first time the singer is going through all these changes. The singer was acting crazy enough to almost kill what's inside of him but eventually realizes that he cannot do that without killing himself. The song ends with a realization that he can kill it, he no longer needs it, and he can do without it.


Line by Line Meaning

For the first time in my life it seems
It feels like the first time in my life that I've withdrawn from the perfect image.


Well I've withdrawn from the perfect image
I have stopped trying to live up to an idealized image of myself.


And when I did, when I was done
After I stopped trying to be perfect,


I didn't even want to know her name
I didn't care about the woman I was with enough to know her name.


I get it up
I am successful at what I do.


I get it down
I am capable of handling difficult situations.


And I can see
I understand.


What's right for me
What I need to do that is best for myself.


I'm pretty tight, pretty tight
I am skilled at what I do.


I'm pretty tight, pretty tight
I am confident in my abilities.


I'm pretty tight alright
I am very skilled and confident.


Hit it
Let's get started.


Rumour had it she left me
I heard a rumour that the woman I was with had left me.


I wasn't right
I wasn't behaving correctly or rationally.


I wasn't wrong
I wasn't doing anything bad or harmful either.


Too far from weak
I wasn't being passive or submissive.


Too far from strong
I wasn't being assertive or dominant either.


And she go in when I go out
She wants to be close to me when I am distant.


And I'd go out when she go in
I want to be away from her when she wants to be close.


That I can do without, I can do without
I no longer want or need her in my life.


Do without
I can manage without her.


I was acting strangely
I was not behaving in a normal or healthy way.


As I hit the curb
I crashed my car into the curb.


Trying to reach out
I was attempting to connect with something or someone.


Inwardly disturbed
I was upset or confused about something within myself.


Crazy enough to reach in
I was willing to take extreme measures to try and fix myself.


Try kill what was inside
I was trying to eliminate something within myself.


Without killing me
Without causing harm to myself.


Only too late
I realized much later.


I realised, I realised
I finally understood.


You can kill it
It is possible to eliminate the problem within oneself.


First time
This is the first time that I have realized this.




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