The Suicide File were an angry yet intelligent hardcore band from Boston, M… Read Full Bio ↴The Suicide File were an angry yet intelligent hardcore band from Boston, MA. They broke up in 2003 (but played 3 reunion shows in 2005) and members went on to join Some Kind Of Hate, and The Hope Conspiracy among others. They released two EP's and an LP on Indecision Records, a split 7" with The Hope Conspiracy on Deathwish Inc., and a split with R'N'R released on Championship Vinyl/This Blessing This Curse Recordings. With the exception of the LP, all of their material was included on the posthumous release, Some Mistakes You Never Stop Paying For.

Cold Snap
The Suicide File Lyrics

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I finally saw you
For the first time
In two fucking years
And i told you i was fine.
You told me you had made it through the roughest patch
And you tried to make some jokes
And you asked about my life
And you shook and drank a beer

And I held back the fucking tears.
I felt no love, just pity for what you had become.

What a tragic life we've built.
What a tragic life we've built.

("Bad things happen you said when I walked you to the porch,
and faced you through the frigid boston night.
You hugged me as I stood and told me I was a good boy.
Bad things happen I whispered back and I said I was doing fine.
I said i was doing fine")

I said i was doing fine
I said i was doing fine

And i walked away
And it was so cold
That the tears froze on my face.

I'm not fine.

Overall Meaning

The Suicide File's song Cold Snap is a poignant expression of the emotional complexities of meeting someone from the past after a long time. Through the lyrics, the song conveys feelings of pity and sadness towards the other person, who has become a shadow of their former self. The singer's emotions are raw and honest, with a touch of anger towards the tragic state of their lives. The opening lines are particularly powerful, as the singer says: "I finally saw you / For the first time / In two fucking years / And I told you I was fine." The use of expletives underscores the depth of the singer's emotions, emphasizing how hard it is to confront someone from the past whom they used to love.

As the conversation progresses, it becomes clear that the other person has been through a lot of hardships in the past two years. They try to make light of it with jokes and ask about the singer's life. However, the singer can't help but feel pity for them. The singer tries to hold back tears, but they eventually come out. The chorus, "What a tragic life we've built," encapsulates the feelings of hopelessness and despair that the singer feels about their own life and the other person's life.

The ending lines of the song are particularly poignant. The singer walks away, feeling the coldness of the night. Tears freeze on their face, illustrating how the situation has left them feeling numb and emotionally frozen. The final line, "I'm not fine," is the singer's admission that they have been pretending all along, trying to convince themselves and the other person that everything is okay even when it clearly isn't. The song is a thought-provoking exploration of the complexities of human relationships, the passage of time, and the ways in which we try to cope with tragedy and loss.

Line by Line Meaning

I finally saw you
After a long time, I saw you again

For the first time
First time in two years, I saw you

In two fucking years
It had been two years since we last met

And i told you i was fine.
I pretended to be fine when you asked me how I was doing

You told me you had made it through the roughest patch
You said that you had overcome the most difficult period of your life

And you tried to make some jokes
You attempted to break the ice by cracking some jokes

And you asked about my life
You inquired about how my life had been so far

And you shook and drank a beer
You drank a beer and shook, displaying signs of nervousness

And I held back the fucking tears.
I tried not to cry in front of you

I felt no love, just pity for what you had become.
I didn't feel any affection for you, only sympathy for the person you had turned into

What a tragic life we've built.
We have created an unfortunate life for ourselves

Bad things happen you said when I walked you to the porch,
As I walked you towards the porch, you stated that unfortunate events do occur

and faced you through the frigid boston night.
I confronted you on a cold night in Boston

You hugged me as I stood and told me I was a good boy.
You hugged me and praised me, calling me a good person

Bad things happen I whispered back and I said I was doing fine.
I replied saying that I was okay, but whispered that unfortunate incidents had indeed happened

I said i was doing fine
I repeated that I was doing okay

And i walked away
And I left the place

And it was so cold
It was freezing cold

That the tears froze on my face.
The tears that I couldn't hold back froze on my face

I'm not fine.
Contrary to what I said earlier, I'm not actually doing okay

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