Even If
The Old Dead Tree Lyrics


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I'm walking back home
In this cold night I'm walking alone
I've never gone this way before
Maybe I was wrong
When I Made this decision
I should have listened to your recommendations
The way I always did before
But everything have changed tonight
Tormented by spite
I don't know if I'm wrong or right
And now that I'm lost in these fields
Frightened by my own shadow
I regret what happened
How could you let me go?
You gathered so many stars in front of me
Our life seemed to be fine
As far as I can remember
Even if you blinded me
Even if you lied to me




Even if you betrayed me
Don't abandon me!

Overall Meaning

The Old Dead Tree's song Even If seems to be a narrative about a character who is walking back home in the cold night all alone. It appears that the character regrets the decision which led him to be in this situation, and s/he thinks that s/he should have listened to someone's recommendations because now everything has changed. The character is not sure about their actions tonight and wonders if s/he is wrong or right. While walking alone in the fields, the character is frightened by their own shadow and feels lost. The character regretful of what has happened, and amidst all of these things, s/he wonders why someone could let him/her go while they had gathered so many stars in front of her.


Through the lines, the character seems to be expressing their sense of loss, betrayal, and insecurity. They feel like they've been betrayed by someone they trusted and are unsure of what went wrong. The lyrics suggest that they held the person they are talking to in high regard, and despite being blinded lied, and betrayed, they beg not to be abandoned.


The overarching theme of the song seems to be about betrayal and holding on to the ones we love despite the hurt they inflict. It could be interpreted as a plea to hold on to true love and to not let go of it despite the hurt it may cause.


Line by Line Meaning

I'm walking back home
I'm returning to where I belong


In this cold night I'm walking alone
I'm isolated and exposed to the harshness of this night


I've never gone this way before
I have taken a new path that I am unfamiliar with


Maybe I was wrong
Perhaps my choices were misguided


When I made this decision
When I chose to walk alone


I should have listened to your recommendations
I should have heeded your advice


The way I always did before
The way I trusted you in the past


But everything have changed tonight
But everything has taken a turn for the worse tonight


Tormented by spite
Agonized by resentment and bitterness


I don't know if I'm wrong or right
I am unsure of the correctness of my actions


And now that I'm lost in these fields
And now that I am stranded in this unknown territory


Frightened by my own shadow
Terrified by my own doubts and insecurities


I regret what happened
I am remorseful for the events that have transpired


How could you let me go?
How could you allow me to walk into this mess alone?


You gathered so many stars in front of me
You showcased so many opportunities and possibilities for me


Our life seemed to be fine
Our life together appeared to be satisfactory


As far as I can remember
Based on my recollection


Even if you blinded me
Even if you obscured my vision and perspective


Even if you lied to me
Even if you were dishonest with me


Even if you betrayed me
Even if you were unfaithful and disloyal to me


Don't abandon me!
Do not forsake me in my time of need




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