not in kansas
The National Lyrics


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I am not in Kansas
I can't slow down and I can't stand it
Broadcast News into Hallelujah
Hanne Darboven had a great idea
Make a list, write it down
Shave your head, draw a crown
Move back home with mom and dad
The pool is drained and they are not there
My bedroom is a stranger's gunroom
Ohio's in a downward spiral
I can't go back there anymore
Since alt-right opium went viral

I am not in Kansas
Where I am, I don't know where
Take me for a walk and blame this
On the water dripping off the spear

You even get to wear a dress
And feed his flesh to wayward daughters
Everyone is so impressed
Teachers, neighbors, mothers, fathers
First Testament was really great
The sequel was incredible
Like the Godfathers or the first two Strokes
Every document's indelible
Infidels and Heartbreak Beats
Smidges of bad ecstasy
I must have left it in my pocket
With my Christianity in my rocket
I'm binging hard on Annette Bening
I'm listening to R.E.M. again
"Begin The Begin", over and over
"Begin The Begin", over and over

I am not in Kansas
Where I am, I don't know where
Take me for a walk and blame this
On the water dripping off the spear

If the sadness of life makes you tired
And the failures of man make you sigh
You can look to the time soon arriving
When this noble experiment winds down and calls it a day

My shadow's getting shorter
I'm a child at the border
Oh, godmother you can't ignore us
There isn't anybody else left to love us
I wanted you when I was a child
I raked the leaves and I started fires
Now I'm reading whatever you give me
It's half your fault so half-forgive me
I'm way behind in reflex math
Biphasic sleepless emotional crashes
Two days into one, shove 'em together
I always wake up way before the weather
My mother needs an army
But I'm leaving home and I'm scared that I won't
Have the balls to punch a Nazi
Father, what is wrong with me?

I am not in Kansas
Where I am, I don't know where
Take me for a walk and blame this
On the water dripping off the spear

Oil droppers, rubber gloves
I raked the leaves, I lit 'em up
I read whatever it is you give me
It's half your fault so half-forgive me
At the real Neil Armstrong taught me
To play cutthroat at my Aunt Angela's house
While my real dad's skate got caught in the ice
And he drove us home with a spiral fracture
It was then I was enlightened
Roberta Flack the whole way home
I was entirely unfrightened
Dozing off and eternally unalone
The flowers cover over everything
They cover over everything
The flowers cover over everything

I am not in Kansas
Where I am, I don't know where
Take me for a walk and blame this
On the water dripping off the spear

Time has come now to stop being human
Time to find a new creature to be
Be a fish or a weed or a sparrow
For the Earth has grown tired and all of your time has expired
Oh, the gardens are sprouting with flowers
All the tree-tops are bursting with birds




And the people all know that it's over
They lay down their airs and they hang up their tiresome words

Overall Meaning

The National's "Not In Kansas" is a song about the disorienting experience of feeling lost and disconnected. The lyrics are a stream of consciousness meditation on life's uncertainties, and the feeling of being overwhelmed by the chaos in the world. The opening lines of the song set the tone for the rest of it: "I am not in Kansas, I can't slow down and I can't stand it". The reference to "Kansas" alludes to the classic movie, The Wizard of Oz, in which Dorothy must navigate a new and strange world in order to find her way home. Here, the line suggests that the singer feels like they have been transported to a place where they no longer belong and they are struggling to come to terms with it.


The song then goes on to reference a number of different ideas and images, including Hanne Darboven's art, alt-right opium, and Annette Bening. These references seem to represent a sense of cultural fragmentation and confusion, as though the singer is struggling to make sense of everything that is happening around them. The line "My bedroom is a stranger's gunroom" is especially poignant, as it suggests a sense of danger and uncertainty even in one's own private space.


Overall, "Not In Kansas" is a powerful and haunting commentary on the disorientation and confusion of contemporary life. The song's lyrics capture a sense of anxiety and unease that is all too familiar for many people in today's world.


Line by Line Meaning

I am not in Kansas
I am not in a familiar or safe environment


I can't slow down and I can't stand it
I am struggling to cope with the pace and chaos of my life


Broadcast News into Hallelujah
There is a strange mix of positivity and despair in the media


Hanne Darboven had a great idea
I appreciate the creative output of others


Make a list, write it down
I am attempting to organize my life


Shave your head, draw a crown
I am experimenting with my appearance and identity


Move back home with mom and dad
I am considering regressing to a simpler or more secure time in my life


The pool is drained and they are not there
My childhood and the familiar places of my past are no longer accessible


My bedroom is a stranger's gunroom
The places where I should feel most safe and myself are unfamiliar and possibly dangerous


Ohio's in a downward spiral
The place where I come from is experiencing difficulties and a decline in quality of life


I can't go back there anymore
I can no longer revisit my past life, whether by choice or circumstance


Since alt-right opium went viral
The rise of far-right ideologies on the internet has had a negative impact on society


Take me for a walk and blame this
I seek escape and relief from the difficulties of my life


On the water dripping off the spear
In the smallest things, there is beauty and solace to be found


You even get to wear a dress
I am seeking unconventional experiences or behaviors


And feed his flesh to wayward daughters
I am exposing myself to potentially dangerous or taboo activities


Everyone is so impressed
Others are impressed or affected by my actions, whether positively or negatively


Teachers, neighbors, mothers, fathers
My behavior has attracted attention from a range of people in my life


First Testament was really great
I appreciate religious texts and stories


The sequel was incredible
Continuations of stories or art have the potential to be even more impactful or meaningful


Like the Godfathers or the first two Strokes
I appreciate cultural artifacts and entertainment


Every document's indelible
Records and documents are important and lasting


Infidels and Heartbreak Beats
I am interested in dark or intense subjects and emotions


Smidges of bad ecstasy
There is a mix of pleasure and pain in my experiences


I must have left it in my pocket
I have lost something or forgotten something important


With my Christianity in my rocket
I carry my religious beliefs with me wherever I go


I'm binging hard on Annette Bening
I am immersing myself in a particular culture or interest


I'm listening to R.E.M. again
I am revisiting things from my past for comfort or nostalgia


"Begin The Begin", over and over
I find solace or meaning in repeating certain experiences or media


If the sadness of life makes you tired
Life's difficulties can be exhausting and demoralizing


And the failures of man make you sigh
The failures or shortcomings of people are disheartening


You can look to the time soon arriving
There is hope that things will improve or change


When this noble experiment winds down and calls it a day
Eventually, every effort or experiment comes to an end


My shadow's getting shorter
Time is moving on and my life is changing


I'm a child at the border
I am in a place or situation that makes me feel vulnerable or uncertain


Oh, godmother you can't ignore us
I am seeking help or guidance from a higher power or authority figure


There isn't anybody else left to love us
I feel alone or unloved in my current situation


I wanted you when I was a child
I have long-standing desires or needs that have not been met


I raked the leaves and I started fires
I have a history or past that is now inaccessible or changed


Now I'm reading whatever you give me
I am learning or receiving guidance from others


It's half your fault so half-forgive me
I am accepting partial responsibility for my actions or situation


I'm way behind in reflex math
I am struggling with certain aspects of my life or learning


Biphasic sleepless emotional crashes
My emotional state is tumultuous and draining


Two days into one, shove 'em together
I am attempting to fit more into my limited time or resources


I always wake up way before the weather
I have a sense of restlessness or unease in my life


My mother needs an army
My family or loved ones are dealing with difficult situations that require support or effort


But I'm leaving home and I'm scared that I won't
I am making a difficult transition or facing a daunting task


Have the balls to punch a Nazi
I am grappling with issues of morality and ethics


Father, what is wrong with me?
I am struggling with my identity and place in the world


Oil droppers, rubber gloves
I am exposed to dangerous or toxic environments or substances


I raked the leaves, I lit 'em up
I am taking care of or disposing of natural materials


At the real Neil Armstrong taught me
I have learned important lessons or experiences from unexpected sources


To play cutthroat at my Aunt Angela's house
I have learned games or strategies that are aggressive or competitive


While my real dad's skate got caught in the ice
I have experienced or witnessed accidents or difficult situations


And he drove us home with a spiral fracture
I have experienced or witnessed the aftermath of painful or traumatic events


It was then I was enlightened
Difficult or painful experiences can lead to personal growth or understanding


Roberta Flack the whole way home
Music or art can have a powerful impact on emotions and memories


I was entirely unfrightened
There are moments of fearlessness or calm in the midst of turmoil


Dozing off and eternally unalone
Despite my difficulties, I am not truly alone in the world


The flowers cover over everything
There is beauty and growth in the midst of decay or destruction


Time has come now to stop being human
Humanity is facing a crisis or reckoning


Time to find a new creature to be
There are alternate or new ways of experiencing life or consciousness


Be a fish or a weed or a sparrow
There is a spectrum of experiences and identities available to us


For the Earth has grown tired and all of your time has expired
Our collective impact on the planet is reaching a critical point


Oh, the gardens are sprouting with flowers
Even in the midst of turmoil, there is beauty and growth


All the tree-tops are bursting with birds
Nature continues to thrive and renew itself


And the people all know that it's over
There is a sense of finality or acceptance in the face of change or crisis


They lay down their airs and they hang up their tiresome words
People are shedding their pretenses and burdens in the face of hardship




Lyrics © BMG Rights Management
Written by: Aaron Dessner, Anne Eickelberg, Brian Hageman, Hugh Swarts, Jay Paget, Mark Davies, Matthew D. Berninger

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