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The Naked Famous Lyrics

I don't remember the first time
The singer does not recall the first instance this fear-inducing thought emerged

But I think I survive
The singer implies that they've managed to survive the recurrent fear-inducing thoughts over time

Probably better not to try to recall
The fear-inducing thought's persistence makes it better for the singer not to recall in detail

'Cause it feeds it, yeah, it keeps it alive
Recalling in detail feeds and possibly intensifies the fear-inducing thought

There're specific things
There are certain things

Tthat I have to do
The singer has to take specific actions

Day to day just to keep it at bay
These actions are done daily to keep the fear-inducing thought at bay

You wouldn't believe if you knew
The actions needed to keep the fear-inducing thought at bay are peculiar and hard to believe if mentioned

(Oh no, this isn't real)
The singer dismisses the fear-inducing thought with the phrase

Here's a little secret
The singer discloses a secret

Here's the best part
The singer sets up listeners for the good part

This is gonna take me
This thought or action is taking over the singer

Right back to the start
The thought or action takes the singer back to square one

If I can't hear it
If the fear-inducing thought is not audible

If it's out of mind
If the fear-inducing thought is not at the singer's conscious thought level

Wait until it settles
Wait for the fear-inducing thought to settle down

Comes 'round a second time
The singer expects a future recurrence of the fear-inducing thought

I can feel it loom
The singer senses the fear-inducing thought coming

Up into my head
The thought is beginning to occupy the singer's headspace

It is in the room
The fear-inducing thought feels like it is all over the room

Panicking in bed
The singer is anxious while lying down in bed

I feel it coming on
The singer senses the thought's escalation

Taking over view
The singer's attention is being hijacked by the fear-inducing thoughts

Oh, please, not tonight
The singer pleads with the thought not to resurface at this moment

There's nothing I can do
The singer feels helpless and unable to control the thought

This is bigger than me
The singer acknowledges that the thought's magnitude is beyond their control

This is in my fear
The singer admits that the fear is internal

This is pitiful, yeah
The singer describes the situation as pitiful and sad

I just disappear
The singer's might retreat psychologically during these thoughts

Swells up all around me
The thought's magnitude feels overwhelming

Swallowed up inside
The thought drowns the singer internally

Sell me senses if it
The singer would sell their senses

Would make this subside
If there was an escape from the thought, the singer could trade their senses

I can barely handle
The singer can only handle the situation with difficulty

I can pass the time
The singer can only manage time till the thought fades away

Staring through the curtains
The singer gazes past the curtains

Up into the sky
The singer looks up to the sky

Where there is no
Where there is no feeling or thought all around

Depth perception
Depth perception is non-existent

Keep preoccupied
The singer keeps themselves preoccupied as a coping mechanism

Self-deception
The singer boasts of self-deceiving tactics

Nobody recognizes
People don't quite understand

It doesn't have a name
The fear-inducing thought is an unnamed issue

My brother is infected
The singer suggests that the fear-inducing thought is present in their brother too

He's acting just the same
The brother's behavior in response to the thought is identical to the singer's

Screaming like a siren
The brother loudly expresses their reaction to the thought

Up and down the hall
The brother wanders up and down screaming in the house

He just wants to stop it
The brother just wants the thought to go away

He wants to end it all
The brother might desire an end to the situation

I am just a child
The singer is young and possibly lacks life experience

I am nothing more
The singer feels insignificant

Than the basic functions
The singer operates on basic levels of interaction

I am running from
The singer is trying to avoid

I curl up and wallow
The singer curls up and passively remains unhappy

My distortion
The singer's internal transform during these moments

Everything is
All around the singer

Disproportioned
The situation feels like too much to bear

Suddenly I wake
The singer wakes suddenly

All is back again
Things start to feel normal to the singer again

Everything is closer
The surroundings feel closer than before

More or less the same
The situation is relatively the same as before

And I can't hear it
The fear-inducing thought is not audible to the singer

It's way out of mind
The fear-inducing thought is not at the singer's conscious thought level

I will just forget this
The singer resolves to forget the situation

'Til the next time
Till the fear-inducing thought hits the singer again