In June 2002, Shawn Crahan, Brandon Darner and Stevan Robinson began working on an album together. During an interview with MTV in 2003 Crahan explained; "I've been keeping in touch with the music side of myself," and that To My Surprise is "a movement towards understanding [himself] and who [he is]."Two songs that Crahan and Darner wrote in 2002 were sent to producer Rick Rubin, without the intent of working with him. However, Rubin invited the band to Cello Studios in Los Angeles to work on an album.On October 7, 2003, the band released their debut album To My Surprise through Roadrunner Records.A music Video for the track "In The Mood" premiered on MTV's Extreme show on December 1. In 2004 "Get It To Go" featured on the soundtrack for the video game MVP Baseball 2004.Also in 2004, Crahan began working with Slipknot again in preparation of the release of their third album. At this time vocalist Darner was—as Crahan describes it—"at an age where he was ready to start his career" but Crahan had other commitments with Slipknot and Darner decided to leave To My Surprise.Shortly after this, with only releasing one album by the band, Roadrunner Records parted ways with To My Surprise.
In 2005—after Slipknot had finished touring—Crahan and Robinson got back together to work on new material, enlisting the help of Dorothy Hecht, Jarrod Brom, Paul Thompson and Wade Thompson, making the band twice its original size The band were working on a second album which they planned to release through Crahan's own label Big Orange Clown Records. In 2006 it was announced that the band would release a limited edition 7" record, however the band began performing shows and this brought a halt to work in the studio.[9] Most notably To My Surprise performed at South by Southwest, which Crahan described as "a dream come true".Prior to their performance at South by Southwest a track entitled "Jump The Gun" was released online as part of an e-card.They also planned to perform at festivals in Europe and tour the US, however the band canceled their appearances at European festivals and parted ways. Crahan said that the reason the band "died" was because it was unrealistic for him to be in this band and make it work and that "Slipknot made it impossible".
Say Goodbye
To My Surprise Lyrics
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In here
Away
From you
You
You're in here too
Away
From me
Its lonely
Its killing
Us all
Why
Can't they tell us
What we need to know
Please release
Release please
Please release
Release please
Out there
Is nowhere
Were all
Just in hiding
We don't need
One another
Anymore
Anymore
I
Don't know what to do
About any of you
I
Just might
Say goodbye
I
Just might
Say goodbye
Just might say goodbye
Just might say goodbye
Just might say goodbye
Just might say goodbye
The song "Say Goodbye" by To My Surprise is a hauntingly beautiful piece of music that delves into the theme of isolation and disconnect in a relationship. The song revolves around the need for release from the emotional turmoil caused by the inability to communicate with one's partner. The lyrics suggest that both individuals in the relationship are in a state of solitude and are struggling to cope with the situation. The usage of the phrase "in here" and "out there" throughout the song helps to create a sense of confinement and entrapment.
The repetition of the line "Please release, release please" signifies the desperation of the singer for an end to the underlying tension in the relationship. The lyrics also suggest a lack of communication between the two partners, as they are unable to understand each other's needs and feelings. The line "We don't need one another anymore, anymore" highlights the loss of connection and mutual dependence between them.
The chorus of the song, "I just might say goodbye" portrays the dilemma faced by the singer, who is unsure of how to resolve the issues in the relationship. The repetition of this line in the latter part of the song suggests a growing resolve to end the relationship, emphasizing the emotional toll it has taken on the singer.
Overall, "Say Goodbye" is a beautiful and poignant song that delves into the complexities of a failing relationship and the toll it takes on the individuals involved.
Line by Line Meaning
I'm
I am alone and separate from everyone else.
In here
I am enclosed in a space with no way out.
Away
I am physically and emotionally distant from you.
From you
I am separated from you personally.
You
You are also secluded in this place.
You're in here too
You are also surrounded by empty space.
Away
You are also emotionally estranged from me.
From me
You are cut off from a personal relationship with me.
In here
We are both trapped and alone.
Its lonely
This isolation is deeply painful and sad.
Its killing
This feeling of separation is slowly destroying us.
Us all
Everyone who experiences isolation is affected by it.
Why
We are searching for a reason for this pain and confusion.
Can't they tell us
We are looking for guidance and help from anyone who can offer it.
What we need to know
We are seeking understanding and clarity about our situation.
Please release
We are begging to be released from this state of isolation and pain.
Release please
We need to be set free from this psychological prison.
Out there
Outside of this enclosed space.
Is nowhere
We cannot escape the feeling of being lost and alone.
Were all
We are all suffering in the same way.
Just in hiding
Our fear and pain is causing us to hide from each other.
We don't need
Our pain is making us feel like we do not require human connection.
One another
We have become so distant from each other that we do not think we need other people.
Anymore
We may have once believed in the value of human connection, but we do not believe it now.
Anymore
We do not believe in anything anymore.
I
I am speaking for myself.
Don't know what to do
I feel powerless to change my situation.
About any of you
I do not know how to connect with other people, even if I wanted to.
Just might say goodbye
I am considering leaving behind everything and everyone I know.
Just might say goodbye
I am close to making this irreversible decision.
Just might say goodbye
I am contemplating the possibility of ending my own life.
Just might say goodbye
I am on the brink of giving up on everything and everyone.
Lyrics © Sony/ATV Music Publishing LLC
Written by: BRANDON DARNER, MICHAEL CRAHAN, MICHAEL SHAWN CRAHAN, STEVAN ROBINSON
Lyrics Licensed & Provided by LyricFind
Jordan Matter
Click here to see what happened after the surprise ❤: https://youtu.be/kQVaLpkpntY
Subwayculous Arcade
I saw the Video!
Marvela Thompkins
its my birthday today
🥀Aaron & V🥀
Hi I’m the 3rd commenter I love the vids
Jordan Matter
@Marvela Thompkins Happy birthday!! ❤
Arpitha and Tripura
Th video was epic I love your videos
Jordan Matter
You should see the prank Hudson played on Salish for her birthday https://youtu.be/yWt1Rrd_6Vs (THIS WAS DEFINITELY NOT WRITTEN BY HUDSON 😂)
Unknown
This is a great surprise i swear salish would have cried 💜💜💜💜
Weirdo Visa
I already watched it was an awesome video
The Cream Cheese Sisters
Must be an awesome surprise for sailish!