Happiness In Self Destruction
The Plot in You Lyrics


Thirteen years old
Addicted to cigarettes
And both his parents were scared to
Death when he walked through the door
Baptized at twelve
Laughed it off and swore he pissed
In the water that had cleansed his soul

We′d been breaking into cars, taking steroes
And there he goes, down the alley way
Shit's not the same
I miss the days when violence and carelessness were no expense
But shit′s not the same

Your heart may beat, but you're not alive
And it makes me sick to see you all strung out
Desperate you take what you've been deprived
Happiness in self destruction

Your heart may beat, but you′re not alive
And it makes me sick to see you all strung out
Desperate you take what you′ve been deprived
Happiness in self destruction

And do you remember
The time when you took a hundred bucks
From your momma's purse and we were so excited?
But you came and got your older brother to buy us some beer
And it was so clear

I fucking hate myself for letting you
Get hooked on all the shit that you were on
I promise you, next time I′ll be strong
I cherish you, I remember every time you bailed me out
And its safe to say I won't be bailing now

Your heart may beat, but you′re not alive
And it makes me sick to see you all strung out
Desperate you take what you've been deprived
Happiness in self destruction

Your heart may beat, but you′re not alive
And it makes me sick to see you all strung out
Desperate you take what you've been deprived
Happiness in self destruction
(Happiness in self destruction)
(Happiness in self destruction)

Your heart may beat, but you're not alive
And it makes me sick to see you all strung out
Desperate you take what you′ve been deprived
Happiness in self destruction

Your heart may beat, but you′re not alive
And it makes me sick to see you all strung out
Desperate you take what you've been deprived
Happiness in self destruction

Your heart may beat, but you′re not alive
And it makes me sick to see you all strung out
Desperate you take what you've been deprived
Happiness in self destruction





Writer(s): Josh Lewis Childress, Landon Khale Tewers

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@mohamadshamdeen2467

13 years old, addicted to cigeretes
and both his parents were scared to death when he walked through the door
baptized at 12, laughed it off, and swore he pissed in the water that had cleansed his soul
we'd been breaking into cars, taking steroes, and there he goes, down the alley way
shit's not the same, i miss the days when violence and carelessness were no expense
but shits not the same
your heart may beat, but you're not alive
and it makes me sick to see you all strung out
desperate you take what you've been deprived
happiness in self destruction
your heart may beat, but you're not alive
and it makes me sick to see you all strung out
desperate you take what you've been deprived
happiness in self destruction
and do you remember
the time when you took 100 bucks from your momma's purse and we were so excited
but you came and got your older brother to buy us some beer
and it was so clear
i fucking hate myself for letting you get hooked on all the shit that you were on
i promise you, next time i'll be strong
i cherish you, i remember every time you bailed me out
and its safe to say i wont be bailing now
your heart may beat, but you're not alive
and it makes me sick to see you all strung out
desperate you take what you've been deprived
happiness in self destruction
your heart may beat, but you're not alive
and it makes me sick to see you all strung out
desperate you take what you've been deprived
happiness in self destruction
happiness in self destruction
happiness in self destruction
your heart may beat, but you're not alive
and it makes me sick to see you all strung out
desperate you take what you've been deprived
happiness in self destruction
your heart may beat, but you're not alive
and it makes me sick to see you all strung out
desperate you take what you've been deprived
happiness in self destruction
your heart may beat, but you're not alive
and it makes me sick to see you all strung out
desperate you take what you've been deprived
happiness in self destruction



@johngiles6849

@@robc5051 Kelsey was addicted to pain pills for several year's following an atv accident...she was thrown off the atv going about 65mph. Doctor prescribed her oxy for the pain and needless to say she got hooked. Doctor ended the prescription when he finally saw signs of dependency in her but she knew the right people and always got what she needed. Eventually she got hooked on vicodin as well.

At the final two and a half months of her life...heroin came into the picture. She used it on top of what she was already hooked on and it no longer became a question of "if" she dies, it was now a a question of "when" she was going to die. Because at the rate she was going we all knew she wasn't going to survive. Any attempts of an intervention or talks of rehab only angered her and she would push everyone away. I never wanted to see her angry so I just never brought up anything about rehab anymore along with everyone else.

May 30, 2020...the call I knew was going to come but hoped to god it never would. I got home from a 12 hour shift and checked my voice mail...it was from her mother. Her mother found her in the bathroom, she was cold to the touch and the needle was still in her arm...she was dead for a few hours. She died of an overdose from multiple drug's with heroin being the lethal drug.

She was only 24. Had I put my fear of angering her aside and kept trying to get her help...she might still be here. Instead I was a coward and just wanted her happy so I never bought up rehab and I should've. It might've cost our friendship but I know it would've been rekindled once she got clean and saw I was just trying to help. But I kept my mouth shut and she's dead.

I overdosed on fentanyl September 30, 2020...4 month's to the day she died. I was dead for 3 minutes, two full doses of narcan had to be used to bring me back...and that was almost not enough. They were 30 seconds from declaring me dead for good and I then came back.

Doctor said he's never seen someone take that much narcan and still be alive to tell about it...but I walked out of the hospital 5 hours later after observation.

I got clean in November of 2020...and been clean since then. But it's something Kelsey never got a chance to do and her death is on me because I didn't try hard enough to help her.

This song just hits home so much.



@dragonboness

Thirteen years old
Addicted to cigarettes
And both his parents were scared to
Death when he walked through the door
Baptized at twelve
Laughed it off and swore he pissed
In the water that had cleansed his soul

We'd been breaking into cars, taking steroes
And there he goes, down the alley way
Shit's not the same
I miss the days when violence and carelessness were no expense
But shit's not the same

Your heart may beat, but you're not alive
And it makes me sick to see you all strung out
Desperate you take what you've been deprived
Happiness in self destruction

Your heart may beat, but you're not alive
And it makes me sick to see you all strung out
Desperate you take what you've been deprived
Happiness in self destruction

And do you remember
The time when you took a hundred bucks
From your momma's purse and we were so excited?
But you came and got your older brother to buy us some beer
And it was so clear

I fucking hate myself for letting you
Get hooked on all the shit that you were on
I promise you, next time I'll be strong
I cherish you, I remember every time you bailed me out
And its safe to say I won't be bailing now

Your heart may beat, but you're not alive
And it makes me sick to see you all strung out
Desperate you take what you've been deprived
Happiness in self destruction

Your heart may beat, but you're not alive
And it makes me sick to see you all strung out
Desperate you take what you've been deprived
Happiness in self destruction
(Happiness in self destruction)
(Happiness in self destruction)

Your heart may beat, but you're not alive
And it makes me sick to see you all strung out
Desperate you take what you've been deprived
Happiness in self destruction

Your heart may beat, but you're not alive
And it makes me sick to see you all strung out
Desperate you take what you've been deprived
Happiness in self destruction

Your heart may beat, but you're not alive
And it makes me sick to see you all strung out
Desperate you take what you've been deprived
Happiness in self destruction



All comments from YouTube:

@MrBubblles

By far the most emotional track on the album, iv'e met Landon plenty of times and seems like a great guy. Pretty crazy that most of the songs are past experiences or experiences of his friends. Very talented and emotional writer considering everything in the album was written by him.

@Oh_its_Mike

Not often does an entire album leave me speechless the entire way through.  Wow.  Unbelievable.

@DeathOfSamuelEstates

I got the feels when he said "I fucking hate myself for letting you get hooked on all this shit that you were on, I promise you next time i'll be strong"

@MarcustheNARWHAL

got the chills at that line. amazing song.... amazing album.

@w0lfie870

Yup tears just came out of nowhere at that point

@TotSamiiShaman666

This album is great. Thank you, The Plot In You, for such greatness. And thank you, Fronz, for signing such talented guys.

@trifectaofchris

Lost a lot of classmates these past couple years to drugs so this shit really resonates deep. Life is short and breifly beautiful so try your hardest to enjoy it while you can. Never let the youth inside you die despite how fucked and cold the world gets. Thank you tpiy; for making music so tangible and relevant to the struggles of the heart.

@DatBoiDankMeme

Damn. I'm sorry to hear that man. That's proof that you are strong. Your still here after all that. Even though I don't know you, I'm glad your still here. Stay positive buddy

@patchyworky

I don't want this album to end god damnit

@lurtz8656

+C4ole I checked like 5 times throughout the album. I was so paranoid that it'd end. Then...it did and I was thrown into a spiraling depression! Thanks, Landon! :D

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