Pillhead
The Plot in You Lyrics


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I thought I was a god
Thought I'd never die
Snort a bump and lose a night
Faking friends and losing my sanity
Stuck my fingers down her throat and held her hair back
Now I'm just another fuck you killed a 12 pack with
We're gods, we're kings, we're substance fiends
Who really cares who it hurts when we fill our needs
We're gods, we're kings and I'm lifeless
Guess that's what I get for living with my vices
You say you think you can help

So... just break me
Make me the way you want me
Break me until I owe you nothing

Don't get too close, I've been known to manipulate
I've got this drip in my throat that would devastate
God I'm afraid that my friends might hate me
Getting clean's like an insult lately
Would stop but I've got this craving
I'm stuck in here

So... just break me
Make me the way you want me
Break me until I owe you nothing

Bet it makes you sick to see me faded out
Sleeping in my own puke, aren't you proud?
You're all better off when I'm not around
I promise you
Can't eat, can't sleep, can't fuck, can't dream
It's a powdered trap and I can't get free
Maybe I'm just like them
And I'm just a fiend and I can't get clean

Break me
Make me the way you want me
Break me until I owe you nothing

Get clean you filth
It's like a ringing in my ears
They beg and they plead
Get clean
Get clean
Get clean you fiend, you fiend
Get clean
Get clean
Get clean you fiend, you fiend

I thought I was a god
Thought I'd never die
Snort a bump and lose a night
Faking friends and losing my sanity
Stuck my fingers down her throat and held her hair back
Now I'm just another fuck you killed a 12 pack with
We're gods, we're kings, we're substance fiends
Who really cares who it hurts when we fill our needs
We're gods, we're kings and I'm lifeless
Guess that's what I get for living with my vices
You say you think you can help

So... just break me




Make me the way you want me
Break me until I owe you nothing

Overall Meaning

The lyrics of The Plot In You's "Pillhead" are centered around addiction and the destructive consequences that it brings. The song explores the powerlessness that the singer feels as he is consumed by his addiction and tries to find a way out. The lyrics are especially poignant because they reveal the darkness and desperation that often accompanies addiction but are also open to the possibility of change and recovery.


The opening lines, "I thought I was a god / Thought I'd never die" show the false sense of invincibility that is often associated with addiction, leading the singer to feel like he is immune to the consequences of his actions. The lyrics "Stuck my fingers down her throat and held her hair back / Now I'm just another fuck you killed a 12 pack with" show how the singer's addiction has led to destructive behavior and alienated him from those around him. Despite this, he and his peers still view themselves as "gods, we're kings." The chorus of the song is a cry for help, as the singer begs to be broken and remade, to be freed from his addiction and the destruction it brings.


Overall, "Pillhead" is a powerful song that explores the dark side of addiction but also hints at the possibility of redemption and recovery.


Line by Line Meaning

I thought I was a god
I had a high sense of self-importance and believed I was invincible


Thought I'd never die
I was reckless and thought that my actions had no consequences


Snort a bump and lose a night
I indulged in drugs and alcohol to the point of losing my sense of time


Faking friends and losing my sanity
I pretended to be someone I wasn't and as a result, lost touch with reality


Stuck my fingers down her throat and held her hair back
I forced myself upon another person in a disgusting and abusive manner


Now I'm just another fuck you killed a 12 pack with
I am reduced to simply being a drinking buddy with no value beyond that


We're gods, we're kings, we're substance fiends
We have an exaggerated sense of our own power and are addicted to drugs and alcohol


Who really cares who it hurts when we fill our needs
We justify our harmful actions as necessary for our own pleasure


We're gods, we're kings and I'm lifeless
We see ourselves as powerful but our addiction has left us empty and emotionless


Guess that's what I get for living with my vices
I acknowledge that my addiction has led to my current state of hopelessness


You say you think you can help
Someone has offered to help me overcome my addiction


So... just break me
I am willing to be broken apart and rebuilt in a healthier image


Make me the way you want me
I am open to change and am putting trust in the person to mold me into a better version of myself


Break me until I owe you nothing
I am willing to go through the pain of change until I am no longer indebted to the person who helped me


Don't get too close, I've been known to manipulate
I warn others to keep their distance because I have a history of using people for my own needs


I've got this drip in my throat that would devastate
My addiction has caused serious physical damage to my body


God I'm afraid that my friends might hate me
I am afraid that my friends will reject me once they see the true extent of my addiction


Getting clean's like an insult lately
I am struggling to accept that I need to change my ways and take responsibility for my actions


Would stop but I've got this craving
I recognize that my addiction is harmful but I am unable to stop because of my strong desires


I'm stuck in here
I feel trapped by my addiction and unable to escape its hold


Bet it makes you sick to see me faded out
I acknowledge that my condition is upsetting and difficult to witness


Sleeping in my own puke, aren't you proud?
My lifestyle has deteriorated to the point of being pathetic and disgusting


You're all better off when I'm not around
I feel that others would be better off if I were no longer a burden on them


I promise you
I make a vow to those around me


Can't eat, can't sleep, can't fuck, can't dream
My addiction has infiltrated every aspect of my life, leaving me unable to find pleasure in anything


It's a powdered trap and I can't get free
My addiction has ensnared me and I am unable to escape its grasp


Maybe I'm just like them
I realize that I am not special and that my addiction is a common problem of many others


And I'm just a fiend and I can't get clean
I am addicted to drugs and unable to overcome my addiction


Get clean you filth
I give myself a harsh command to clean up my act


It's like a ringing in my ears
My addiction is a constant presence in my mind


They beg and they plead
Others have begged and pleaded with me to get help with my addiction


Get clean
I am urged to overcome my addiction


Get clean
I am urged to overcome my addiction


Get clean you fiend, you fiend
I am called out for being an addict and am urged to change my ways




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Most interesting comments from YouTube:

Mohamad Shamdeen

I thought I was a god
Thought I'd never die
Snort a bump and lose a night
Faking friends and losing my sanity
Stuck my fingers down her throat and held her hair back
Now I'm just another fuck you killed a 12 pack with
We're gods, we're kings, we're substance fiends
Who really cares who it hurts when we fill our needs
We're gods, we're kings and I'm lifeless
Guess that's what I get for living with my vices
You say you think you can help

So... just break me
Make me the way you want me
Break me until I owe you nothing

Don't get too close, I've been known to manipulate
I've got this drip in my throat that would devastate
God I'm afraid that my friends might hate me
Getting clean's like an insult lately
We'd stop but I've got this craving
I'm stuck in here

So... just break me
Make me the way you want me
Break me until I owe you nothing

Bet it makes you sick to see me faded out
Sleeping in my own puke, aren't you proud?
You're all better off when I'm not around
I promise you
Can't eat, can't sleep, can't fuck, can't dream
It's a powdered trap and I can't get clean
Maybe I'm just like them
And I'm just a fiend and I can't get clean

So... just break me
Make me the way you want me
Break me until I owe you nothing

Get clean you filth
It's like a ringing in my ears
They beg and they plead
Get clean you fiend

I thought I was a god
Thought I'd never die
Snort a bump and lose a night
Faking friends and losing my sanity
Stuck my fingers down her throat and held her hair back
Now I'm just another fuck you killed a 12 pack with
We're gods, we're kings, we're substance fiends
Who really cares who it hurts when we fill our needs
We're gods, we're kings and I'm lifeless
Guess that's what I get for living with my vices
You say you think you can help

So... just break me
Make me the way you want me
Break me until I owe you nothing



King of Conquerors

I thought I was a god, thought I'd never die
Snort a bump and lose a night faking friends and losing my sanity
Stuck my fingers down her throat and held her hair back
Now I'm just another fuck you killed a twelve pack with
We're gods, we're kings, we're substance fiends
Who really cares who it hurts when we fill our needs
We're gods, we're kings and I'm lifeless
Guess that's what I get for living with my vices
You say you think you can help

So just break me
Make me the way you want me
Break me
Until I owe you nothing

Don't get too close, I've been known to manipulate
I've got this drip in my throat that would devastate
God I'm afraid that my friends might hate me
Getting clean's like an insult lately
We'd stop but I've got this craving
I'm stuck in here

So just break me
Make me the way you want me
Break me
Until I owe you nothing

Bet it makes you sick to see me faded out
Sleeping in my own puke, aren't you proud?
You're all better off when I'm not around
I promise you
Can't eat, can't sleep, can't fuck, can't dream
It's a powdered trap and I can't get free
Maybe I'm just like them
And I'm just a fiend and I can't get clean

Break me
Make me the way you want me
Break me
Until I owe you nothing

Get clean you filth
It's like a ringing in my ears
They beg and they plead
Get clean, get clean, get clean, you fiend, you fiend
Get clean, get clean, get clean, you fiend, you fiend
I thought I was a god, thought I'd never die
Snort a bump and lose a night faking friends and losing my sanity
Stuck my fingers down her throat and held her hair back
Now I'm just another fuck you killed a twelve pack with
We're gods, we're kings, we're substance fiends
Who really cares who it hurts when we fill our needs
We're gods, we're kings and I'm lifeless
Guess that's what I get for living with my vices
You say you think you can help

So just break me
Make me the way you want me
Break me
Until I owe you nothing



Next Generation Beats


Your welcome America


I thought I was a god, thought I'd never die
Snort a bump and lose a night faking friends and losing my sanity
Stuck my fingers down her throat and held her hair back
Now I'm just another fuck you killed a 12 pack with
We're gods, we're kings, we're substance fiends
Who really cares who it hurts when we fill our needs
We're gods, we're kings and I'm lifeless
Guess that's what I get for living with my vices
You say you think you can help

So just break me
Make me the way you want me
Break me
Until I owe you nothing

Don't get too close, I've been known to manipulate
I've got this drip in my throat that would devastate
God I'm afraid that my friends might hate me
Getting clean's like an insult lately
We'd stop but I've got this craving
I'm stuck in here

So just break me
Make me the way you want me
Break me
Until I owe you nothing

Bet it makes you sick to see me faded out
Sleeping in my own puke, aren't you proud?
You're all better off when I'm not around
I promise you
Can't eat, can't sleep, can't fuck, can't dream
It's a powdered trap and I can't get clean
Maybe I'm just like them
And I'm just a fiend and I can't get clean

Break me
Make me the way you want me
Break me
Until I owe you nothing

Get clean you filth
It's like a ringing in my ears
They beg and they plead
Get clean, get clean, get clean, you fiend, you fiend
Get clean, get clean, get clean, you fiend, you fiend

I thought I was a god, thought I'd never die
Snort a bump and lose a night faking friends and losing my sanity
Stuck my fingers down her throat and held her hair back
Now I'm just another fuck you killed a 12 pack with
We're gods, we're kings, we're substance fiends
Who really cares who it hurts when we fill our needs
We're gods, we're kings and I'm lifeless
Guess that's what I get for living with my vices
You say you think you can help

So just break me
Make me the way you want me
Break me
Until I owe you nothing



Agustín Alvia

+Agustín Alvia I thought I was a god
Thought I'd never die
Snort a bump and lose a night
Faking friends and losing my sanity
Stuck my fingers down her throat and held her hair back
Now I'm just another fuck you killed a 12 pack with
We're gods, we're kings, we're substance fiends
Who really cares who it hurts when we fill our needs
We're gods, we're kings and I'm lifeless
Guess that's what I get for living with my vices
You say you think you can help

So... just break me
Make me the way you want me
Break me until I owe you nothing

Don't get too close, I've been known to manipulate
I've got this drip in my throat that would devastate
God I'm afraid that my friends might hate me
Getting clean's like an insult lately
We'd stop but I've got this craving
I'm stuck in here

So... just break me
Make me the way you want me
Break me until I owe you nothing

Bet it makes you sick to see me faded out
Sleeping in my own puke, aren't you proud?
You're all better off when I'm not around
I promise you
Can't eat, can't sleep, can't fuck, can't dream
It's a powdered trap and I can't get clean
Maybe I'm just like them
And I'm just a fiend and I can't get clean

So... just break me
Make me the way you want me
Break me until I owe you nothing

Get clean you filth
It's like a ringing in my ears
They beg and they plead
Get clean you fiend

I thought I was a god
Thought I'd never die
Snort a bump and lose a night
Faking friends and losing my sanity
Stuck my fingers down her throat and held her hair back
Now I'm just another fuck you killed a 12 pack with
We're gods, we're kings, we're substance fiends
Who really cares who it hurts when we fill our needs
We're gods, we're kings and I'm lifeless
Guess that's what I get for living with my vices
You say you think you can help

So... just break me
Make me the way you want me
Break me until I owe you nothing



All comments from YouTube:

Caitie

Being an addict and hearing this album really fucks with me. If could ever summarizing the self hate or the guilt and shame it would be this album

Sgt Fumbles II

This album aged flawlessly.

nubz0rzyou

So good ! Wish they would have did another album with this sound

Mophead

This album is so raw omfg i cant stop listening, gives me chills everytime, fucking love them

Mohamad Shamdeen

I thought I was a god
Thought I'd never die
Snort a bump and lose a night
Faking friends and losing my sanity
Stuck my fingers down her throat and held her hair back
Now I'm just another fuck you killed a 12 pack with
We're gods, we're kings, we're substance fiends
Who really cares who it hurts when we fill our needs
We're gods, we're kings and I'm lifeless
Guess that's what I get for living with my vices
You say you think you can help

So... just break me
Make me the way you want me
Break me until I owe you nothing

Don't get too close, I've been known to manipulate
I've got this drip in my throat that would devastate
God I'm afraid that my friends might hate me
Getting clean's like an insult lately
We'd stop but I've got this craving
I'm stuck in here

So... just break me
Make me the way you want me
Break me until I owe you nothing

Bet it makes you sick to see me faded out
Sleeping in my own puke, aren't you proud?
You're all better off when I'm not around
I promise you
Can't eat, can't sleep, can't fuck, can't dream
It's a powdered trap and I can't get clean
Maybe I'm just like them
And I'm just a fiend and I can't get clean

So... just break me
Make me the way you want me
Break me until I owe you nothing

Get clean you filth
It's like a ringing in my ears
They beg and they plead
Get clean you fiend

I thought I was a god
Thought I'd never die
Snort a bump and lose a night
Faking friends and losing my sanity
Stuck my fingers down her throat and held her hair back
Now I'm just another fuck you killed a 12 pack with
We're gods, we're kings, we're substance fiends
Who really cares who it hurts when we fill our needs
We're gods, we're kings and I'm lifeless
Guess that's what I get for living with my vices
You say you think you can help

So... just break me
Make me the way you want me
Break me until I owe you nothing

Dwayne

This song is a fucking masterpiece. This whole album is a masterpiece. I get chills every time I hear this song, those pitched yells are on point.

Landon, never stop what you are doing because you are seriously talented.

Dwight Anthony

Vheissu fuckin right

Christian Hackl

@Vheissu1234 your name reminds me of the band Thrice with their album Vheissu, I love it it's a masterpiece! Is it a direct reference to it or just a coincidence?😆

Hellgurl x

I've been looking so hard for a band that had this type of horror/raw/creepy tune for soooo long.

Panda Bear

Motionless in white they r wat u r looking for

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