Miss January
The Procussions Lyrics

I had to say goodbye to Miss January
I had to end things with a woman who represented a past love of mine.

She had a hold on my mind for so long and
I was mentally stuck on her for quite some time.

I learned a lesson in life from Miss January
She taught me something important about life.

The weight left on my heart is less heavy
My heart feels lighter now that I've moved on.

When the first light shines, the first light shines in June
June represents a new beginning or fresh start in my life.

I thought I fell in love once with a girl who loves blunts
I believed I was in love with a woman who smoked marijuana.

And got fronts and she made me rise above lust
She had a dental appliance and helped me resist temptation.

I thought I fell in love again with this one chick
I had another infatuation with a woman.

Body so thick it was hard not to...
She had a very curvy figure that was difficult to resist.

I fell in love just one more time after that
I had one more romantic interest after her.

Shorty had me ready to settle down and make a habitat
She made me want to settle down and start a home together.

The sad fact is I wasn't ready too
Unfortunately, I wasn't emotionally prepared to commit.

Give up my freedom
I wasn't ready to give up my independence.

And so I let them go pretending that I don't need 'em
I pretended that I didn't need them in order to avoid commitment.

So here I sit at the bar amongst the star gazers
I'm alone at a bar, surrounded by people who look up at the night sky.

Caught in the crosshairs, a target of a heart breaker
I'm vulnerable to being hurt by someone who breaks hearts.

The radio was playing Neither One of Us
The song playing was Gladys Knight's 'Neither One of Us', which is relevant to my situation.

By Gladys, it's so ironic I chuckled...
It's ironic that this song is playing, and I couldn't help but laugh.

I reminisce on all the chicks that I ran thru
I think back on all the women I had short-lived relationships with.

Now I'm dealing with this black magic one-man boo
I'm currently in a complicated relationship with a mysterious woman.

Stringing me along like the guitar on the song I'm rapping on
She's keeping me around even though she might not be serious about me.

I ain't do the math, a Libra and a Capricorn
I didn't think through our astrological compatibility or incompatibility.

True love got the power to change any circumstance
Love has the ability to overcome obstacles and change situations.

I knew we were far from the same, but still I took a chance
I knew we were different, but I still wanted to see where things could go.

Wish I could have looked in advance to your advances
I wish I could have seen the signs that she was interested in me before it became complicated.

Knowing I'm the book that you read to your advantage
She is using me to her advantage in some way.

I understand it's not like we planned it with the worst intentions
I don't believe she had the worst intentions in our relationship.

Taken advantage, I was stranded in your first impressions
I was taken advantage of and didn't see the situation clearly from the beginning.

I know it hurts to question, what will be a curse or blessin'
It's painful to wonder if this relationship will end up being good or bad for me.

I guess it's worth confessin', maybe then we'll learn our lesson
It's worth admitting our mistakes and learning from them in order to move on.

Searching for your attention, hoping you were doing the same
I was seeking her attention and hoping she felt the same way.

Pursuing in vain, knowing that only you were entertained
I was chasing her even though I knew deep down that she wasn't interested.

Using me, and I was new to the pain
She was using me in some way, and I wasn't used to feeling hurt.

Cause rejection I hadn't meet him, but I knew him by name
I had never been rejected before, but I knew what it was like in theory.

True I grew from the pain, in the days where I'd pay anything
I learned from the pain and was willing to do almost anything to make things right.

Standing there like John Cusack from Say Anything
I was standing outside her house with a boombox, like in the movie 'Say Anything'.

Planning on you to call back but it never rings
I was hoping she would call me back, but she never did.

There were so many things, there were so many signs
There were many signs that things weren't going well between us.

And now I'm chasing wings knowing it's a waste of time
I'm pursuing something that I know is ultimately pointless.

Until my God reminds me of what I truly need
I need a reminder from a higher power of what's truly important.

I take a look behind just before your beauty leaves
I look back at her beauty before she is gone for good.

To get a glimpse of you hoping that you see me too
I hope that she notices me, even though it's too late.

And know we staring at two people that we never knew
We are looking at two strangers who have been hurt by each other.

And probably never know, hoping I'll forever grow
We may never fully understand what went wrong, but I hope to grow from the experience.

Into the one who finally gained the strength to let you go
I want to become strong enough to move on from this past relationship.

And changed my idea of what true love is
This experience has changed my perception of what it means to truly love someone.

I wipe my eyes clear and rise above this
I clear my tears and move past this difficult experience.