What Am I Doing With My Life
The White Boys Lyrics
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Pushing 40, no job, no wife
I live for the night
It's so empty but shit'll be alright
I often stare out the window
Thinking about when times were so simple
Now my dick got wrinkles
Sex life creepy, collecting dildosThese days girls grow up young
Can't believe what they can do with their tongue (damn)
They must watch PornHub
Because they spit and twist on the dick like grown-ups
I can't commit to shit
A cell phone plan, or better yet a bitch
My life seems hopeless
At least I got drugs and the kid ain't homeless
What am I doing with my life?
I don't know, what am I doing with my life?
What am I doing with my life?
Oh yeah, having fun getting pussy every night
What am I doing with my life?
I don't know, what am I doing with my life?
What am I doing with my life?
Oh yeah, having fun, party every night
(Andre LEGACY)
It all started on September 3
Two years ago, my girl don't remember me (bitch)
Now I'm just history
I feel like James Caan, Misery
I used to chase all the pretty girls
Now I chase the dragon, it's a fucked up world
And I'm sad as shitAlone at home playing Madden lit
They say the grass is always greener
Other fish in the sea, one day you'll meet her (yeah right)
She'll probably end up a cheater
Fuck your best friend in the back of the theater (ho)
Double feature, ugly creature
She used to be so much sweeter (used to be)
I thought she was the one
Now she gone, where the fuck is my gun?
(HOOK)
Hello, I'm Jeremy Gritter
Beardo, career's in the shitter
Shoulda, woulda got signed
But no, I chose to snort coke lines
Wish I would've been writing rhymes
Caught my girl sucking dick on Vine (oh my God)
Now I'm depressed
Like a teenager hanging himself to death
If I had a AK
I'd get drunk and blow myself away
I lost my bitch (gone)
I lost my car, now I'm losing my shit
I'm staring in the mirror
I hate you Beardo, looking through a tear
So what's the point to life? (what)
To get a wife? Fuck that, I'mma going to stay high
The lyrics to The White Boys' song, "What Am I Doing with My Life" present a gloomy picture of three men in different stages of life who all seem to have lost their way. The first verse is about a man who is almost 40 years old, unmarried and unemployed, and relies on getting high to live through the nights. The emptiness of his life is evident, though he tries to convince himself it's alright. The next verse is about a man who has been through a break-up and is now addicted to drugs. The third person is disillusioned by failure and depression caused by his love interests' infidelity. They all seem to be questioning the purpose of their lives and wondering if it has anything to do with pursuing a career or finding love.
The lyrics display various dark and twisted thoughts, where the White Boys contemplate suicide, display hatred towards themselves and others, and express their displeasure with life in general. They talk about their lost youth, unfulfilled dreams, unsuccessful relationships, and broken spirits, which they seemingly try to mask with drugs and sex. Despite the alarming imagery and explicit content, the lyrics also offer an insight into the struggles of modern-day men who often find themselves struggling to find direction and a sense of purpose in their lives.
Line by Line Meaning
What am I doing with my life?
Questioning the direction of my existence
Pushing 40, no job, no wife
Feeling unaccomplished and alone at my age
I live for the night
Finding purpose in my temporary escape from reality
It's so empty but shit'll be alright
Acknowledging the emptiness of my life, but still finding comfort in the temporary pleasures
I often stare out the window
Reflecting on simpler times and the passage of time
Thinking about when times were so simple
Nostalgic for a time when life felt less overwhelming
Now my dick got wrinkles
Feeling the effects of aging and its impact on my sexuality
Sex life creepy, collecting dildos
Struggling to find sexual fulfillment and resorting to alternative means
These days girls grow up young
Noticing the early maturity of young women and its impact on society
Can't believe what they can do with their tongue (damn)
Surprised by the sexual prowess of young women
They must watch PornHub
Assuming that young women learn sexual techniques through porn
Because they spit and twist on the dick like grown-ups
Impressed by the level of sexual skill exhibited by young women
I can't commit to shit
Unable to make long-term commitments in any area of life
A cell phone plan, or better yet a bitch
Struggling to find stability in basic aspects of life
My life seems hopeless
Feeling lost and uncertain about my future
At least I got drugs and the kid ain't homeless
Finding solace in drug use and the fact that at least my child is not living on the street
Oh yeah, having fun getting pussy every night
Finding temporary fulfillment in sexual conquests
(Andre LEGACY)
Introducing the next verse, which further explores the themes of loss and regret
It all started on September 3
Reflecting on a specific date that marks the beginning of a significant event
Two years ago, my girl don't remember me (bitch)
Feeling hurt and rejected by an ex-girlfriend
Now I'm just history
Feeling irrelevant and forgotten
I feel like James Caan, Misery
Referencing a character from a movie who was trapped and tortured
I used to chase all the pretty girls
Reflecting on past romantic pursuits
Now I chase the dragon, it's a fucked up world
Turning to drugs as a means of escape from my problems
And I'm sad as shit
Feeling deeply depressed
Alone at home playing Madden lit
Finding comfort in video games and drug use
They say the grass is always greener
Reflecting on the adage that we always want what we can't have
Other fish in the sea, one day you'll meet her (yeah right)
Doubtful that I will find another romantic partner
She'll probably end up a cheater
Expecting my next partner to be unfaithful
Fuck your best friend in the back of the theater (ho)
Cynical about the motives of women and their potential to betray
Double feature, ugly creature
Reflecting on the ironic nature of life and how things rarely turn out as expected
She used to be so much sweeter (used to be)
Feeling nostalgic for a past that is gone
I thought she was the one
Believing I had found my perfect match
Now she gone, where the fuck is my gun?
Feeling lost and hopeless without my former partner
Hello, I'm Jeremy Gritter
Introducing the next verse, sung by a different member of the band
Beardo, career's in the shitter
Acknowledging the failure of my music career
Shoulda, woulda got signed
Regretting missed opportunities to succeed in the music industry
But no, I chose to snort coke lines
Blaming my drug use for the inability to succeed
Wish I would've been writing rhymes
Regretful that I did not focus on writing music instead of drug use
Caught my girl sucking dick on Vine (oh my God)
Expressing shock and betrayal at discovering infidelity
Now I'm depressed
Feeling deeply sad and down
Like a teenager hanging himself to death
Using a vivid metaphor to express the severity of my depression
If I had a AK
Expressing a desire for self-harm or suicide
I'd get drunk and blow myself away
Further expressing a desire for self-harm or suicide
I lost my bitch (gone)
Feeling the pain of a lost romantic partner
I lost my car, now I'm losing my shit
Feeling overwhelmed by the negative events in my life
I'm staring in the mirror
Reflecting on myself and my life
I hate you Beardo, looking through a tear
Blaming myself for my failures and feeling regretful
So what's the point to life? (what)
Questioning the purpose of existence
To get a wife? Fuck that, I'mma going to stay high
Rejecting the idea of finding a partner and choosing instead to focus on my drug use
HOOK
Repeating the chorus to reinforce the central themes of the song
Contributed by Abigail N. Suggest a correction in the comments below.
@blurhiley2070
It's 2023 we Need a part ✌
@cheyennethompson1701
@FreeedumbtvI agree 👍
@cheyennethompson1701
Hopefully in 2024 😢
@tfwotfwotfwo
almost 4 years later and i still don't know what i'm doing with my life.
@Snargle
You and me both. I don't know how to feel about it.
@tfwotfwotfwo
4 months later and i'm gonna stop. Grow up to be an astronaut.
@jimmyjohnson8065
Stinky Tits Ramen
4 minutes later now im smoking some pot
@jhnbast5560
Same
@SingleMaltBuckeye
Amen
@WolfWould
This is still so underrated.