Fueled by Ramen released This Providence's self titled full-length album (This Providence) on September 12, 2006.
On November 1, 2006, Phil Cobrea announced that he would no longer be playing bass in This Providence. He cited fractured relationships and a need to be around his family and girlfriend as his reason for leaving. He left on friendly terms and claims he will be around when This Providence plays shows in Seattle.
Among many other bands, they have toured with Cute Is What We Aim For, All Time Low, and Brighten. This Providence appeared at The Bamboozle 2007 on May 5th, 2007. And also appeared at Warped Tour for a couple of years. They released Who Are You Now?.
This Providence left Fueled By Ramen in the early months of 2012, and on May 1, 2012, they released the 'Brier' EP, which was the first new music from them since the release of 'Who Are You Now?'
To Kill This
This Providence Lyrics
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And six years later I'm still frustrated
I'm still not who I want to be
And now it all comes down to, am I treating you right?
If I could just be all that I can be for her
That's when I'd be the man I long to be
I hate this cycle it's a never-ending story of infinite last chances
I keep telling myself "just grow up"
I hear it each and every day
It's the only thing left to do
It's time to kill this
There's no two ways about it
Ends today right here right now
It's time I learn that it's not a matter of saying the right words or singing the right songs
It's so old but it's not easy to say good-bye to all of this heartache
To just say no
To run away
Endure pain and suffocate every desire that hurts you
My words and actions don't align
My heart is the victim of my mind
In "To Kill This," This Providence eloquently expresses the inner turmoil of a person struggling to become the man they want to be. The opening lines reveal the singer's lack of self-esteem and his deep-seated frustration with himself. The subsequent lines indicate that the singer's motivation for change comes from his desire to treat someone (presumably his partner) right. He believes that he will become the person he wants to be if he can just be all that he can be for her. He is tired, however, of the endless cycle of lost chances and perpetual self-criticism. He tells himself to grow up but acknowledges that it is easier said than done. He acknowledges that it is time to "kill this" once and for all. It is no longer about saying the right words or singing the right songs. The singer must endure pain and suffocate every desire that hurts him to become the man he wants to be.
Overall, This Providence's "To Kill This" delves deep into the universal struggle that many young adults face. The song provides its listeners with lyrics that will resonate with them at their most vulnerable, while also striking a chord with those who are trying to make positive changes in their own lives.
Line by Line Meaning
With a lack of self esteem I walked into my teens
I entered my teenage years with low self-confidence and self-worth.
And six years later I'm still frustrated
After six years, I'm still struggling and upset.
I'm still not who I want to be
I haven't become the person I aspire to be.
And now it all comes down to, am I treating you right?
If I'm treating you the right way, then everything else falls into place.
If I could just be all that I can be for her
If I can be my best self for her, then everything else would be worth it.
That's when I'd be the man I long to be
Becoming the man I aspire to be requires being my best self for her.
I hate this cycle it's a never-ending story of infinite last chances
I despise this never-ending cycle of repeated chances and missed opportunities.
I keep telling myself "just grow up"
I'm constantly reminding myself to mature and be responsible.
But it's so easy to say and so much harder to do
Saying and doing are two different things, and it's harder to follow through with actions than words.
I hear it each and every day
I hear the call to grow up and take responsibility every single day.
It's the only thing left to do
The only option left is to take responsibility and grow up.
It's time to kill this
It's time to end this cycle and move on.
There's no two ways about it
There's only one way to make it right, and that's to end the cycle.
Ends today right here right now
Today, right now, is when it all ends.
It's time I learn that it's not a matter of saying the right words or singing the right songs
I need to understand that taking responsibility and growing up isn't about words or songs, but about taking action.
It's so old but it's not easy to say good-bye to all of this heartache
Saying goodbye to the heartache and the cycle is difficult, even though it's an old problem.
To just say no
I need to say no to the cycle and the bad habits that come with it.
To run away
I need to distance myself from the cycle and the negative influences in my life.
Endure pain and suffocate every desire that hurts you
I need to endure the pain of letting go of my bad habits and suppress any desires that ultimately hurt me.
My words and actions don't align
My words and actions are not congruent or in agreement with one another.
My heart is the victim of my mind
My heart is suffering because of my lack of action and immaturity, which is controlled by my mind.
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