Beautiful Music
Thi'sl Lyrics

They say life can be a monster
Life is difficult and can feel like an insurmountable challenge.

That’s why every day I wake up, it’s the one I’m tryna conquer
Every day is a new opportunity to overcome life's challenges and difficulties.

I done faced my fears
I have confronted and overcome my anxieties.

A lot of nights I went to bed, the only thing I ate were my tears
I have experienced deep emotional pain and sadness, often crying myself to sleep.

That’s why you feel the vibe
My music resonates with people because it reflects my real experiences and emotions.

And you can hear the pain in my words, you can see it in my eyes
The pain and trauma I have experienced is palpable in my music and my physical presence.

Thank God that I’m alive
I am grateful to be alive and still have the opportunity to overcome adversity.

‘Cause I can count a hundred ways I know I should’ve died
I have faced numerous close calls and near-death experiences that I attribute surviving to divine intervention.

I’m alive though, this for all of my critics
Despite what my critics may say or think, I have survived and continue to create music that resonates with people.

If it wasn’t for the Lord, I’d tell you where to stick it
My faith in God has helped me rise above the naysayers and keep creating music that reflects my true experiences.

Tell you where to put it, tell you where to shove it
I would respond in a confrontational way if I did not have the grounding and direction of my faith.

Spit it ‘cause I lived it, not ‘cause I loved it
I create music from my real experiences, not because of any love for the things I have gone through.

Now that’s enough about the old me
I am moving beyond my difficult past and striving to create a better future for myself and others.

Talk about me all you want, you don’t even know me
My critics may make assumptions about me and my life, but they do not truly know me or my experiences.

They say I’m too hood with my lyrics
Some people criticize my music for being too raw and gritty, reflecting the difficult experiences of growing up in the inner city.

That’s ‘cause what I’ve been through in my life is what they livin’
Those who criticize my music fail to understand that my lyrics reflect the harsh realities of many people's lives in the inner city.

And I consider this a privilege
I take it as an honor and a responsibility to share my experiences and perspective through my music.

A gift given freely to me, that’s how I give it
My music is a gift that I have been given, and I share it freely with others in hopes of offering them connection, comfort, and inspiration.

Of the same spirit, hopin’ they can hear it
I hope that my listeners can connect with me through our shared experiences and find solace and motivation to overcome their own hardships.

Word hit they heart, they can be delivered
If my music strikes a chord with someone and speaks to their heart, it has the power to inspire and help them overcome their own challenges.

Went to the church to get baptized
I sought religious salvation and renewal through baptism.

Told the preacher that I keep on having these bad vibes
I admitted to the preacher that I was struggling with negative emotions and feelings.

Told him I done lived a crazy life
I confided in the preacher and revealed the difficult experiences I have gone through in my life.

By the way my days goin’, I prob’ly be dead tonight
Given the challenging circumstances of my life, there were times when I felt like I might not survive.

He told me Jesus he can save my life
The preacher offered me religious salvation and assistance through the teachings of Jesus.

And he can set me free tonight
The preacher suggested that by following Jesus, I could be liberated from my difficult past and negative emotions.

Repent and he can give me life
The preacher offered me the opportunity to repent my sins and find new meaning and purpose in life through his religious teachings.

And that’s what your boy did, that’s why I’m standing here tonight
I took the opportunity to seek religious salvation and through that experience, I have found new purpose and hope in my life that I want to share with others.

This is grown folks’ music
My music is for those who have lived through difficult, adult experiences and can relate to the struggles and emotions that I convey in my lyrics.

Time to show you kids how the grown folks do this
I hope to inspire younger generations with my music, showing them that there is another, better way to live than the difficult paths that many are forced to take.

Man you really ought to be ashamed
I call out those who glorify negative, violent lifestyles in their music and attempt to influence impressionable young people.

35 years old, now you tryna go and claim a game
It is hypocritical for older artists to try to associate themselves with gang culture and violent street life through their music.

That’s lame, lyin’ to these kids
Lying to young people about the reality of street life and the dangers it poses is unethical and harmful.

Stuntin’ in your music like that’s really how you live
Artists who portray a glamorous, fake image of street life are perpetrating falsehoods that harm impressionable listeners.

Frontin’ on these songs like you really sellin’ dope
Sensationalizing drug culture and street crime in music creates a dangerous glorification of illegal activity that has real-world consequences for young people.

Homie you ain’t from the hood, you ain’t pushin’ no blow
Artists who claim to be from the inner city or involved in drug culture but have not experienced it firsthand are disingenuous and unethical.

No, keep that junk up out of my face
I do not want to be exposed to music or media that glorifies criminal activity or puts young people in danger.

Keep it off my timeline, this here is my space
I have the power to curate my own media experiences and avoid negative, harmful content if I choose to do so.

And if it wasn’t for the Lord’s grace
I attribute my current success and positive outlook on life to the intervention and support of a religious deity.

I’d be tryna follow cats, Snub Nose .38s
Without my faith, I may have become involved in violent criminal activity, following the example of those around me.

That’s how it goes in the Show Me State
This reflects the challenges and difficulties of growing up in Missouri and the Midwest region.

Momma mess the money up, you end up on a dinner plate
Growing up in poverty in difficult circumstances can lead to a lifetime of struggles and hardships.

And I hate it had to be that way
I lament the fact that many people are forced to endure difficult circumstances and lack access to the resources they need to thrive.

Lord, forgive us for our sins, help us see a better way
I ask for divine help in finding a better, more positive path in life and for forgiveness of past wrongs.

Blind ‘cause we lookin’ through a dirty lens
Our vision of the world and our place in it is clouded by our experiences and perceptions, which may be distorted or limited.

I was just tryna get a Benz
I was chasing material success and luxury as a way to feel validated and successful.

But I end up losin’ all my friends
The pursuit of material wealth and status can lead to loneliness, isolation, and broken relationships with those closest to us.

Now my dirty goin’ to the pen
My past decisions and actions have led me to serve time in prison.

They hit that boy with 55
Someone I know was given a long prison sentence and may spend many years behind bars.

He ain’t did 3 yet, talkin’ ‘bout suicide
The harshness and hopelessness of prison life can lead people to consider drastic measures like suicide.

He told me every night he closes his eyes
My friend's experiences in prison weigh heavily on him and impact him even as he sleeps.

When he lays down to sleep, all he hears is men cry
The suffering and sadness of other inmates is a constant, heavy presence in prison that weighs on even the strongest individuals.

So don’t believe ‘em when they say that lie
The false promises and glamorization of criminal life in media and music is a dangerous lie that leads young people down a path of desperation and despair.

Ain’t nothin’ cute about that gangsta life
The reality of gang culture and street crime is far from glamorous or appealing and often leads to disastrous consequences.

That’s why I’m standing here to testify
I share my story and my music to offer an alternative, positive message and to show that there is hope and redemption for those who have experienced difficulties and trauma in their lives.

That there’s a whole ‘nother way to live, I hope you open up your eyes
I hope to inspire others to look beyond the difficult circumstances of their lives and seek a better, more positive path forward.