Waster
The Royston Club Lyrics

These words don't have meaning
I feel lost and disconnected, like the words in my life have no real impact or significance.

I wish that they would
Despite my disillusionment, I still long for purpose and meaning in my life.

My brains are on the ceiling
My mind is racing with ideas and possibilities, but I feel paralyzed and unable to act on them.

But my heads stuck in the ground
Despite my desire to do something meaningful, I feel stuck and unable to make any real progress.

All my life I've been dreaming
I have always had grand dreams and aspirations, but have been unable to make them a reality.

Never getting things done
Despite my dreams, I am unable to follow through and accomplish anything of substance.

I only laugh to stop screaming
I use humor to mask my deep-seated feelings of despair and frustration.

So lock the doors so I can't run
I am overwhelmed and feel like I want to escape, but know that running away won't solve my problems.

In ten years time I'll still be doing nothing
I feel stuck in a cycle of inaction and lack of progress, and worry that I will never achieve anything of significance.

Onto something new you know I'm just bluffing
Despite my outward confidence, I know that I am simply trying to mask my insecurities and fears.

I'm always in a hole
I feel trapped and unable to climb my way out of my current situation.

I go through phases
Sometimes I feel motivated and inspired, but those feelings never last long enough for me to make any real progress.

Living on parole
I feel like I am constantly being restrained by negative thoughts and emotions, like I am a prisoner on parole.

With all these faces
I am surrounded by people, but still feel isolated and alone in my struggles.

I'm turning over
I am trying to change and improve my life, but it is a slow and difficult process.

But you know
Despite my efforts, I know that things won't change overnight and that progress will be slow.

It isn't gonna last
I am worried that the progress I am making is temporary and won't be sustained in the long term.

Can't dispose of these feelings
My negative emotions continue to plague me and I can't simply get rid of them.

They're always bringing me down
My negative emotions are constantly holding me back and keeping me from achieving my goals.

I find it hard to keep breathing
My negative emotions are so overwhelming that they make it difficult for me to even breathe.

Your words are clogging up my lungs
Other people's negative comments and criticisms are adding to my emotional burden and making it even harder for me to cope.

Happiness is decieving
I have come to see happiness as a temporary illusion that is ultimately unattainable.

In suspense when its around
Even when I do experience moments of happiness, I can't relax and fully enjoy them because I know they won't last.

I'm mostly thinking bout leaving
I am consumed with thoughts of escape and just want to run away from all of my problems.

So lock the doors so I can't run
Once again, I know that running away won't solve my problems, but I still can't help but feel like escaping is my only option.