Turned My Back
Theresa Sokyrka Lyrics


Jump to: Overall Meaning ↴  Line by Line Meaning ↴

I turned my back on all the things that gave me trouble
Thought that maybe you'd leave too
I placed myself in a self reflecting bubble
To start living the way I wanted to
And when I told you that I loved you well I wasn't being true
And now I start to notice what I am without you

Wore my heart on my shoes
Don't know how I let it weigh me down
Expected more of the blues now that you're in town
And I can feel my fire burning longer, feel my strength getting stronger
All my memories of you and me are distant reality
Yes I can see you wandering on your own
And here I sit and think about you
Writing words that I never thought I'd know
Just to prove that I'm a person too

Never wore the bruises on my face
I never let on that it even took place
Living lies so thin I could hardly breathe the air
But you don't care
Please put your hands in my face again, let me be your believer
I believe you'll change, I believe you'll disarrange
But you don't care
Yes I can see you wondering on your own
And here I sit and think about you
Writing words that I never thought I'd know
Just to prove to you

Yes I can see you wandering on your own
And here I sit and think about you
Writing words that I thought I'd never know
Just to prove that I'm a person too





[scats]

Overall Meaning

In Theresa Sokyrka's song "Turned My Back," the lyrics are full of self-reflection and a sense of leaving the past behind. The singer of the song admits to turning away from anything that caused trouble, hoping that the object of their affection would do the same. They decided to live life their way, creating a bubble of self-reflection, but in doing so, they realize that they were not sincere when they professed their love. The lines "And when I told you that I loved you well I wasn't being true / And now I start to notice what I am without you" are especially powerful, as they not only admit to being insincere but also come to grasp the reality of living without the person they thought they loved.


The song takes on a confessional tone, as the singer wrestles with the memories of their relationship, writing down words they never thought they would know just to prove to the other person that they, too, are a person. The lines "Never wore the bruises on my face / I never let on that it even took place" are ominous, indicating that there was potentially physical abuse in the relationship. Still, the singer hopes that the other person will change, asking them to "put your hands in my face again, let me be your believer." The ending scat adds an element of release, as if the singer is finally free from the weight of their past and can move forward.


Overall, Teresa Sokyrka's song "Turned My Back" is a powerful exploration of leaving the past behind, facing the reality of our actions, and the hope for something better in the future.


Line by Line Meaning

I turned my back on all the things that gave me trouble
I chose to ignore and avoid anything that caused me difficulty or stress.


Thought that maybe you'd leave too
I believed that if I ignored my problems, you would also leave me behind.


I placed myself in a self reflecting bubble
I isolated myself to deeply think about who I am and how I want to live my life.


To start living the way I wanted to
I wanted to change my life to reflect my true desires and needs.


And when I told you that I loved you well I wasn't being true
I lied about my feelings for you, and now I regret it.


And now I start to notice what I am without you
Now that you are no longer with me, I am able to see the true impact you had on my life.


Wore my heart on my shoes
I was too open and vulnerable with my emotions, which brought me down.


Don't know how I let it weigh me down
I am unsure of how I allowed my emotions to overwhelm and affect me so deeply.


Expected more of the blues now that you're in town
I believed that having you near me would make me feel more sad and down than I actually do.


And I can feel my fire burning longer, feel my strength getting stronger
I am becoming more confident and empowered as time goes on without you.


All my memories of you and me are distant reality
The memories I have of our relationship feel like a far-off dream or fantasy.


Yes I can see you wandering on your own
I can visualize you moving through life without me, as an independent individual.


And here I sit and think about you
Despite my efforts to move on and focus on myself, you still occupy my thoughts and emotions.


Writing words that I never thought I'd know
I am using writing as a tool for self-expression, and it is helping me discover and understand parts of myself I didn't realize were there.


Just to prove that I'm a person too
I am communicating my thoughts and feelings to prove that I am an individual with my own unique experiences, thoughts and emotions.


Never wore the bruises on my face
I hid the physical harm that I endured from others, and perhaps even from myself.


I never let on that it even took place
I kept the traumatic event a secret from others, not wanting them to know my pain and vulnerability.


Living lies so thin I could hardly breathe the air
I was living a life built on falsehoods and deceit, which was suffocating and difficult for me to navigate.


But you don't care
Despite my struggles, you are not concerned with my well-being or emotional state.


Please put your hands in my face again, let me be your believer
Even after the abuse, I still desire your touch and approval, and want to believe that you can change.


I believe you'll change, I believe you'll disarrange
Despite everything, I still hold onto hope that you will transform and break away from your destructive patterns.


And here I sit and think about you
Again, I find myself consumed by thoughts of you, despite everything that has happened.


Writing words that I thought I'd never know
Through my writing, I am discovering new parts of myself and my emotional landscape.


Just to prove that I'm a person too
Once again, I am using my voice to assert my individuality and feelings, and to demonstrate that I deserve recognition and respect as a human being.


[scats]




Lyrics © O/B/O APRA AMCOS

Lyrics Licensed & Provided by LyricFind
To comment on or correct specific content, highlight it

Genre not found
Artist not found
Album not found
Song not found