The Plot in You have released one EP and four studio albums. Their EP Wife Beater was released in 2010, followed by their debut studio album First Born in 2011, and second studio album Could You Watch Your Children Burn in 2013. On July 17, 2015, the band announced their signing with StaySick Recordings and Happiness in Self Destruction was released on October 16, 2015. On June 15, 2017, they parted ways with StaySick Recordings and signed to Fearless Records while also announced their fourth studio album Dispose, which was released on February 16, 2018. Their fifth studio album, Swan Song, was released on September 17, 2021.
The Plot In You continue to move forward on their fifth full-length album and second for Fearless
Records, Swan Song. The Ohio quartet— Landon Tewers [vocals], Josh Childress [guitar], Ethan Yoder
[bass], and Michael Cooper [drums]—stare down years of negativity, soured friendships,
disappointment, and mistakes and flush it all away in the wake of hammering distortion, towering
melodies, cinematic production, and unapologetically cathartic lyrics. Ascending to the apex of an eight-
year grind, the band reached critical mass on 2018’s DISPOSE. The standout “FEEL NOTHING” exploded
with 28 million US streams, while the project eclipsed 55 million US streams. Billboard raved, “DISPOSE
is the band’s most polished and cohesive work to date,” and Alternative Press noted, “DISPOSE makes it
clear that TPIY challenge both the listeners and themselves more and more with each release.” Grading
the album “9.0-out-of-10,” Rock Sound predicted it “should finally – and deservedly – make The Plot In
You a name that everyone knows.” They supported the record by hitting the road with Underoath, The
Amity Affliction, Like Moths To Flames, Sum 41, and more. After racking up over 100 million streams and
receiving praise from Billboard, Rock Sound, Alternative Press, and more, the group wave off darkness
with unassuming confidence and clarity on Swan Song ignited by the single “Face Me.”
Pillhead
The Plot in You Lyrics
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Thought I'd never die
Snort a bump and lose a night
Faking friends and losing my sanity
Stuck my fingers down her throat and held her hair back
Now I'm just another fuck you killed a 12 pack with
We're gods, we're kings, we're substance fiends
Who really cares who it hurts when we fill our needs
Guess that's what I get for living with my vices
You say you think you can help
So... just break me
Make me the way you want me
Break me until I owe you nothing
Don't get too close, I've been known to manipulate
I've got this drip in my throat that would devastate
God I'm afraid that my friends might hate me
Getting clean's like an insult lately
Would stop but I've got this craving
I'm stuck in here
So... just break me
Make me the way you want me
Break me until I owe you nothing
Bet it makes you sick to see me faded out
Sleeping in my own puke, aren't you proud?
You're all better off when I'm not around
I promise you
Can't eat, can't sleep, can't fuck, can't dream
It's a powdered trap and I can't get free
Maybe I'm just like them
And I'm just a fiend and I can't get clean
Break me
Make me the way you want me
Break me until I owe you nothing
Get clean you filth
It's like a ringing in my ears
They beg and they plead
Get clean
Get clean
Get clean you fiend, you fiend
Get clean
Get clean
Get clean you fiend, you fiend
I thought I was a god
Thought I'd never die
Snort a bump and lose a night
Faking friends and losing my sanity
Stuck my fingers down her throat and held her hair back
Now I'm just another fuck you killed a 12 pack with
We're gods, we're kings, we're substance fiends
Who really cares who it hurts when we fill our needs
We're gods, we're kings and I'm lifeless
Guess that's what I get for living with my vices
You say you think you can help
So... just break me
Make me the way you want me
Break me until I owe you nothing
The lyrics of The Plot In You's "Pillhead" are centered around addiction and the destructive consequences that it brings. The song explores the powerlessness that the singer feels as he is consumed by his addiction and tries to find a way out. The lyrics are especially poignant because they reveal the darkness and desperation that often accompanies addiction but are also open to the possibility of change and recovery.
The opening lines, "I thought I was a god / Thought I'd never die" show the false sense of invincibility that is often associated with addiction, leading the singer to feel like he is immune to the consequences of his actions. The lyrics "Stuck my fingers down her throat and held her hair back / Now I'm just another fuck you killed a 12 pack with" show how the singer's addiction has led to destructive behavior and alienated him from those around him. Despite this, he and his peers still view themselves as "gods, we're kings." The chorus of the song is a cry for help, as the singer begs to be broken and remade, to be freed from his addiction and the destruction it brings.
Overall, "Pillhead" is a powerful song that explores the dark side of addiction but also hints at the possibility of redemption and recovery.
Line by Line Meaning
I thought I was a god
I had a high sense of self-importance and believed I was invincible
Thought I'd never die
I was reckless and thought that my actions had no consequences
Snort a bump and lose a night
I indulged in drugs and alcohol to the point of losing my sense of time
Faking friends and losing my sanity
I pretended to be someone I wasn't and as a result, lost touch with reality
Stuck my fingers down her throat and held her hair back
I forced myself upon another person in a disgusting and abusive manner
Now I'm just another fuck you killed a 12 pack with
I am reduced to simply being a drinking buddy with no value beyond that
We're gods, we're kings, we're substance fiends
We have an exaggerated sense of our own power and are addicted to drugs and alcohol
Who really cares who it hurts when we fill our needs
We justify our harmful actions as necessary for our own pleasure
We're gods, we're kings and I'm lifeless
We see ourselves as powerful but our addiction has left us empty and emotionless
Guess that's what I get for living with my vices
I acknowledge that my addiction has led to my current state of hopelessness
You say you think you can help
Someone has offered to help me overcome my addiction
So... just break me
I am willing to be broken apart and rebuilt in a healthier image
Make me the way you want me
I am open to change and am putting trust in the person to mold me into a better version of myself
Break me until I owe you nothing
I am willing to go through the pain of change until I am no longer indebted to the person who helped me
Don't get too close, I've been known to manipulate
I warn others to keep their distance because I have a history of using people for my own needs
I've got this drip in my throat that would devastate
My addiction has caused serious physical damage to my body
God I'm afraid that my friends might hate me
I am afraid that my friends will reject me once they see the true extent of my addiction
Getting clean's like an insult lately
I am struggling to accept that I need to change my ways and take responsibility for my actions
Would stop but I've got this craving
I recognize that my addiction is harmful but I am unable to stop because of my strong desires
I'm stuck in here
I feel trapped by my addiction and unable to escape its hold
Bet it makes you sick to see me faded out
I acknowledge that my condition is upsetting and difficult to witness
Sleeping in my own puke, aren't you proud?
My lifestyle has deteriorated to the point of being pathetic and disgusting
You're all better off when I'm not around
I feel that others would be better off if I were no longer a burden on them
I promise you
I make a vow to those around me
Can't eat, can't sleep, can't fuck, can't dream
My addiction has infiltrated every aspect of my life, leaving me unable to find pleasure in anything
It's a powdered trap and I can't get free
My addiction has ensnared me and I am unable to escape its grasp
Maybe I'm just like them
I realize that I am not special and that my addiction is a common problem of many others
And I'm just a fiend and I can't get clean
I am addicted to drugs and unable to overcome my addiction
Get clean you filth
I give myself a harsh command to clean up my act
It's like a ringing in my ears
My addiction is a constant presence in my mind
They beg and they plead
Others have begged and pleaded with me to get help with my addiction
Get clean
I am urged to overcome my addiction
Get clean
I am urged to overcome my addiction
Get clean you fiend, you fiend
I am called out for being an addict and am urged to change my ways
Contributed by Colton W. Suggest a correction in the comments below.
Mohamad Shamdeen
I thought I was a god
Thought I'd never die
Snort a bump and lose a night
Faking friends and losing my sanity
Stuck my fingers down her throat and held her hair back
Now I'm just another fuck you killed a 12 pack with
We're gods, we're kings, we're substance fiends
Who really cares who it hurts when we fill our needs
We're gods, we're kings and I'm lifeless
Guess that's what I get for living with my vices
You say you think you can help
So... just break me
Make me the way you want me
Break me until I owe you nothing
Don't get too close, I've been known to manipulate
I've got this drip in my throat that would devastate
God I'm afraid that my friends might hate me
Getting clean's like an insult lately
We'd stop but I've got this craving
I'm stuck in here
So... just break me
Make me the way you want me
Break me until I owe you nothing
Bet it makes you sick to see me faded out
Sleeping in my own puke, aren't you proud?
You're all better off when I'm not around
I promise you
Can't eat, can't sleep, can't fuck, can't dream
It's a powdered trap and I can't get clean
Maybe I'm just like them
And I'm just a fiend and I can't get clean
So... just break me
Make me the way you want me
Break me until I owe you nothing
Get clean you filth
It's like a ringing in my ears
They beg and they plead
Get clean you fiend
I thought I was a god
Thought I'd never die
Snort a bump and lose a night
Faking friends and losing my sanity
Stuck my fingers down her throat and held her hair back
Now I'm just another fuck you killed a 12 pack with
We're gods, we're kings, we're substance fiends
Who really cares who it hurts when we fill our needs
We're gods, we're kings and I'm lifeless
Guess that's what I get for living with my vices
You say you think you can help
So... just break me
Make me the way you want me
Break me until I owe you nothing
King of Conquerors
I thought I was a god, thought I'd never die
Snort a bump and lose a night faking friends and losing my sanity
Stuck my fingers down her throat and held her hair back
Now I'm just another fuck you killed a twelve pack with
We're gods, we're kings, we're substance fiends
Who really cares who it hurts when we fill our needs
We're gods, we're kings and I'm lifeless
Guess that's what I get for living with my vices
You say you think you can help
So just break me
Make me the way you want me
Break me
Until I owe you nothing
Don't get too close, I've been known to manipulate
I've got this drip in my throat that would devastate
God I'm afraid that my friends might hate me
Getting clean's like an insult lately
We'd stop but I've got this craving
I'm stuck in here
So just break me
Make me the way you want me
Break me
Until I owe you nothing
Bet it makes you sick to see me faded out
Sleeping in my own puke, aren't you proud?
You're all better off when I'm not around
I promise you
Can't eat, can't sleep, can't fuck, can't dream
It's a powdered trap and I can't get free
Maybe I'm just like them
And I'm just a fiend and I can't get clean
Break me
Make me the way you want me
Break me
Until I owe you nothing
Get clean you filth
It's like a ringing in my ears
They beg and they plead
Get clean, get clean, get clean, you fiend, you fiend
Get clean, get clean, get clean, you fiend, you fiend
I thought I was a god, thought I'd never die
Snort a bump and lose a night faking friends and losing my sanity
Stuck my fingers down her throat and held her hair back
Now I'm just another fuck you killed a twelve pack with
We're gods, we're kings, we're substance fiends
Who really cares who it hurts when we fill our needs
We're gods, we're kings and I'm lifeless
Guess that's what I get for living with my vices
You say you think you can help
So just break me
Make me the way you want me
Break me
Until I owe you nothing
Next Generation Beats
Your welcome America
I thought I was a god, thought I'd never die
Snort a bump and lose a night faking friends and losing my sanity
Stuck my fingers down her throat and held her hair back
Now I'm just another fuck you killed a 12 pack with
We're gods, we're kings, we're substance fiends
Who really cares who it hurts when we fill our needs
We're gods, we're kings and I'm lifeless
Guess that's what I get for living with my vices
You say you think you can help
So just break me
Make me the way you want me
Break me
Until I owe you nothing
Don't get too close, I've been known to manipulate
I've got this drip in my throat that would devastate
God I'm afraid that my friends might hate me
Getting clean's like an insult lately
We'd stop but I've got this craving
I'm stuck in here
So just break me
Make me the way you want me
Break me
Until I owe you nothing
Bet it makes you sick to see me faded out
Sleeping in my own puke, aren't you proud?
You're all better off when I'm not around
I promise you
Can't eat, can't sleep, can't fuck, can't dream
It's a powdered trap and I can't get clean
Maybe I'm just like them
And I'm just a fiend and I can't get clean
Break me
Make me the way you want me
Break me
Until I owe you nothing
Get clean you filth
It's like a ringing in my ears
They beg and they plead
Get clean, get clean, get clean, you fiend, you fiend
Get clean, get clean, get clean, you fiend, you fiend
I thought I was a god, thought I'd never die
Snort a bump and lose a night faking friends and losing my sanity
Stuck my fingers down her throat and held her hair back
Now I'm just another fuck you killed a 12 pack with
We're gods, we're kings, we're substance fiends
Who really cares who it hurts when we fill our needs
We're gods, we're kings and I'm lifeless
Guess that's what I get for living with my vices
You say you think you can help
So just break me
Make me the way you want me
Break me
Until I owe you nothing
Agustín Alvia
+Agustín Alvia I thought I was a god
Thought I'd never die
Snort a bump and lose a night
Faking friends and losing my sanity
Stuck my fingers down her throat and held her hair back
Now I'm just another fuck you killed a 12 pack with
We're gods, we're kings, we're substance fiends
Who really cares who it hurts when we fill our needs
We're gods, we're kings and I'm lifeless
Guess that's what I get for living with my vices
You say you think you can help
So... just break me
Make me the way you want me
Break me until I owe you nothing
Don't get too close, I've been known to manipulate
I've got this drip in my throat that would devastate
God I'm afraid that my friends might hate me
Getting clean's like an insult lately
We'd stop but I've got this craving
I'm stuck in here
So... just break me
Make me the way you want me
Break me until I owe you nothing
Bet it makes you sick to see me faded out
Sleeping in my own puke, aren't you proud?
You're all better off when I'm not around
I promise you
Can't eat, can't sleep, can't fuck, can't dream
It's a powdered trap and I can't get clean
Maybe I'm just like them
And I'm just a fiend and I can't get clean
So... just break me
Make me the way you want me
Break me until I owe you nothing
Get clean you filth
It's like a ringing in my ears
They beg and they plead
Get clean you fiend
I thought I was a god
Thought I'd never die
Snort a bump and lose a night
Faking friends and losing my sanity
Stuck my fingers down her throat and held her hair back
Now I'm just another fuck you killed a 12 pack with
We're gods, we're kings, we're substance fiends
Who really cares who it hurts when we fill our needs
We're gods, we're kings and I'm lifeless
Guess that's what I get for living with my vices
You say you think you can help
So... just break me
Make me the way you want me
Break me until I owe you nothing
Caitie
Being an addict and hearing this album really fucks with me. If could ever summarizing the self hate or the guilt and shame it would be this album
Sgt Fumbles II
This album aged flawlessly.
nubz0rzyou
So good ! Wish they would have did another album with this sound
Mophead
This album is so raw omfg i cant stop listening, gives me chills everytime, fucking love them
Mohamad Shamdeen
I thought I was a god
Thought I'd never die
Snort a bump and lose a night
Faking friends and losing my sanity
Stuck my fingers down her throat and held her hair back
Now I'm just another fuck you killed a 12 pack with
We're gods, we're kings, we're substance fiends
Who really cares who it hurts when we fill our needs
We're gods, we're kings and I'm lifeless
Guess that's what I get for living with my vices
You say you think you can help
So... just break me
Make me the way you want me
Break me until I owe you nothing
Don't get too close, I've been known to manipulate
I've got this drip in my throat that would devastate
God I'm afraid that my friends might hate me
Getting clean's like an insult lately
We'd stop but I've got this craving
I'm stuck in here
So... just break me
Make me the way you want me
Break me until I owe you nothing
Bet it makes you sick to see me faded out
Sleeping in my own puke, aren't you proud?
You're all better off when I'm not around
I promise you
Can't eat, can't sleep, can't fuck, can't dream
It's a powdered trap and I can't get clean
Maybe I'm just like them
And I'm just a fiend and I can't get clean
So... just break me
Make me the way you want me
Break me until I owe you nothing
Get clean you filth
It's like a ringing in my ears
They beg and they plead
Get clean you fiend
I thought I was a god
Thought I'd never die
Snort a bump and lose a night
Faking friends and losing my sanity
Stuck my fingers down her throat and held her hair back
Now I'm just another fuck you killed a 12 pack with
We're gods, we're kings, we're substance fiends
Who really cares who it hurts when we fill our needs
We're gods, we're kings and I'm lifeless
Guess that's what I get for living with my vices
You say you think you can help
So... just break me
Make me the way you want me
Break me until I owe you nothing
Dwayne
This song is a fucking masterpiece. This whole album is a masterpiece. I get chills every time I hear this song, those pitched yells are on point.
Landon, never stop what you are doing because you are seriously talented.
Dwight Anthony
Vheissu fuckin right
Christian Hackl
@Vheissu1234 your name reminds me of the band Thrice with their album Vheissu, I love it it's a masterpiece! Is it a direct reference to it or just a coincidence?😆
Hellgurl x
I've been looking so hard for a band that had this type of horror/raw/creepy tune for soooo long.
Panda Bear
Motionless in white they r wat u r looking for