Conflagration
Thessera Lyrics

On my knees I cry
I am in a state of devastation and despair, expressed physically through crying on my knees

Perceive her spirit saying goodbye
I can sense the presence of the person I've lost, suggesting their departure or death

How can I survive
I feel the weight of my loss so fully that I'm questioning my ability to go on living

If I lost the reason of my life?
This loss is so profound that I feel like I've lost purpose in living

Now I think
There's been a shift in my thoughts and feelings

“How could this Nightmare have started?”
I am trying to make sense of the situation that's led to my loss, and questioning how it could have come about

Now the worse came
The situation has escalated and become even more dire

All of this
I am referring to the situation overall

Shouldn't have
I believe that what has happened is unjust, or that it was avoidable

Happened to her, 'cause
I believe that the person I've lost shouldn't have experienced this situation

She was with Kane
I am referencing a person called Kane, who was involved with the person I've lost

Hey, wait for awhile!
I am addressing someone and asking them to wait

Well, Kane gave her a ride
I'm mentioning how the person I've lost came to be with Kane

So how did she get hurt?
I am questioning the circumstances that led to the person I've lost being hurt or dying

I'm going to his house, I will find out
I am expressing my intent to uncover the truth by going to Kane's house

Now, I feel that doubt
My sense of uncertainty is intensifying

Is coming back to my mind
I've experienced doubt before and it's creeping back into my thoughts

Deep down I sense this envy
I have a strong feeling of jealousy, which may be coloring my perceptions or actions

He always kept inside him, he fed it!
I believe that Kane has been intentionally nurturing the envy or jealousy, which may have contributed to the situation

(Andrew)
This indicates dialogue from a character called Andrew

How could you've thought
Andrew is questioning Kane's mindset or actions

I'd forgive what you've done
Kane has done something that Andrew cannot forgive

With my dear Jeanne?
Kane has hurt or killed someone named Jeanne, who was important to Andrew

Well, I'll not forgive you, damn!
Andrew is making it clear that he can't forgive Kane

How could you've fed
Andrew believes that Kane has nurtured or escalated a negative feeling

This envy to cause her such pain and suffering
Kane's actions have led to significant harm for Jeanne

Now she's dead and you will pay ...
Kane will face repercussions for contributing to the death of Jeanne

(Kane)
This indicates dialogue from a character called Kane

I don't realise
Kane is denying or misunderstanding something

What you are trying
Andrew is conveying something to Kane

To say to me with
The manner in which Andrew is speaking is unclear to Kane

Your confused words
Kane perceives Andrew's words to be muddled or unclear

So you stay calm...
Kane is trying to defuse the situation by asking Andrew to stay calm

This envy that you say
Kane is commenting on Andrew's mention of envy earlier

I feed belongs to yours and not to my mind...
Kane is denying that the feeling of envy was his, and believes that Andrew was projecting it onto him

(Andrew)
This indicates dialogue from a character called Andrew

No, don't you lie
Andrew is accusing Kane of being dishonest

I won't stay calm until I find out why she died
Andrew is determined to discover the truth about Jeanne's death

Now, there's no doubt
Andrew is now certain about something

I am sure that I was right for all the time
Andrew is confident that his suspicions about Kane were correct

Kane, I'll make you pay
Andrew is threatening to make Kane pay for his actions

Now take what you deserve
Kane will face consequences for his actions

Don't beg, I hope it hurts
Andrew doesn't want Kane to beg for mercy, and wants him to feel pain

Don't even holler, it doesn't work
Kane's cries or pleas for help won't sway Andrew

No, don't lie to me
Andrew is demanding honesty from Kane

Cause now you will get beat
Kane will be physically punished for his actions

Just like you did to Jeanne
Kane's actions resulted in harm to Jeanne, and he's going to be similarly harmed

I'll go until the end, won't stop it
Andrew is committed to seeing things through until the end, and won't be deterred

Can't believe my eyes
I am expressing disbelief at something I'm seeing

Reach this point, how could I?
I'm questioning how I got to this situation, given what's transpired

This scene quenches the flames in my mind
I am seeing something that is causing my anger or upset to dissipate

Now I can feel my heart
I am having a change in emotional state

Even colder than ice
I am experiencing an intense feeling of coldness or numbness

I will have to live with this for all my life
I am accepting that this experience will have a lifelong impact on me

His body
I am referencing the body of someone who is dead

Now on the ground
The body is no longer standing or moving

By my feet
I am in close proximity to the body

Lifeless, motionless on the floor
The body is completely still and doesn't display any signs of life

Crimson surrounds me
There's an abundance of red, possibly indicating blood

I feel the blood on my hands
Andrew is experiencing the physical sensation of blood on his hands

It's not mine
Andrew is clarifying that the blood is not his own

But Kane's
The blood is associated with or attributable to Kane

Leave his house, I am in despair
Andrew is departing Kane's house and feeling hopeless or filled with regret

And I don't know what to do to withdraw this
Andrew is struggling with the emotional impact of what he's experienced

From my mind, from my dizzy head
Andrew is experiencing feelings of being overwhelmed or confused

So I take the car, I try to go so fast
Andrew is driving away quickly, possibly to distance himself from what he's just experienced

The fastest that I can go to leave
Andrew is pushing the car to its limits to get away quickly

That painful scene behind, away from me
Andrew is trying to put some distance between himself and the traumatic experience he's just had

I arrive at my building's stairs
Andrew has arrived at the entrance to where he lives

I run up through them
Andrew is climbing the stairs quickly, possibly to escape something

My blame won't let me forget
Andrew is feeling guilty about something and can't get it out of his head

I fall down on my bed
Andrew is collapsing onto his bed physically

My head starts to reflect
Andrew's thoughts are turning inward and he's reflecting on what's happened

Whether I'm going mad
Andrew is questioning his own sanity

So now I wonder “am I to blame?”
Andrew is questioning whether he is responsible for what's happened

No, the guilt is Kane's
Andrew believes that Kane is responsible for the situation, not himself

It was his fault, I'm innocent
Andrew has determined that he is not the one responsible for the situation

My deed was consequence
Andrew believes that his actions were a result of something else that had happened

I am upside down, my life is drowning
Andrew is experiencing a significant upheaval in his life that feels overwhelming

Again doubtfulness starts to
Andrew is once again feeling uncertain

Grow in my head
That feeling of uncertainty is taking root in Andrew's thoughts again

I can see that I can't prove that he was to blame
Andrew is acknowledging that it's going to be difficult to hold Kane accountable for his actions

Was I in the right?
Andrew is questioning whether his beliefs or actions were correct

Was what he said a lie?
Andrew is questioning whether Kane was being truthful about something

Now it's too late, he's dead ...
Andrew is acknowledging that Kane's death means the truth may never be fully known