Their debut album - All Eternity - was released in Finland by the end of that year and the band then signed contracts with Nuclear Blast (for Europe) and Pony Canyon (for Japan). In 2000, the band toured Europe together with Dark Tranquillity, Sentenced and In Flames. Epilogue was released in 2001 and was followed by a tour with Lacrimosa.
The album Jaded was released in 2003 and in August of that year, vocalist Jarno Perätalo left the band. He assembled a new band named Tiaga, integrated by former members of To/Die/For. However, in 2004, Jarno Perätalo and the band Tiaga took the name To/Die/For for themselves, releasing the album IV in 2005.
New Heaven
To/Die/For Lyrics
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Celebrating the death of my humanity
Ashes to ashes dust to dust
I am fading away with my sins
With forbidden lusts
Feels like I'm here only to wither away
Catch my fall
Rip the pain out from my chest
Lift me up from the deepest grave
Catch my fall
Show me that life is worth living
Reality is killing me
Vanity blocks my rusted veins
New dawn is nothing but a dive into a thick haze
Apathy conceals my passions behind black lace
My only joy... writhing in pain
Without grace
My vanity is rankling me like the chaps on my skin
Catch my fall
Show me that life is worth living
The lyrics of To/Die/For's song "New Heaven" are a contemplation on the singer's struggles with their humanity as they feel themselves fading away with their sins and forbidden desires. The shadows are symbolic of darker parts of the singer's psyche that are manifesting and dancing for them, as if celebrating the death of their humanity. They feel like they are only here to wither away, and they're begging for someone to lift them up from their deepest grave and show them a new heaven.
The second verse describes how reality is killing the singer, and how their vanity is blocking their rusted veins. A new dawn is nothing but a dive into a thick haze, and apathy conceals their passions behind black lace. They find joy in writhing in pain without grace, and their vanity is rankling them like the chaps on their skin. The singer pleads again for someone to catch their fall and show them that life is worth living.
Overall, the lyrics of "New Heaven" are dark and introspective, depicting a speaker who is struggling with their own humanity and asking for help to find a reason to keep going. The imagery of shadows, ashes, and black lace add to the haunting atmosphere of the song, while the plea for help adds a sense of desperation.
Line by Line Meaning
Shadows are dancing for me
I feel as though the darkness is celebrating my suffering
Celebrating the death of my humanity
I believe that I have lost all that makes me human and am now celebrating that loss
Ashes to ashes dust to dust
I understand that all living things must eventually perish and turn to dust
I am fading away with my sins
I feel myself growing weaker as I continue to commit sins and wrongdoing
With forbidden lusts
I am consumed by lust for that which I know I should not have or do
Feels like I'm here only to wither away
I am having trouble finding purpose in my life and feel as though I am slowly fading into nothingness
Catch my fall
I am pleading for someone to help me through my struggles and suffering
Rip the pain out from my chest
I am desperate for someone to take away the pain I am feeling and help me heal
Show me a new heaven
I am seeking a new life or a new way of living to give me hope and happiness
Lift me up from the deepest grave
I feel as though I am in a metaphorical grave and am asking for someone to help me out of it
Show me that life is worth living
I am doubting the value of my own existence and am asking for someone to show me that life can be fulfilling and meaningful
Reality is killing me
I am struggling to come to terms with the real world and its hardships
Vanity blocks my rusted veins
I am consumed by my own pride and ego, which is preventing me from finding happiness or fulfillment
New dawn is nothing but a dive into a thick haze
I don't have hope for the future and believe that any new opportunities will only bring disappointment
Apathy conceals my passions behind black lace
I have lost interest in the things that used to bring me joy and am now hiding my emotions behind a façade of indifference
My only joy... writhing in pain
I have become so consumed by my suffering that it has become the only thing that brings me any sense of satisfaction
Without grace
I feel as though I am alone and abandoned in my struggles with no hope of divine intervention or guidance
My vanity is rankling me like the chaps on my skin
My pride is causing me physical pain, much like a rough or irritating fabric against my skin
Contributed by Cameron W. Suggest a correction in the comments below.