From there, the band would continue to rise in the charts. In 2007, they released their fifth full-length, The Flame in All of Us, which was produced by Ken Andrews (Beck, Chris Cornell, Pete Yorn). Arriving in 2009, the aggressive Welcome to the Masquerade, which would be the band's last release with Tooth & Nail, entered the Billboard Top 200 at number 35, peaking at number two on the Christian rock chart. It was their most successful album to date and would spawn the band's first live album, Live at the Masquerade. The group's next studio album, The End Is Where We Begin, was issued in 2012. It was their first album released entirely independently. Continuing the upward chart trajectory with each subsequent release, The End debuted at number 14 on the Billboard 200, and claimed the top spots on both the hard rock and Christian charts. In late 2013, the band released Made in Canada: The 1998-2010 Collection, which included two new tracks. Thousand Foot Krutch remained independent into 2014, relying on crowd-sourcing for the release of the energetic Oxygen: Inhale, the first part of a pair of hard rock chart-topping LPs. The heavier Exhale followed in 2016, marking TFK's third consecutive Christian number one.
Favorite Disease
Thousand Foot Krutch Lyrics
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Haunted, voices, craving, someone to run to,
I haven't lost myself in a long time,
I never tried to care when I wanted to,
I just want to be part of something,
I just want to be real like you
[Chorus]
And times, I feel like a saint,
I'm on my knees, you're my favorite disease
Silent, warnings, tell me, that I've let things come,
Undone, show me, teach me, the way to heaven,
'Cause no other way can, I haven't lost myself in a long time,
I never tried to care when I wanted to,
I just wanted to to be part of something,
I just wanted to be real like you
[Chorus]
Closer, closer, closer to you, I need to be closer,
I have closure, and get closer to you,
Every step I take...
[Chorus]
And I love the way you kill me,
Love the way you heal me,
I love the way you kill me,
Love the way you heal me,
I love the way you kill me,
Love the way you heal me
The song "Favorite Disease" by Thousand Foot Krutch is about the internal conflict and struggle of the singer. The lyrics portray a person who is in a constant state of chaos, seeking direction and guidance. The first verse feels like someone is running away from something or towards something while being haunted by their past, as they feel like they've lost themselves and have not been able to care for as long as they remember. They want to be a part of something and be real like another person but seem to be unable to find that connection. The first verse may suggest a person that is lost and alone, struggling to find their place in the world.
The chorus expresses the duality of the singer’s personality. The singer says that they feel like a monster and a saint at different times in their life, but they are always on their knees, praying to the same entity. This chorus may suggest a person that has lived both good and bad times, and is in need of something to hold on to.
The phrase, “you’re my favorite disease” in the chorus of the song may sound paradoxical, creating an image of someone welcoming illness, but in fact, it could be seen as embracing the singer’s flaws, and the lower parts of themselves, giving them an entity to connect with. The final verse has the singer moving closer towards the entity they sing about and wanting to be healed by it. This verse follows an anxious tone, suggesting that the singer has felt lost for a long time and requires guidance to find their way.
Line by Line Meaning
Wanting, watching, debating, on which way to run to,
I am feeling lost and unsure of which direction to take, and I am struggling with making a decision.
Haunted, voices, craving, someone to run to,
I am feeling haunted by past experiences or mistakes, and I am longing for someone to turn to or confide in.
I haven't lost myself in a long time,
It has been a while since I truly felt like myself or have been true to who I am.
I never tried to care when I wanted to,
I often hold back from showing my emotions and caring for others, even when I desire to do so.
I just want to be part of something,
I am searching for a sense of belonging and a community to be a part of.
I just want to be real like you
I admire those who are true to themselves and others, and I aspire to be the same.
Sometimes, I feel like a monster,
At times, I feel like I am a terrible person or have done something unforgivable.
And times, I feel like a saint,
Other times, I feel like I am a good person who is doing the right thing.
I'm on my knees, you're my favorite disease
I recognize that I have become dependent on something or someone that is not good for me, yet I continue to seek it out despite the harmful consequences.
Silent, warnings, tell me, that I've let things come,
There are subtle signs or indications that I have allowed certain negative things to enter or remain in my life.
Undone, show me, teach me, the way to heaven,
I feel like I am unraveling or falling apart, and I am seeking guidance or direction to find peace or redemption.
Closer, closer, closer to you, I need to be closer,
I feel a strong desire to be emotionally closer or intimately connected to someone or something.
I have closure, and get closer to you, Every step I take...
I am working towards finding closure or resolution, and I am attempting to move forward and make progress towards my desired end goal.
And I love the way you kill me,
I am drawn to things that are potentially harmful or destructive for me, and I have a difficult time letting go of them.
Love the way you heal me,
At the same time, I recognize that these same things or people have the power to bring me comfort or healing in some way.
I love the way you kill me,
Despite the potential harm or consequences, I cannot help but be drawn to this thing or person.
Love the way you heal me,
At the same time, I am grateful for the comfort or solace that this thing or person brings me.
I love the way you kill me,
I acknowledge the risks and dangers of my actions, yet I am still unable to resist them.
Love the way you heal me
Even so, I appreciate and seek out the ways in which this thing or person brings me relief, support, or healing.
Lyrics © Capitol CMG Publishing
Written by: JOEL BRUYERE, KEN ANDREWS, STEVE AUGUSTINE, TREVOR MCNEVAN
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Wanting, watching, debating, on which way to run to,
Haunted, voices, craving, someone to run to,
I haven't lost myself in a long time,
I never tried to care when I wanted to,
I just want to be part of something,
I just want to be real like you
Sometimes, I feel like a monster,
And times, I feel like a saint,
I'm on my knees, you're my favorite disease
Silent, warnings, tell me, that I've let things come,
Undone, show me, teach me, the way to heaven,
'Cause no other way can, I haven't lost myself in a long time,
I never tried to care when I wanted to,
I just wanted to to be part of something,
I just wanted to be real like you
Sometimes, I feel like a monster,
And times, I feel like a saint,
I'm on my knees, you're my favorite disease
Closer, closer, closer to you, I need to be closer,
I have closure, and get closer to you,
Every step I take...
Sometimes, I feel like a monster,
And times, I feel like a saint,
I'm on my knees, you're my favorite disease
And I love the way you kill me,
Love the way you heal me,
I love the way you kill me,
Love the way you heal me,
I love the way you kill me,
Love the way you heal me
Gianbox MEC
Love this song
Sergei The Slav
I remembered when I first listened to this song in Elementary School. Thank you for fueling my love of guitar and rock music
Matuto
+1
Israel Country Cube
Was that 10 years ago? Man God help me!
Wendy Fleurette
these guys deserve a grammy and an oscar
Zr00we
Wendy Fleurette I second that notion. TFK is so missed by A lot of people
Tyler VanVlack
They are my favorite band
Nocturnal Vision
This song and video still rock. So emotional
TheTraitorslayer
Love this song! Awesome band!
Whty360
This band needs more publicity, their quite good, especially this song